I dunno Lia. I've pretty much decided not to do that any more.

Take my word for it, that's not fun. It just...makes stuff worse. And you get into the habit. Just...don't go there.

That's how I've lived my whole life until all this SI and ED stuff kicked up. All talking about it seems to accomplish is hurting people I care about n messing up friendships.

I know. Those I trust enough to talk about things with I love too much to hurt. And I'm always afraid they will leave me, even if they don't mean to because there are some things no one can predict and even if people do promise to always be there, they don't know how frustrating it it going to be, they can't promise that. But here on the ward and RYL in general, we all support each other. It's what we're here for. And although I'm not always entirely honest with you guys, it all goes in my R/V. No one here's going to judge or abandon you.

Exactly! I knew you would understand Lia! At first I had decided to only wear the mask, if ya know what I mean, with everyone irl. Then I kept saying the wrong thing here n either triggering someone or making things worse for people I was trying to help. Now I feel like I should just keep to myself like I had always done before, to protect others.

*hugs all*

I have to be up stupidly early tomorrow to get a bus to manchester and then a tram back to bury, which is only a bus ride from where i am, but the buses dont run until 10 and my course starts at 9.30, bloody public transport, I'll still probably be late

I don't recall you ever doing that here. You're a really nice person and only ever try and help people. If you think something you say is going to be triggering, you can put it in a hide box, or if your computer is playing up like mine does sometimes, just put a little warning before your main part. You shouldn't have to keep everything inside you even on here. Or have an R/V, as far as I am aware, there are no rules about what you can and can't write there because it's your space. You don't have to worry about triggering others because hardly anyone else will read it and if they do they should know full well what sort of things may be in there.

Talking to people just plain scares me now.

*Hugs Oliver* That sucks, I have to get up early also for church and I haven't slept in for weeks :( Still, it's my choice to go so y'know.

F**king bol***ing wa***rs. I completely forgot to start my script now I have to write 9 pages tomorrow.

*hugs Lia and Solo*

Heya :)

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Solo*

*Hugs Oliver*

Thanks Lia! The problems have been on another forum and in private messages. I'll check out the r/v thread. Talking to people just plain scares me now too! I have a friend who keeps wanting me to talk to her but I'm just too afraid to now, after past experiences.

~Hugs Oliver~

~Hugs Ian~

*hugs mark, lia, solo, oliver, and ian*

*spies felicia*

*hugs everyone*

hey darling, how'd today go? *snuggle*

~Hugs Laura, Felicia, and Heather~

:) <3.

*Huggles wardies!*

Hellooooo! How is everyone :D

~Huggles Megs~

~Huggles you too Felicia~

how are you solo? Felicia?