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Scarletdreamer 27-05-2010 06:36 PM

Awh sweetie, why do you feel you need to cut badly? please try not to... was it the meeting this morning that is causing this? If so... GRRRRRR!!!!! at the meeting. *special terrifying April-growls*

*holds both of your hands*

Doikers 27-05-2010 06:37 PM

I HAVE to Harm , I HAVE to. I hate this feeling ,I'm just trying to put it off as long as I can because I know it would be bad , sorry

Doikers 27-05-2010 06:40 PM

The Medical was horrible , I didn't know the answer and woulden't have said many thing had my SW not interjected , I think it's left over stress from the medical triggering me , I'm doing that whole visualising the cut I would make thing , just want to feel better:( sorry

Scarletdreamer 27-05-2010 06:44 PM

Awh Mark, wish I could help. :( Please go to A&E if it needs stitches, okay? please?... :-S I wish I could help more, I'm sorry I'm not a better friend. I'm also sorry that the meeting was so triggering, although I'm sure you did fine for how nervous you were!! Will keep praying for you... and no, no condemnation if you do end up cutting... so please don't feel like you've let any of us down if you do cut. But, do try to play the 15 minute game (or 5-minute game, as the case may be!!)... *cuddles gently*

PoisonedApple 27-05-2010 06:44 PM

*huggles and holds Mark's hand* Of course you didn't know all of the answers. you were anxious and had never had to undergo this process before, this is why your SW went with you. You shouldn't feel bad about that. I understand the leftover stress getting to you but you don't have to cut you can stay here with us. Have you tried drawing as a distraction method? That sometimes works.

Scarletdreamer 27-05-2010 06:50 PM

Please distract yourself, Mark... write "Love" on your arm (http://www.twloha.org) with colored pens... draw... shred newspapers... punch a soft pillow... even use a rubber band on your wrist. You can make it through this... we're here for you, love. *holds your other hand* You're a strong guy... you've just got to discover that strength within yourself.

Doikers 27-05-2010 06:50 PM

Thankyou Crimson and April :), Why am I like this ? surely if my meds were working I would not need to cut? , am angry at myself , I eat too much today from the stress of it all and that just makes me wanna beat myself up too. *Sigh* I'm gonna make a camomille tea , thats what I always suggest to people, Take my own advice .......

Scarletdreamer 27-05-2010 06:55 PM

Maybe the tea will help... I hope so!! Mint or ginger tea is also good and relaxing, if you have either of those - at least, they're relaxing to me, not necessarily to everyone I guess. Not sure. *cuddles* I'm sorry that you're feeling so **** right now, is there anything I can do??

Doikers 27-05-2010 07:03 PM

I 'm sorry I don't know if there is anything you could do , Maybe I'll go on WoW in a bit , thankyou for being here :) Thankyou to April AND Crimson.

Scarletdreamer 27-05-2010 07:07 PM

WoW would probably be a good idea, just have fun on it, randomly level up by killing things - since splattering monsters on screen can be cathartic when you can't get rid of your own monsters. *huggles* I wish we could play together but I'm not at home so couldn't play anyway, boo hiss. :(

I'm printing off 50 of these Parent Resource Guides and I get to staple them together tomorrow but thing is I'm supposed to print off 500 and that is SEVEN THOUSAND PAGES!!!!!! >_<

So yeah. I am NOT taking home 7000 pages of stuff to staple!!

*hides in her hole* :'(

Doikers 27-05-2010 07:12 PM

Hmmm So you have 700 pages to staple? it sounds quite a few . are you working from home tomorow?

PoisonedApple 27-05-2010 07:13 PM

*huggles Mark* Sorry for vanishing for a bit there... my internet went wonky and wouldn't load any pages or even refresh any... had to close and reopen the browser a few times before it'd work again. I hope wow and the tea help.
I'll still be checking in throughout the day (maybe even after I get home depending on what else is going on). *huggles all*

risenfromperdition 27-05-2010 07:17 PM

*curls up*

a)clothes shoppiong shouldnt exist [and bloody hell im huge =/]
b)i was dumb the other day and flipped and scratched tummy... not lots/not deep but apparnetly my aunt saw when she took me shopping today... and now mums gonna look when she gets home and am screwed and i just ugh.

