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FlyingNy 29-08-2010 10:01 PM

I'm sorry Taz, but try not to be so hard on yourself. We all slip and it doesn't make us weak, just human. You can hide in here with us :)

You're welcome Mark :) I actually feel better from talking to you guys. Just in general that is. Not talking about feelings. Not gonna make a habit of that.


MammaMia 29-08-2010 10:23 PM

My best friend is on the mend guys :D :D :D

FlyingNy 29-08-2010 10:32 PM

That's great Helen! Really happy for you *massive hugs* :D


The One Who 29-08-2010 10:55 PM

*hugs everyone* I thought there would have only been a few posts, but there's two or more pages. Jeez oh, I can't keep up.

Kahlia1981 29-08-2010 11:06 PM

*huggles everyone*

Sorry for the lack of individual replies - 5 pages of posts since last night my time ...

Katie - Technically I'm doing a bachelor of Technology majoring in Computing Studies but this study period I'm working for my Minor in Management. So glad to see you. *big hugs*

Mark - If you still are able, can you put my name on the card?

taz35 29-08-2010 11:10 PM

*hugs Lia* Thanks, I'm trying not to, but it's hard... It seems easier to beat myself up over it than to try and stay positive and refocus, if that makes sense.

*hugs Hels* That's great news :D How are you holding up?

*hugs Claire* I've noticed anytime I miss a day on here I'm catching up on 4+ pages of posts :P So no worries. How are you doing?

*hugs Kahlia* How are things?

*spots April and tackles her* How are you doing today?

MammaMia 29-08-2010 11:40 PM

Thanks guys *cuddles Lia & Taz* I'm hanging in there, but really pleased about my best friend.

*cuddles all*

FlyingNy 29-08-2010 11:50 PM

Lots and lots of pages all busy bees in here, buzz buzz buzz...

There's a sheep on my bed!

And a killer on the roof!

shadowedsoul 30-08-2010 12:00 AM

Cuddles all, hmm feeling very low again. Just want to cut and it all to be over. Hmm that kind off messed up. It's how I'm feeling low and messed up. Sorry just wish I could curl up and shut the world out, even for a little while

MammaMia 30-08-2010 12:02 AM

I spy Taz, Reaper, April, Jill & Lia *cuddles you all tightly*

Oh it's gone midnight here, so means 5 weeks til I see my bestie in person. I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!

taz35 30-08-2010 12:04 AM

*hugs Hels* Keep hanging in there :D How are things going with your other bestie? I think I remember you were angry for a while because she wasn't answering her phone? Sorry if I'm wrong =/

*hugs Lia* Has the killer already killed? If not... how can you deem them a killer? :P

*hugs Jills* I know the feeling hun. Why so low right now?

*tackles Reaper and April*

FlyingNy 30-08-2010 12:05 AM

The killer is getting closer and the sheep just exploded! There's a christmas tree walking on the ceiling!


MammaMia 30-08-2010 12:08 AM

Taz, I was a little annoyed. I was just being silly. She phoned me back, I missed her twice, phoned her back and she called me back. So we chatted for a while :) Seeing her in 5 weeks time as I mentioned in my last post ^_^ *hugs*

Lia, are you ok???

RYUU 30-08-2010 12:11 AM

* hugs everyone *
Voices are back telling me i must die
maybe i should but i cant get to the meds my husband locks them away
i cant keep going like this days like this were all i seem to do is be in pain mentally

FlyingNy 30-08-2010 12:13 AM

Hmm,...that is a good question Helen. A very good and intreging question. And I can't spell.

Cow go ba and pigs go mo. Did you know that? The Christmas tree is dancing. And so's the horse!

Scarletdreamer 30-08-2010 12:24 AM

Lia... I'm getting a bit worried now. :-/ *hugs*

Hels, that's great news. :) *cuddles*

I'm feeling quite **** myself actually. Debating whether to call my parents or not and I really want to but... I feel raw and exposed in front of them, when I wasn't prepared to be. It hurts like all hell. :crying:

*hides in the warren and sobs*

FlyingNy 30-08-2010 12:27 AM

I Can't Do This! I Can't Be The Only One!

shadowedsoul 30-08-2010 12:30 AM

Huggles everbody. Was trying to respond but can't think straight, just feel numb and hmm not even sure anymore.

