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Laura2.0 25-05-2011 09:44 AM

*hugs mark* how are you today?

Doikers 25-05-2011 10:04 AM

Tired Laura, I went back to bed but slept fitfully, How are you hun? *Hugs*

Laura2.0 25-05-2011 10:09 AM

*hugs mark* sorry you didn't sleep well.

I just realized that I'm a control freak. urgh
Otherwise I'm fine.

Doikers 25-05-2011 10:18 AM

*Hugs Laura* why would you think that hun?

Laura2.0 25-05-2011 10:43 AM

*hugs mark*

because almost everything I'm doing is because I'm trying to get some sense of control. Like: SH, not eating, not taking my meds.

Laura2.0 25-05-2011 10:50 AM

the cutest little bird just cashed into my window. i think it went into shock. its sitting on my palm now. not moving, just looking around. very cute. i just hope the cats are staying away... lol
going off to save the birds life now. cya later

Doikers 25-05-2011 11:22 AM

awh , little bird:) Take care of it Hun :)

Accidentally Abstract 25-05-2011 12:45 PM

*curls up in the corner*

Laura2.0 25-05-2011 01:00 PM

*hugs Lucy* how are you?

Doikers 25-05-2011 01:42 PM

*Hugs Lucy if okay* Whats up ?

*Hugs Laura* How was the bird?

Laura2.0 25-05-2011 01:49 PM

*hugs mark* how are you?
the bird sat on my hand for 10min or so and then it flew away. I took a pic of it. Going to try and convince my stepdad that he NEEDS to upload the pic then I'll post it. (had to use his camera, cause I forgot mine last weekend)

Doikers 25-05-2011 02:11 PM

awh thats cool Laura :) *Hugs* I'm in a bit of a blur today

Laura2.0 25-05-2011 02:21 PM

*hugs mark* maybe you need mind glasses. lol

I just had coffee and didn't eat much so I'm a bit high on caffeine.

Doikers 25-05-2011 02:50 PM

Caffeine is pretty good isn't it? *Hugs Laura* Mind Glasses , you want to patent that idea!

Laura2.0 25-05-2011 03:09 PM

*hugs mark* i love caffeine.The only negative side effect is that my thoughts are extra fast, so: no caffeine for me when I'm having negative thoughts.

Yeah, sure. I wanna patent Mind Glasses.
'When the mind goes blurry: Mind Glasses and you can think clear again.'

Doikers 25-05-2011 03:35 PM

Hehe Thats Brilliant Laura ! *Hugs*

Yes You don't want to be bombarded with negative thoughts.

frenchhorn 25-05-2011 06:09 PM

hey everyone, sorry I havn't been around the internet is still not sorted at my new flat, but it should be done tomorrow (I hope anyway)

How is everyone? *cuddles for all who want them*

I'm not doing to good, told my counsellor about my suicide plan as I have a date and now I'm angry with myself for telling her as she has to ring my GP and they will put in place things to stop me.
I also got homophobically abused in the toilets in town today, so I feel pretty ****. plus I have some weird head and faceache thing which is making me feel dizzy and faint.

Doikers 25-05-2011 07:53 PM

I'm sorry Oliver .
**** homophobics to hell though. Rise above mate.don't bring yourself to their level , everybody has the right to love whom they choose , Seriously.

Laura2.0 25-05-2011 09:24 PM

*hugs Oliver* sorry about the homophocibs. They are just some dumb asses who are very close minded (opposite of open minded).
*hugs Mark*

I just made the huge mistake and googled the numbers that my T wrote as my diagnosis.
Oh... and I just lost about my iPod, or it got stolen. I don't know yet.

dontwantyoutoknow 25-05-2011 10:26 PM

*hugs everyone*

*hides under ward bed and cries* :crying:

Laura2.0 25-05-2011 10:29 PM

*hugs MJ* how are you?

SkinEssays 25-05-2011 10:33 PM

* in corner crying her eyes out*

I asked my therapist over an email what he saw when he looked at me. i was just wondering cause i see a horrible person and he says he doesnt. so i asked what he did see.. this is what he said...:

copy of his email : When I look at you I see a female Caucasian in her early to mid-thirties who's of average height; weighs more than is healthy for her; is dressed in a work uniform (because you usually are when you come here), disheveled (not neat and tidy), and unkempt (hair uncombed and often unwashed); walks with her shoulders bowed and eyes on the ground and makes poor eye contact (indicating a poor self-concept, that is, your idea of who you are, and low self-esteem, that is, how well you like who you think that you are); and who hardly ever speaks and when she does speaks so softly that she's hard to understand (again indicating a poor self-concept and low self-esteem).

this was a week ago that he wrote it.. i have been soo upset because one i shower every morning and keep myself clean. Ive talked to him many times about how i never feel clean enough and i sometimes take 2 or 3 showers a day. but at least one every morning no matter how depressed i am.. i can not go with out one. which is an arguement between my husband and i all the time which my therapist and i have talked about many times too.. and for him to say that has hurt me more then what anyone in my life before has done. i trusted him with so much stuff. and its like he completely torn me down when i thought he was suppose to help me.. i feel so betrayed..

am i wrong in my feelings?

ive emailed him back saying all this to him and asking him about it.. he still hasnt responded to me and its been a week.

i wish if he didnt want to see me no more he would have just said that or at least explain to me why.....? what did i do..?

i really really dont feel safe now......

