I know you don't sweetheart. But I'm sure there's a good reason why they want to remove them & it's the best thing for your health & teeth.

i dont like the dentist

Don't think anyone likes going and sometimes people hate their actual dentist too. Just think it'll be over really really soon.

Helen You're right , The 15 minute game is the thing to do I think , I REALLY need to distract myself perhaps I'll play that game I got from ebay today... right now I'm here and have music on but thinking unhelpful thoughts .

Is anyone else here worried about kids coming around for trick and treating tonight ? I am worried . There are quite a few houses around here decourated and a lot of that age of kids , I hope the kids only go to decourated houses , I'm not answering the door tonight :S , How pathetic is this , intimidated by little kids , I don't want bad stuff shoved through my letter box

You're not being intimidated by them Mark. A LOT of people will be ignoring their doors tonight. I know we will be again like last night. Not that we really get many trick or treaters. Some kids only go to decorated houses anyway. Nobody wants bad stuff shoved through their letterboxes & I hope nobody does that.

Try to keep distracted, easier said than done I know.

To make a not-so-great day even worse, I'm not seeing my Dad today :(

Yeah I'm just a little paranoid today , Thanks for the reasurrance Helen . I'm sorry you're not going to see your Dad today :(*Hugs*

I hope everything goes ok, Mark. I'll also be ignoring my door if anyone comes to it.

I'm sorry to hear that you're not seeing your Dad, Helen. Can you do something nice for yourself to try to lift your mood a little?

I'm not really sure how I am. My cousin was supposed to be coming to visit but I told her that i'm not well because my social anxiety is really bad right now and I don't have the strength to challenge it. I went to the gym but only managed to stay for about 40 minutes. I'm not happy with my life. I just want to die.

Mark, you're very welcome for the reassurance. We all get paranoid sometimes. I'm sorry too but hopefully he & Jane will be better soon. Plus means they can't pass it onto me. *hugs*

Lindsay, I can't do anything nice. Trying to make myself do some college work, but it's getting myself started & keep on task. Blah. I'm sorry your anxiety is having a bad day. Good on you for going to the gym though, even if it was for a short while. I get fed up with my life and makes me want to die too, feel bit like that today. But deep down, I know I have to try change what's happening or whatever the appropriate action is and keep going somehow. Try be gentle on yourself. Things will get better Lindsay. Look how far you've come *hugs*

*Hugs Lindsay* Please take good care of yourself Lindsay .

*Hugs Helen*You really don't need to get sick , I hope your Dads better soon.

*hugs everyone*
I wish I had the energy to do more. I haven't even gotten out of bed today.

*Hugs Felicia* Hmmm I hate it when I can't get out of bed , I struggled today so can empathise , sorry I know that helps not at all :S

Mark - Indeed I don't!! I just had two weeks off college as I've been away & then it's been half term so I need to get back :D

Felicia - that always sucks :(

I Cannot focus , arrg , it's so frustrating , sorry :( I'm going to lay down for a bit .

I know the feeling Mark, I'm trying to focus on this college work & I'm struggling to keep focus. Hope having a lie down helps.

Hey guys *hugs all*

I don't know how I am at the moment. I've found a kind of happiness, although I don't know how long it will last. Nothing happened, I just realised what I have rather than what I don't have, but it's scary. A part of me is clinging to the pain I have had for so long because for the past 3 years it is all I have ever known and life without it is terrifying.

There are also some things I need closure on before I can move on. I need to know what happend. I'd also like a name, just a name, of the man who is just as much related to me as my mother.

*Hugs Lia* Yey for having a bit of happiness even ifyou don't know where it came from , it sounds like you have developed a very positive attitude :) I hope you get the closure you so want too.

I napped and kept , in my half sleepy state thinking it was night time , I'm back up now and I guess I'll make dinner soon , I've already had someone a knocking on my door :S

2 PM and I'm still not out of bed. Is it sad that I almost don't care?

I hope you have a good dinner, Mark, wanna make some for me too? haha :)

It's not sad Felicia , You are just having a really low time by the sound of it *Huggles* Fancy some spaggetti with mixed fryed up veg and vege sausages? *Hands over a plate of food*

*hugs mark, lia, helen, and felicia*

*curls up far away*

*Hugs Laura* What up Hun?