FlyingNy 30-08-2010 12:31 AM

*Hugs Jill*

Caw! Caw! Caw! Caw!

FlyingNy 30-08-2010 01:42 AM

Puff the Magic Dragon.

FlyingNy 30-08-2010 01:49 AM

I'm so sorry.

April- I know it's too late now, but maybe you should call your parents in the morning, get it over with? *Hands tissues if you're still crying.*

risenfromperdition 30-08-2010 01:54 AM

ooo i want my name signed on card ^.^

*yawn* im off... again >.>
love you guysssss.

FlyingNy 30-08-2010 02:06 AM

I don't want to do this anymore.

risenfromperdition 30-08-2010 02:27 AM

do what hun? *offers hugs* ugh i proper hafta go now... laptops gonna be closed on me *rolls eyes* but message me and i'll try to reply if i can <3

risenfromperdition 30-08-2010 02:27 AM

i spies kahlia :)

Kahlia1981 30-08-2010 03:37 AM

*huggles Heather* <3

So far today:
- laundry washed and hung on the line downstairs
- bed made
- me all showered and so forth
- a nice 2.5 km walk to pick up some medication
- a nice start on my first day of uni with some nice uni work !!

And now I would seriously like to crash out for a rest for a while lol.

risenfromperdition 30-08-2010 04:17 AM

sounds loads more productive than my day :P

anarchistl0ve 30-08-2010 05:22 AM

****it all... goodnight i hope tomorrow is better day

Doikers 30-08-2010 09:25 AM

*Hugs everyone*

Helen , I'm so glad your friend is on the mend :)

Kahlia I'l put your name on the card :) Heather too.

Sorry for no detailed replies , still at my parents on my parents laptop.

shadowedsoul 30-08-2010 11:49 AM

Cuddles everbody.
Hmm low again, been alot going on needed to be strong everbody strong, so no time melt down, struggling now keep head together. Sorry.

Kahlia1981 30-08-2010 11:53 AM

*huggles everybody*

Going on from my day:
- got my housemate's laundry off the line
- got the towels off the line
- did all the "official" study except watching the video
- organised my interview with a manager for next week for part of an assessment
- went for a coffee
- had a (very short) lie down
- worked on my budget
- fixed up my uni email so I only have to use one email client
- emailed the disability people at the uni to organise some stuff
- and even had time to watch a movie!!

one_step_closer 30-08-2010 12:18 PM

Go Kahlia! Well done you.

I'm supposed to be going to the gym with my support worker today but I've cut my legs quite badly and the wounds keep pulling apart when I move a lot so i'm going to ask to just go for a walk. I'm still feeling really triggered to overdose and i'm so low.

Scarletdreamer 30-08-2010 01:20 PM

I second that, well done, Kahlia. :) I doubt I could get that much done in a day. Oof. I would be exhausted if I did!! *hugs*

I'm so damn tempted to go for laxatives. It's ridiculous really. I know what damage they cause but I really think I need them. :( First time I've ever thought that... :'(

Things with parents didn't go well last night. I ended up having a go at my mum and then crying when I was on the phone with my dad. Then ended up, after hanging up, going into the den and crying in Jarrod's arms (again). They (my parents) don't seem to understand what a breach of trust this was and how ****ing hard it is for me now. My mum asked me, when I told her that I felt "raw and exposed," if I "wanted [them] to forget about it [the SA stuff]." I replied and said, "Well, it's not something that's easily forgotten, now, is it?" and she said, "You forgot about it." Ummm, Mum? - that's repression, not forgetting. Because it ****ing HURT too much to remember.


Doikers 30-08-2010 01:21 PM

Way to go Kahlia! Productive,productive,you:)

Have a nice walk with your support worker Lindsay :) I can certanly empathise with being triggered *HUG*

I am triggered too :S . Back to my flat soon I hope .

Doikers 30-08-2010 01:24 PM

*Hugs April* I am sorry you are struggling so much with your parents.

