I hate lying, but sometimes i dont like to admit it. Dont worry im not lying about who i am or my age or anything.

-hugs ian-

Edit: Posted too soon before I finished what I was saying. I know how it feels, Ian. I had to lie to a lady I went to see today about hopefully getting my financial aid money. She asked me how I am doing, since I had to take a medical withdraw from last semester. She works in the counseling department. I had to lie and tell her I was ok because I needed her to help me get my financial aid money for this semester and if she knew how I really was she would not have recommended me to begin school again, meaning I would not get my money..

*hugs Ian and Kitty, Shannon, Khalia and Sarah*
*night time hugs Hels (since she said something about bed time soon a bit ago)*
*hugs everyone that hasn't been in recently*

I feel lonely and deppressed, oh i sound so pathetic. Do you feel that sometimes you feel its better not telling anyone Kitty? Throughout my life iv never confided in anyone, i just kept it to myself. Its like when i was ill, it was very upsetting, but i didnt talk to my parents about it or anything i just got on with it.

-hugs crimson and ian- How are you, Crimson?

I'm sorry you are lonely and depressed, Ian. Is there something you could do as a distraction?

I feel that way all the time, Ian. I used to have one friend I confided in but when my husband went through some old IMs and got angry I quit figuring it wasn't worth talking :S

I feel terrible this evening. So fed up. I was so scared walking through the town centre today, I couldn't deal with it and ended up hiding in a bookshop for 20 minutes until I'd calmed down, I felt like everyone was staring and plotting to hurt me. I don't know whats wrong with me. Rebecca kept telling me to throw things around and "go a bit crazy" earlier. I was so scared I nearly cried, several times :( then when I got home I felt no safer because its not a nice place here. I just don't know what to do. I'm too scared to tell anyone other than the ward either :(

*cuddles Sarah*

*snuggles Crimson then curls up* I don't know what to do anymore :(

-hugs ian- Yes, I feel like that all the time. I feel I can't be completely honest with anyone in real life because they will send me away. I can't afford to be sent away. I wish I could actually talk to someone, but it is the law that they have to report certain things, so...yeah.

-hugs sarah- I can relate with that more than I could explain. I freaked out today as well. I was at the uni and felt like everyone was watching my every move.

*snuggles Kitty*

I like coming here. People understand and care, unlike real life where people can be mean. I don't understand why I'm so scared by everything. I've always been like this but its just getting worse and worse and worse :(

-snuggles sarah- I know. I can relate. I don't know what's wrong with me, either.

I just want to die. I don't think I can do this anymore. :'(

*cuddles Kitty lots* you need to stay alive hun, I'd miss you more than I'd miss my left arm <3

Imma leftie :p

-snuggles sarah- Sorry I was gone so long. Had to eat and stuff.

Is okay hun, I'm heading off to bed now, up early, again :( Gah I hate uni!

Nighty ward *big snuggles* stay safe x

Night night Sarah.. -hugs-

goodnight Sarah

*hugs Kitty and Ian*

-hugs felicia- how you be?

I'm just not good at all, and I'm sick of it.

-squishes felicia- I'm sorry you aren't doing well, hun. Is there anything I can do? -offers protective teddy-