Scarletdreamer 27-05-2010 07:22 PM

Mark, yeah I'm working from home tomorrow. I will have at least 1400 pages to staple (in booklet form so I need to borrow a special stapler!!) since I just printed off another 50 booklets (700 pages). GAHH!!!! >_< Hopefully Jarrod can help some...

Heather, aren't you old enough to claim privacy privileges on your mum checking up on you? :-/ I mean, that's obviously not a legal thing, lol, just something I made up, but it seems if you're over 18 you should be able to tell your parents NO and have it count as a NO. And I agree, clothes shopping sucks. *cuddles*

ARGH am so freaking warm... :( I'm so thirsty too!!

Doikers 27-05-2010 07:22 PM

Heather Rght? I looked at your profile pic and you are NOT huge , I dislike clothes shopping too * Hugs*

risenfromperdition 27-05-2010 07:27 PM

:/ according to sizes hadda get i am... *sigh*
and and if i do say no she'll just KNOW im saying it cuz of that... and im horrid at being assertive ><
gah. stupid clothes shopping =[ had a lean cuisine thingy for lunch... feel too much =[ wish body would do what me want it to =[
*shushes*

shadowedsoul 27-05-2010 07:29 PM

sorry I can keep doing this, want to dissapear of the face of
the earth, no longer give a rats ass. Don't see the point
anymore allready brust into tears when a freind asked
if I was okay. Today has just been ****, really had enough.

risenfromperdition 27-05-2010 07:50 PM

*hug* im useless but you CAN do this x

MammaMia 27-05-2010 08:25 PM

*hugs everyone lots & lots*

Trying to keep telling myself she'll be talking me again soon and just need to keep going, I swear each day without properly talking makes it harder. Perhaps aswell all the stuff that happened for us both on Tuesday makes it worse & we were going to have a good old chat yesterday.

It's worse when we've had an argument/situation, as I'm sat there blaming myself. I knew it was coming this time (sometimes I do). But everyday without, is a day closer to her/me/people being okay. Everyday I breathe is a day closer to everything be okay again right? I'm talking a load of waffle, it doesn't have to be replied to, just thinking/talking out loud. It's helping, a bit >_>

So over everything. Trying to keep going. I really am.

taz35 27-05-2010 09:37 PM

*hugs Hels* I definitely go into super-tidying mode when something's bugging me to the point I have excess energy :P Or maybe a slightly manic mode, because I'll clean our whole house top to bottom!

*hugs April* I'll go read your r/v once I post this, and come back and edit. I know how it feels to want to put on a happy face, act like everything's fine... sometimes though, that just makes it worse (at least for me) because you just want somebody to take notice. Whether that's the same for you, I have no idea... but that's just my mindset :/

*hugs Kat* I'm alright... was in a complete crap mood before leaving for work, and for the first half of my shift. On my break I took some painkillers though, and apparently they work to help me focus? Or at least change my mood =/ Although that could have to do with the thunderstorm we had :) I love lightning/thunder + rain... weird? But makes me REALLY happy. How have you been?

*hugs Crimson* That's awesome that you daughter likes the history book :) I could never get interested in history... it just bores me =/

*hugs Mark* I wish I had been around :( Stupid work >< I hope you haven't given in to the urges... And I hope the chamomile tea made you feel slightly better. <3

*hugs shadowedsoul tightly*

*hugs Heather* You are NOT huge hun :) You're gorgeous. But I agree with the dislike of clothes shopping... my mom used to force me to go when I was younger and always made me try on clothes I hated and weren't my typical tomboy style. I'm still not a fan of clothes shopping, but I'm getting used to it.


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