*hugs everyone*

OH GOD.

I WANT TO OD SO BAD.

Second day in a row. Last night, I was stupid. Swallowed the rest of the painkillers. Very low amount, didn't do anything. I knew it wouldn't. So I don't know why I did it.

Now I want to down my meds x____x. I'm in ****ing tears, 'cause the urge is so bad

*hugs all*

Quick update on me: I'm in a sort of better place now that I'm on Xanax. Not sure what the next step is but we shall see.

*Hugs all*
Wish I had money. *Sulks* x

*hugs arwen*

I know how you feel Arwen!!!!

I'm so ****ing low tonight :( Been crying all day, started on the bus when sorting an error out with my lunch and was then made to sit down next to someone (and thank god I did) and she was just so supportive giving me cuddles all the way home and stuff.....but it's gotten 1000 times worse since I got home....the sobbing >.< Think I'm outta tears and barely eaten or drank today..

Oh & Hana (Abhurn Shadow) won't be posting for a while....long story but she's not got the net at the minute.

Just dropping in to offer *big hugs* to all

I feel so dead and ill :(

*offers hugs and support to Kat*

*cuddles Helen*

*clings to Kahlia*

:(

*Cuddles Kat and Helen*

Why does the Jobcentre always **** up and waste my time?? x

Helen Huge hugs

Katrica I hope the new meds work for you

Zowie Im sorry that you had to go to the job centre :( its so depressing in them places

I feel totally ****. I keep having flashbacks and nightmares about my past. It makes me not want to go to sleep. Waking up in tears having no control over your nightmares.

I just want to cry and cry but have no tears in me. I should be over it now but Im not.

I get angry with myself that Im not better, even thou I want to be better.

::::::::::::::::::::: hugs to everyone else tonite ::::::::::::::::::::::

Evberything is going oh so ****ing wrong. Maybe I should just die :D

Checks in for life

I hate myself, I hate who I am. I hate having a past

*holds Helen*

*hugs Arwen* no money is rubbish, I paid my factor bill today which means I am skint until pay day

*hugs Kat, Dayna, Jetforce, Ravyn, Kahlia, Nicole, and everyone else*

Was at the doc today, went okay except when I told her I have si'd since last visit - they get super concerned as I live alone, still I do appreciate that they are concerned.

On a postivie note, he who shall not be named came by yesterday and I would not let him in and told him where to go - felt very chuffed with myself :)

x

Can i please check in here, no-one wants me anywhere else..

Pleeeaaassseee make the pain go away....

Just Vented in the Rant and Venting forum. I think it really helped xxx

Good Luck with the psych tomorrow Katrica. Let us know how it goes if you can.

xxx Jade xxx

So bloody fed up :(

*hugs* checking in, need a break.

*hugs Jade* sorry to hear about the flashbacks hun, please don't get angry with yourself, it's not worth it *offers another hug*

Kat, good luck with the psych tomorrow *hugs*

*hugs Tigger* welcome, make yourself at home, we have a huge supply of blankets, corners, tissues, biscuits, tea and hugs, whichever takes your fancy and all if you so desire.

*hugs Helen* hope you don't feel so bad tomorrow

*hugs MaryAnne* *hugs Jem* *hugs Shell*

*hugs Arwen* good luck job hunting, i'm in the same boat and it sucks

*hugs Kahlia* how are the meds going? hope you're doing okay.

*hugs anyone else who drops by before I fall asleep*

*sending hugs around to everyone*

*offers some chocolate in hopes that it make some people feel better*