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zowie 10-05-2009 07:35 PM

I need wine.

Strawberry.Bananas 10-05-2009 08:18 PM

*Hugs Ashley* Talk to us, hon. What's going on?

*Hugs Zowie* Hope you're ok...


CrazyHayley 10-05-2009 08:53 PM

Mamma Mia or should I say Hells!!! How could I forget you sweetie, you were one of the 1st people to welcome me on here, nearly a year ago now. I'm so sorry I dissapeared on you and the others. *special squishes*

Right I'm online and in here as I've got to phone my father and update him about my psychologist appointment that I had on friday....hmmm....what a fun conversation to have.....

*goes into phone booth anxiously*

CrazyHayley 10-05-2009 09:15 PM

*comes out of phonebooth*
well that wasn't so bad....in the fact that I didn't tell him....but made arrnagements to see him in a few weeks and tell him face to face....eek, hope I don't bottle it then, or trigger myself too badly. I have issues with my real father & step mother. urgh.....time for subject change....


Anyone for a cuppa? Some biscuits? Huggles?

CrazyHayley 10-05-2009 09:32 PM

*sits alone with cuppa eating all the biscuits huggling her knees*

Strawberry.Bananas 10-05-2009 09:34 PM

Glad it went ok :)

*takes cuppa and joins*

MammaMia 10-05-2009 09:55 PM

Vicki *clings*

Hayley, I'm glad you couldn't ever forget me. Don't worry about disappearing. Are you back then?


Well I really know how to ruin it all. Oh well I'm going to die soon. I have to. I can't keep ruining everyone's lives. It's not fair. I should have never been born. I should have died.

CrazyHayley 10-05-2009 10:16 PM

yes I am back....mwahhahahaha....I don't know how long for, hopefully for good as in I'll be here now whislt I'm struggling, I'll then be here whislt I'm recovering and then I can be here recovered to support others. or it could all go tits up and well....hmmm.

So then, anyone need a top up on their cuppa? I'm not having anymore, caffiene makes me pee far too much!!

*goes to the ladies room*

CrazyHayley 10-05-2009 10:24 PM

ahh, much better.
anyone smoke? join me for a fag? I'm not too safe with them at the mo, tempting to use myself as an ashtray....

*goes out to smoking shelter*

CrazyHayley 10-05-2009 10:47 PM

I was a good girl, just had a fag, used the proper ashtray.
Time for medications, I'll be good and only take the right amount. I've got a doctors appointment in the morning 'cos I'm still depressed and SIing on 60mg of prozac. I hope they can help, I'm loosing my grip.
*goes into corner with blanket to hopefully sleep safely*

*..life in pain..* 10-05-2009 11:02 PM

its my first time replying to this thread. hello everyone. well im waiting for an empty bed, but it won't be in less than 2 weeks.

MammaMia 10-05-2009 11:30 PM

*curls up tight into a small ball and sobs*

wildly insane 11-05-2009 12:09 AM

Huggles, I want huggles

Hiya Hayley, hope you sleep safely and the doctors appointment goes well.

*hugs Helen* Don't give up, As long as you've told your friend how much you appreciate her then I'm sure she isn't beating herself up about it.

hiya Vicki, how are you?

*hugs Arwen* good luck giving up smoking again, you managed a week last time, it's a goal to aim for and surpass this time :) how are you feeling otherwise?

*hugs Ashley* how are you doing hun? have you managed to fight the urges today?

*hugs Kat* sometimes I'd rather be depressed than numb, but it's more difficult to deal with, hope you are okay.

*hugs Dayna* how are you coping?

Me, I spent the afternoon listening to a mixture of live music, including ska, funk and reggae at the city farm which was interesting, would have liked some company though. Had a fantastic freestyle dance last night too :)

*hugs to everybody*

MammaMia 11-05-2009 01:31 AM

Well Hannah, I made things a thousand times worse. I hope they can find it in their hearts to forgive me. We're so bloody close.

Damnation. 11-05-2009 03:50 AM


Originally Posted by wildly insane (Post 1609799)
*hugs Dayna* how are you coping?

*Hugs back* What's coping? 8D. Drinking more, eating more, ODing more, triggered more, depressed more...need I go on? Finding the early hours of morning when everyone's gone even more difficult than I normally do.

Still waiting for this ****ing appointment with the mental health team my GP 'urgently' referred me to. And he referred me around Christmas/New Year. Apparently they've got a very long waiting list. In my lower moments, I keep thinking that by the time they finally get around to me, I'll already be dead

wildly insane 11-05-2009 09:07 AM

*cuddles helen* I'm sure they will, real friendship is damn near impossible to get rid of, because it's more than their actions and words that make us like someone it's who they are.

*hugs Dayna more* sorry to hear that hun, sound like ****, keep fighting, you can get through this and hopefully the mental health team will get hold of you soon.

fallenprincess 11-05-2009 10:05 AM


Kahlia1981 11-05-2009 11:52 AM

*hugs all she can find*

I looked at some alternate accommodation today but will not be going for it. They told me that I couldn't have a boy friend over inside the house ..... like WTF??? Not even in the living areas.

On the good side I have all my paperwork to change my degree so hopefully that will be a short process.

Margo 11-05-2009 01:00 PM

*pokes head in*

Yup still full of loons.

*puts on spiderman costume, regurgitates a fur ball, licks own bottom, makes a cheese and pickle sandwich - rubs into hair and goes to sleep*

Long*Past 11-05-2009 02:16 PM

*hugs back Hanna Banana and Wildly*
Thanks guys...
At least I'm still alive, right?

I have to have a talk with my best friend today...
She kinda betrayed me this week.
I had a performance every night from Tuesday to Sunday,
a performance that I'm only going to ever do once in my life,
and she had some kind of fight with her ex or her boyfriend,
and decided that was reason enough for her to completely miss it.
She had promised she'd come on Friday night...
But she obviously didn't.
I'm really really mad at her right now.
It hurts to feel like you're not even good enough for your best friend.

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