MammaMia 30-08-2010 01:39 PM

Mark, did you see my post to you asking you to sign my name aswell? :S

April, I'm sorry you're struggling so much with this *cuddles*

Lindsay, I'm sorry you're so triggered still, hope you get to have a walk & manage to enjoy it.

Kahlia, wooo go you & your productiveness.

Lia, I hope you're feeling bit better this afternoon. Was concerned for you last night, still am really.

Scarletdreamer 30-08-2010 02:05 PM

Am I overreacting???? :(

Doikers 30-08-2010 02:08 PM

I did Helen , yes , I thought I replied but sorry if I didn't , using my parents laptop , shared computer , trying to keep up but the odd post slips through, you are on the card :)

No April I don't think you are overreacting *Hugs*

Scarletdreamer 30-08-2010 02:12 PM

Thanks for the reassurance, Mark. *hugs* I didn't think I was (overreacting, that is)... but... I can't gauge it for myself. Especially since I don't tend to have a realistic view of myself. So yeah. Anyway... I am still so upset. I wish I could rationalize it to calm myself down, but I can't... :( I feel awful. And my parents just.don't.get.it. :crying:

Anyway. How are you this morning?? and how are you, Hels?? (since I spy both of you - *glomps!!*

nicole94 30-08-2010 02:30 PM

*hugs everyone* i can feel my foot again, and i wish i couldnt cause its very painful :( really triggerd right now, went to the pub with my family for lunch and wore a short sleeved t-shirt and i just felt like EVERYONE was staring at me :(

Scarletdreamer 30-08-2010 02:32 PM

Aw Nicole, I'm sorry. Both about your foot hurting and about the feeling that everyone was looking at you. I'm sure that they weren't, but I understand the feeling. *hugs* I'm glad, though, that you CAN feel your foot... was a bit worried about you there for awhile.

nicole94 30-08-2010 02:37 PM

*hugs april* thanks, i was a bit worried too. but at least i know its alive lol. i know they probably werent looking at me, but everytime someone looked in my direction it just made me paranoid :( and my sister made fun of me all the way through dinner (in front of the really hot waitress lol)

shadowedsoul 30-08-2010 03:20 PM

Huggles all, sorry about that rubbish I wrote. Hmm still feeling low, really want to selfharm, my head feels like it's going to explode,and I'm going to end up saying I'm going to regret. argh!!!!!!!

MammaMia 30-08-2010 03:43 PM

Nicole, glad you can feel your foot again *cuddles* I'm sorry your sister was being horrible to you, especially in public. Sure people weren't all staring at you. But I know when you feel paranoid.

April, you're not over-reacting sweetheart *cuddles tight*

Mark, maybe you did reply, I don't remember but thought I'd check you knew :)

*cuddles all*

nicole94 30-08-2010 03:54 PM

*cuddles helen* thanks hun, how are you today?

MammaMia 30-08-2010 03:56 PM

*hugs Nicole* A little low I guess.

RYUU 30-08-2010 04:00 PM

* hugs everyone *
Voices are really loud right now telling me to cut
i dont feel safe

misskitty112 30-08-2010 04:01 PM

*hugs Helen* I'm sorry you're feeling low.
*hugs Reaper* I hope you feel safe again soon.

I... aced my Chaucer/Middle English quiz. I feel accomplished. I hope this good feeling lasts today.

Doikers 30-08-2010 04:18 PM

*Hugs Reaper* I hope the voices calm soon , try not to cut .

*Hugs Felicia* Way to go you !!!

As for me , well, I'm back at my flat and didn't harm at my parents :)
Since my Lithium has been increased I've been having what the leaflet that comes with the pills descibes as "Difficulty in speaking or slurred speech" . For me I'd describe it as knowing in my brain what I want to say but not being able to make the words come out ,it's embarrasing when I just stop talking to someone and I end up apologising , it sais it could be a symtom of Lithium toxicity but I don't want to go back down to my previous dose as this one is help a bit with my depression .hmmm:S

nicole94 30-08-2010 04:24 PM

*hugs mark, reaper and felicia*
ugh, i should really stop the conversation with leon right now.....

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