Laura2.0 25-05-2011 11:04 PM

*hugs Michelle*

Cazki 25-05-2011 11:29 PM

*Hugs Oliver* I'm sorry about the homophobic comments you got

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Michelle*

*Hugs MJ*

Laura2.0 26-05-2011 12:15 AM

*hugs Ian*

Is there anyone here who dissociates sometimes? I experienced something strange and I'm wondering if I dissociated or if it was something else.

PoisonedApple 26-05-2011 12:41 AM

*stand proud* my coworker just called me a bleeding heart. I refuse to take that as a bad thing! I found an abandoned bamboo plant that was dying in an empty office it had no water and the vase it was growing in was full of green slime. I took it to the break room and dumped all the stones out and cleaned the vase, stones and plants (3 sprouts) then reassembled it and put it in my office :) Oh and trimmed off all the dead parts... It's pretty snazzy now.

*hugs everyone* Sorry no individuals at the moment. I've been struggling quite a bit lately so I've just been reading but not commenting :/ I did want to say the above out load though in a manner of speaking.
*loves my wardies*

Laura2.0 26-05-2011 12:44 AM

*hugs Crimson* I would take it as a compliment.

I'm going to bed now. It's late here.

misskitty112 26-05-2011 05:16 AM

*hugs ward*
I hate nights... and being in pain....

Laura2.0 26-05-2011 09:10 AM

*hugs all*
good morning

Doikers 26-05-2011 10:12 AM

*Hugs Laura* I hope you find your ipod hun .

*Hugs MJ*

*Hugs Michelle*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Felicia*

Laura2.0 26-05-2011 10:29 AM

*hugs felicia*
*hugs mark*

how are you today?

Jetforce 26-05-2011 10:44 AM

*signs the vistors book and drops a tray of cookies for all*

Laura2.0 26-05-2011 10:45 AM

*hugs Jetforce* how are you?

Doikers 26-05-2011 11:25 AM

Not sure yet Laura . . . .Thing about S.I. while was still in my bedroom :/

Doikers 26-05-2011 11:26 AM

*Hugs JetForce and nabs a cookie* :)

Laura2.0 26-05-2011 11:36 AM

*hugs mark* I hope the day turns out good for you.

I wish my mind would slow down a bit. I can't focus on a thought.
Then when I get asked something and answer my sister keeps questioning the truth of the answer and I start to yell at her. I don't want to yell, but my mind is so busy that I can't fight the yelling.

Doikers 26-05-2011 02:10 PM

I'm sorry Laura hun :/ *Hugs*

Laura2.0 26-05-2011 04:30 PM

*hugs mark* how's your day going?

I just went for a 2hour ride with my horse and it was great. Then I walked home, that took an hour. I think the ashes from the volcano in Iceland are here now, it's really windy (warm wind, it's great) and the sun looks like it is behind some milky glass.

Doikers 26-05-2011 04:48 PM

Cool Laura! I'm numb still............*Hugs*

Laura2.0 26-05-2011 04:56 PM

*hugs mark*

Doikers 26-05-2011 06:40 PM

*Hugs Laura*

SoMuchMore 26-05-2011 07:07 PM

*glomps all*

Thanks for the prospect of cookies Jet!
I kind of wish I had some in real life.

Doikers 26-05-2011 07:42 PM

*Hugs Laura*

frenchhorn 26-05-2011 07:45 PM

*hugs Laura, Laura, Mark, jetforce, Ian, MJ, Michelle, Crimson and everyone else I may have forgotten*

how are you all?

Louise 26-05-2011 08:51 PM

hugs everyone

Doikers 26-05-2011 09:24 PM

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Louise*

PoisonedApple 26-05-2011 11:34 PM

*sigh*...sadness... After I trimmed and cleaned up and watered the bamboo plants yesterday (with all the algae it was time consuming) it's owner realized it was missing and came up here for it. At least she was glad and thankful that I'd cleaned it up and fixed it.

Cazki 26-05-2011 11:46 PM

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Laura*

Cazki 27-05-2011 01:17 AM

Looks like im all alone in here. I'm not feeling all that great and im lonely :-( life isnt for me im better dead sorry its true.

dontwantyoutoknow 27-05-2011 04:04 AM

No one's better dead Atlantica. *hugs*

Laura - the Dome? Erm, we saw the cathedral from the outside...? It was a school trip and the teachers were too busy with the eggnog lol.

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