Heya guys :)

My mates internet's just been installed in her flat so I may be able to get on here slightly more than I first thought.

*hugs everyone*

Hope you're all ok? I'll catch up on all the posts later. I'm feeling better at the moment, except I haven't slept since Friday. I'll update about the weekend tomorrow sometime after I've had sleep and stuffs.

Take care guys
xxx

Marc, that is what space is for.
See you soon auburn shadow, to whom I apologise for forgetting your name.

sorry, i'm just confused and down.

I understand. I'm frustrated and a bit triggered. Is the stuff with the class and your friend what has you down?

yeh i think it was the more the fact that they didnt really make any effort. I went over and started chatting (wasnt really going to get into anything with loads of people about).

But what really got me was the fact that they had been out (my two best friends happen to also be boy and girl friend) and she text and asked me to pick her sword up from her house on the way, as she was going straight there with him, and then she left without saying bye. I felt like running out screaming.

Also i have gotton worried i my be using martial arts as a way of hurting myself. But i couldnt give up the classes as often they stop me. ARGH too confused.
Soz for the rant i am going to sit in a corner.

he makes me feel invisible


:blue:

so im going to hide out in here

hope you dont mind

I am in a courner at the mo beats the stairs! This is a right little hideing spot isnt it?

This is a wonderful place to hide out.

and have random rants.
I have just brushed me teeth and now got a craving for orangers! worse time.

snuggles everyone.

Ugh I'm scared/worried about my dizzy spells :(

*hands out cussions* or possibly cusions...i dunno but you can cuddle them :)

yay :P Another one for my collection :P

I find pillows (gave up on the spelling :P) and a couple of jumpers with special meaning, easier to cuddle then people.

Sounds good :)

U should see a doctor helen...he'll probably order a few tests to see wat is making u dizzy :-(

hey, just poking in, everything continues to be the same here though, still on that edge.

*hugs sparky*

Jem, I guess :(

I have the dentist this morning *shudders*

Ok i must be the strangest person ever cos i dont mind the dentist! I am the only person i know like that...

oh well!

i dont' mind either going to see the dentist...just as long it isn't my wisdom teeth getting pulled out - had that once..ugh the pain afterwards was not fun :-(

Yaaay everything is in full working order, just need to take a little more care with my gums :(

But woop woop woop :) I think my widsom teeth have decided to pke through some more today cus that area all hurtsy :(

My wisdom teeth arnt showing yet. probably means i will have to have them taken out in the future.

I hate going to the dentist, i remember going a few years ago and he was really horrible and rude so i stopped going all together.

How's everyone doing today??

Me, i'm doing great my auntie has gone into labour finally :) and i'm going on a date on saturday woooo go me :) xxx

Haven't been taking my meds recently. Feel weird.

*hugs everyone*
My dentist seems to hate me, so I don't go.

I feel slightly odd. Managed to give myself a (fairly deep) papercut on my fingertip, makes typing painful. Spent the weekend in the pub with my friends, managed not to drink, was rather hard, but I did it. Had a great time with them as well. Went swimming on Sunday, well, I didn't cause I'm still too self concious but watched, then we headed back to the pub for food, and eventually I got back to my friend's house. Staying here till Thursday (when I've got my driving test :S:S:S) and then, not sure what's going to happen after that. (couple of bad parts over the weekend, but I'm going to save talking about them for my thread)

Missed this place over the weekend, but it was good to be with my friends. Hope everyone's been ok?

Hana
xxx

*hugs everyone*

Glad you had a good time with your friends Hana. I hope your finger gets better soon too!

Zowie, you should really take your meds. It's dangerous to not take them unless you're being supervised by your doctor.

I'm glad the dentist was ok Helen.

I think I'm going to hide in here for a little bit if that's ok.

Today I start on the process of making 40 place mats, 40 serviettes, and 20 little bags for party favors. I hope I have a pair of scissors that isn't dull.

First, i'm going back to bed for half an hour.

I had a near breakdown in Tesco. Pathetic (Y) Worse thing was, the guy who helped, is my friend's finacee, luckily he didn't see me cry.

*hugs you*

*hugs Hells* i cant stand it anymore *huddles in a corner*

*hugs you* course you can come in here sweetie. Welcome :)

Am around if you want to talk about anything.

Welcome hun
Here if you need us
How are you Hana?

I'm not too bad really. Had a great weekend, and I'm still buzzing from it. Moved away from my parents for a while to get some space and to get my head together cause the constant yelling while I was there didn't do much for me.

How've you been Ku?

*takes a magic sweetie* thanks Deb i'm Becca btw *goes back to hiding in the corner*

Thanks for the hugs......



I've had a generally good day.
So why the f*ck have I got ideas in my head.
About how to od etc?
I emailed my counsellor asking if I can see her this week after all.
Cus we didn't have our normal session today due to her being elsewhere.
I thought she's back tomorrow, but no, not til Weds.
Help me? :crying:

trying to focus...mind gone on holiday

Helen hun keep talking to us
Maybe write all the reasons it would be a bad idea?

I can't tell you why you have those ideas but i can share in the feeling with you and offer you more cuddles it sucks when your brain is working against you

Thanks you two.

Bad idea because:

*If my parents find out they'll go mad because I broke their sodding promise.

*I might be ill :S

*I'd be letting me & everyone else down?

Hun you wouldn't be letting anyone down, but you'd be missed loads!

*cuddles up with Deb* Its true Hells think of all the people who'd miss you and who love you

*hugs helen*
I'm going to echo Ku here, you'd be missed loads sweetie.

*more hugs*

*hugs everyone else*

You make it sound like I want to do it as a sucidice attempt.
Hmmm maybe I do.
I don't know.
What I do know is that I just sent a four page text to Emma.
She's not gonna like it.
Meh.
I'm sorry :crying:

*drops off some hugs and some trail mix.*

Don't be sorry hun.
*huge hugs*
Do you?
Do you not?
Either way hun, it's not a good idea hun.
No one wants you hurt, and no one wants you dead either.

But I am sorry.
*huge hugs back*
I know it's not a good idea.
*cries*
I need a release of all this depression.
Can't I be happy? NOW?

I missed this post :blush:
*hugs back*
*more and more hugs*
:)

What are you sorry for hun?
I dunno hun, I don't know how you can release it best.
Do you write? Draw? Hobbies?
You could write about it, use art, anything. Talk. Punch pillows.
Be safe hun

Thanks hun.

*crawls into hall and sobs* i feel so out of it. please... someone take me jome.