Awh Mark, that sucks!!! He certainly doesn't seem to be very reliable... GRRRR on him!! *cuddles you*

Email incoming. :) Just have to finish typing it up and then you'll have another one awaiting you in your inbox. Yey. :)

So tired. But anxious. The numbness from the dentist is wearing off though, which is good. :( It hurt a lot whilst he was drilling, I hate the dentist's now and I have to go back again on 4 June. :'(

*hides in a hole* :'(

*hides in a hole too*

*cuddles Hels* How are you, love?

Hi everyone

*Hugs Louise , Helen and April*

*hugs mark* how are you?

I'm suprisingly ok , waiting for my Dad to pop by For a bit after he finishs work . Hows things with you Louise?

I am not great at the moment.

Do you want to talk about it? , I'm bad at advice but willing to listen :) My Dad may pop by any minute in the next half an hour so if I'm awol for a bit I'm not ignoring you I WILL read it.

So technically we were all right just about different parts of the day if your hsw didn't flake? nice.

*huggles all/waves @ O*

hi people. *hugs all* quiet moment to self as haz is sleeping. hum. should be doing housework, but i can't face it.

Julie/owen/amy: can't remember which one of you asked (sorry), 'shadow' is the name I..we have given to the scary thing inside, the one who could destroy everything. he/she/it isnt allowed out, isn't encouraged, is firmly locked away, but sometimes escapes.

How are you doing today Kat?

Yeah Crimson , everyone was right lol in their own way . How are you? *Hug*

Hey Kat How are you feeling this afternoon ? *Hug*

*cuddles April* Not so good. Worried, stressed (although a little less), low/suicidal, exhausted, but trying to hang in there.

*hugs Mark, April & Louise*

Feeling really low and scared/stressed a bit sucidal.

Hugs everyone that has come in

*cuddles everyone* Sorry for the lack of individual replies, been quite a few posts since I last posted... sorry. :-S I just feel so overwhelmed sometimes, right now with all of these surveys I have to enter in, as well as the stuff I'm supposed to have done by the end of the week. GRRR!!! Can't believe that today is Thursday and that tomorrow I get to work from home again. Should be good as I'll have these surveys to enter... blah.

My back hurts... :(

Sorry for whinging all the time. :(

I spy april! *tackles b/c she tackled me yesterday*

EDIT: Maybe i shouldnt be tackling if your back hurts - *gently hugs*

*hugs everyone* It sounds like we all really need them.

Sorry about my lack of individual replies right now. I just wanted to pop in before i have to pack. Apparently i am going home today (thursday) instead of tomorrow to surprise my dad... who apparently really wants to see me for some reason. O well, its not like i had real plans yet for today anyway.

Last night i went out and got a drink with a friend, i dont know why but i felt awkward the whole time. There was no real reason to be awkward but.. I spent like 3 hours last night beating myself up about what I did wrong, but couldn't actually think of anything that i did... stupid social anxiety screwing with me i guess.

updated r/v........... :(

*hides in a hole again* :'(

*hugs everyone*

hey mark, glad you had a reasonable day, your social worker sucks though, hope you had fun with your dad.

hang in there everyone, cry, scream, shout, whinge, hide in holes, under blankets, eat cream cakes, anything you like that has the potential to make you feel better, we're all here to listen and support and to be supported.

I will pop back in later as I don't think anyone is actually here at the moment, and I really have to go for a run as I have masses to fit in tonight (as usual), see yas later

* Hugs Everyone*

I'm sorry you guys are feeling suicidal :( I hate it when that happens , try and stay safe please ?

Laura , Social anxiety sucks I get that do sometimes :( *Hug*

Well My Father rang at about 5 to say he'd see me tomorrow . I'm going to my parents for the weekend (So sorry in advance if I'm online less frequently over the next few days) . He said yesterday that he was coming today but I guess he was running late or something . Anyhoo.....