*Hugs Lindsay* Please call a helpline hun , reach out we care about you .

*Hugs Alexx* Don't do that hun , Could you speak with anyone?

Alex and one_step_closer ; please hang in there. We are all here for you. Keep talking to us. My MSN is on my profile if you want a distraction and/or someone to talk to. Think distraction, distraction, distraction. xxxx

I'm sorry that alot of you are struggling, im here if anyone wants to talk.

*Hugs Mark* Sorry your low Mark

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

*Hugs MJ*

*Hugs Alex*

*Hugs Lindsay* Please dont od :( your so lovely, id be really sad if anything happened to you

*Hugs Alexx*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs MJ*

Overdosing is the only thing that I have to look forward to right now. I'll be as careful as I can.

How is everyone today?

Yeah please do be careful Lindsay Hun *Hugs*

I'm pretty Flat , Have no alcohol in the house wondering what S.I. I'll do , Triggered.

*hugs everyone*

Feel so much worse today. the issue of moving came up, and I have the forms to fill out. I can't handle life. I can't live in this world. I so want to go now. :-( I look at Lucy (my dog) and think - I can't leave her. and then she reminds me of Nana, and Bampa, and Lozza, and Hayley-Rose and Emily. And I can't leave them either. But I can't cope any more. I can't handle life. I can't survive in this world. just can't handle life. Can't survive. Can't cope any more. :,(

*Hugs MJ* I'm sorry you feel so low *Offers a massive Beanbag chair*

Mark, I know your post about feeling triggered was a few hours ago but I hope the feeling has calmed down and that you maybe didn't have to act on it. I hope you're okay either way.

*sneaks in and leaves hugs on the table for everyone then hides in her ward room*

I acted on it Mrs Pan I seriously coulden't stop myself *Hugs*

*Hugs Crimson*

*hugs Mark*

*hugs Apple*

Got a plan and a date. :-(

*hugs all*
*goes to hide from the 'monsters' under her bed* I hope they don't find me.

*Hugs MJ* Is there anyone you can talk to ? I'm worried about you.

*Hugs Laura*

It's a while away yet. And I'm ringing my dr tomorrow. *shrugs* Feel like I've gone a bit mad and totally lost it. :/

Group hug? We all seem to be struggling lately. :-(

cuddles all, curls up. sorry i have not been about had a really crazy week.

*Joins in the Group Hug*

*Squishes Jill Extra*

*Hugs my Wardies goodnight*

I wish they did group hugs in the actual psych ward lol

:crying: Can I come in? I'm really bad at asking for help... but I'm struggling a lot tonight.

*Hugs Sefka* of course you can come in, your welcome here anytime. I'm sorry your struggling :( would you like to talk some more about whats going on for you?

*Hugs Mrs Pan* How are you?

*Hugs Jill* How are you Jill?

*Hugs Ninais* How are you ninais?

Thanks Ninais... <and the words get stuck in my throat>... I'M SO RUBBISH!
<hug>

and hug Atlantica.

And hug everyone else cos I'm good for nothing else.

*Hugs Sefka back* hey dont say that, you are a good person :yeah: whats wrong? Do you want to talk about it?

You're not good for nothing Sefka, what's happened to make you think like that?

Nothing really... just spent the evening trying to write my counselling email for this week and... it sucks. I'm trying to talk about things that are really painful and I can't do it. I've cried so much (which comes with a lot of snot) and I feel like I can't breathe.

And one cut would make it stop, but it wouldn't really solve anything (and it's never 'just one' cut.)

And I shouldn't feel like this, I hate myself for not being able to be fine.

That's it really. Sorry.

You don't have to apologise, there is no right or wrong with feelings.
If you're not ready to talk about things you don't have to.
You're right, cutting doesn't solve anything and I hope you don't feel you have to do it but don't think that makes you weak.
Don't hate yourself. You're not a bad person.

Sefka, please know something - you can always, always come to me for a chat, ok? That goes for any one of you. Just PM me. I might take a bit to get back to you, but I always will. If you need a reply ASAP, just tell me so.
xx

Thanks, that's really nice of you both.

How are you doing this evening?

I very nearly took my life, but got away with SI-ing instead. Not exactly ideal, but better than suicide, I guess.

I think it's cool you have counselling through email. I'd love that. It would work so much better for me than verbal counselling.

What MJ said, about PM'ing.

Yeah, it's soooo much better for me. I spent three months going to face to face counselling and got nowhere. Been doing it by email for almost 6 months and have progressed loads.

I'm so sorry you're feeling so low, MJ. Have you spoken to anyone about it tonight (apart from here)? Take care of yourself. Love you xx

*hugs everyone*

*hiding in the corner*

I am so confused by what I'm feeling right now. How can you feel so much that is different all at the same time? I wish I had someone to talk to, but I just know if I say it out loud i'll regret it. ****. how did it get this messed up.

hugs misskitty, SkinEssays and rhi89

Rhi, I can sympathise with inexplicable, out-of-control emotions. You can always say stuff here if you want.

I don't know how I'm going to get through today.

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

*Hugs Sefka* You are always welcome here Sefka :)

*Hugs Ninais*

*Hugs Ian*

*hugs MJ*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Michelle*

*Hugs Rhi*

*hugs everyone*

I can't do this any more.

I'm happy and excited on the one hand and Flat and Depressed on the other hand .............how?...........How does life do this?

*Squishes Lindsay*

hugs everyone

<sigh> I'm still at work but been hiding for most of the day. I really don't want to break down in front of colleagues but I'm so wound up everything's making me want to cry/scream.

Hugs everyone xx

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Sefka*

I'm so glad that the day is nearly over. Another day closer to OD day.

*hugs Lindsay* Please stay safe, hun.

*hugs every one*

I SI'd a lot today. I'm shaky and panicked and terrified and I can't calm down. :-(

*Hugs Lindsay* Yeah , Please stay safe :/

*Hugs Crimson* How are you hun?

*Hugs MJ* Please look after you wound/s hun .

*hugs Mark* Mostly doing decent. Stuck in a dilemma though... Trying to get it sorted...
you?

*cuddles MJ*