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Doikers 26-07-2011 08:51 PM

*Hugs Laura* Do you HAVE to go impatient?

*Hugs Crimson* You are lovely , end of.

*Hugs Lindsay*

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 08:57 PM

*hugs Mark* no, it's voluntary. I'm forcing myself. I'm forcing myself to get better, but really I don't know if I want to get better. I'm forcing myself to talk in therapy. I don't think I can force myself to cooperate there the whole day.

one_step_closer 26-07-2011 09:02 PM

Recovery is hard sometimes, i'm glad that you're forcing yourself to do the things that you think might be beneficial for you. What do you think will be difficult about cooperating for the whole day?

I have my voluntary work tomorrow and I really don't want to go. It's so exhausing to put on a face and I feel distracted and like i'm going to cry.

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 09:12 PM

I really want to injure and purge and I don't want to be stopped, or maybe I do want to be stopped but I can't ask for help. I don't want to cooperate and I'm not strong enough to force myself all the time.

Is it the whole day tomorrow?

one_step_closer 26-07-2011 09:31 PM

What do you want to get from injuring and purging?

It's from 11 to 4 tomorrow.

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 09:45 PM

I don't really know what I want to get from it.
I don't know why I injure most of the time. I do know that I purge when I'm feeling full and/or fat.

That's 5 hours. Seems like a long time now, but it is probably going to be over much faster than it seems like now. Don't check your watch too many times, then it wont feel as long. You can do this.

PoisonedApple 26-07-2011 09:51 PM

*cuddles Mark* You make me smile :)
*hugs Lindsay* What kind of volunteer work is it?
*hugs Laura* Proud of you for helping yourself. Is there any way that since it is voluntary you could start on a non closed ward? It seems to be the biggest snag in your... reluctance/willingness/ comfort/whatever word is right cuz I can't find it.

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 09:59 PM

*hugs Crimson* I don't think the closed ward is the thing that bothers me. I guess I kind of prefer it that way, they said that I'm going to have less therapy there, that's relaxter I think. It bothers me that there are people going to watch me all the time.

PoisonedApple 26-07-2011 10:02 PM

True but would they watch you as much in an open ward?or watch you less?
~I could be wrong... kind of a feeling in the dark for the light switch kind of deal for me.

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 10:06 PM

I don't know if they would watch me as much on the open ward. All I know is that I would just quit and go home if they want me to work on some things. I wont be as tempted to leave on the closed ward.

PoisonedApple 26-07-2011 10:08 PM

Ah, I see. Hadn't really thought of that. Good point.

Doikers 26-07-2011 10:11 PM

Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Lindsay*

Thats all I can cope with right now

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 10:16 PM

*hugs Crimson* you are awesome
*hugs Mark* what's going on?

risenfromperdition 26-07-2011 10:16 PM

*sits with mark*
just think, its already almost wednesday there [which i hate you for but nerr :P]

Laura2.0 26-07-2011 10:26 PM

*hugs Heather*

Doikers 26-07-2011 10:46 PM

*Hugs Laura* I'm meeting Felicia on Friday :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

*Squishes Heather*

frenchhorn 26-07-2011 11:54 PM

*hugs Crimson* your not horrible at all, your a lovely kind person.

*hugs mark* yay its nearly friday, I bet your super excited.

*hugs Lindsay* I hope the crisis team don't abandon you, although if your one is anything like mine then they probably will abandon you.

*hugs Laura* I hope the inpatient helps when it comes along

*hugs Heather* how are you?

I really, really badly want to OD, I am so close to walking to my local 24hr supermarkt and buying pills right now.

PoisonedApple 27-07-2011 12:21 AM

*hugs Mark, Lindsay, Laura, Heather and Oliver*
Yay! 2 more days Mark! I am so excited for you guys!

The crisis teams by you guys seem like they aren't really there for you so much as to gather a paycheck by doing the least amount of work possible by helping only those that don't need it :(

*cuddles Oliver* Please don't. I don't want anything bad to happen to you.

frenchhorn 27-07-2011 12:34 AM

*hugs Crimson*

Cazki 27-07-2011 12:53 AM

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Heather*

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