Lol, no, it's for my drama performance. But I am so bad at languages and I only have two weeks.

hugs everyone

*Hugs Louise* How're you?

so so got the funeral friday, so pretty much a mess. how are you?

I am so sorry for saying this mark because you had to go through this to.

It's okay Louise we all have Funerals , I'm sorry you had one:)

*Hugs Louise and Mark*
*Spies and hugs Charlie and Felicia*

hugs everybody, curls up in a dark corner.

how is everyone else

One year OD free. 3 weeks SH free. Threw my blades away. I'm sleeping properly and am so much more confidant. So why do I still feel like crap?
:(

*Hugs Charlie* Thats awesome! way too go you!!!!!!!!!

*Hugs Mark* Thanks hun.
I just wish I didn't still feel like crap though.

*Hugs Charlie* do you always feel like it, or is it a passing mood?

*Hugs Lia* I don't know. I suppose it's always there, but theres times when I don't think about it so much, I can distract myself and stuff. Tonight it's just all in my head and I can't stop the thoughts from coming
:(

I know the feeling. It's like a permenent weight on your shoulders, pushing you down and down closer to rock bottom every day and there's this constant pain that niggles at your heart and it won't go away, no matter what you're doing, it's always there, tugging and stabbing and sometimes you notice it less but it's always there waiting to drag you down again. But you've come so far in the last year. You said yourself you never thought you'd make it here and now look :)

*Cuddles* Yeah, I wish you didn't know how I feel though. I wish none of us did. Yeah, all my blades are in the river, i'm not getting more. No matter what. I can do this.

You can :) I believe in you.

*Hugs Crimson* How are you?

And you Jill, I didn't see you up there.

Hey Mark :)

Thankyou, and I beleive in you too. Just read your R/V, I told you your drama would go fine!

*HUGGLES!!*

Ice: congrats! I know exactly what you mean for the whole magic of theatre thing! and You got this polish thing!

Rawwr: maybe if you tell someone about the thoughts they will lift off a little. I know when I do it helps :) feel free to pm me whenever!

*walks up to shadow* whats wrong sweety? you ok?

*hugs lia*
Been distracting myself with genealogy searches today... unfortunately that means little to no work has been done in my office but ya know...