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Stellata 07-05-2019 07:13 PM

Well done. I hope it's helpful. Do you get on OK with your doctor?

chinahorse 07-05-2019 08:35 PM

Thanks. Don't think it'll be any use really. Just going so that the cmht don't freak put when I tell them.

Really low tonight. Tired of fighting.

one_step_closer 08-05-2019 01:44 PM

I'm glad you went to the appointment, how did you get on?

tamobhuuta 08-05-2019 02:46 PM

Hope the appointment went ok x

chinahorse 08-05-2019 05:53 PM

The dr was nice. I like her.

Unfortunately the same isn't true for my care coordinator. She basically blamed everything on me when she called at lunch and insinuated I won't get therapy if I'm continually in crisis even though there's no one to give me therapy anyway.

one_step_closer 08-05-2019 06:32 PM

That's pretty judgemental and horrible of your CC, totally uncalled for. I'm glad the doctor was nice, did she offer anything useful?

chinahorse 08-05-2019 06:35 PM

The dr rang me with my test results just. And I'm booked back in to have more tests next week. There are a couple of physical treatment options if I want them.

one_step_closer 08-05-2019 06:38 PM

How are you feeling about that?

chinahorse 08-05-2019 06:39 PM

I'll have the tests. The gp is aware I won't get treatment right now.

Stellata 08-05-2019 07:11 PM

So sorry that your CC was so judgemental. Glad the dr was helpful though.
How are you feeling?

chinahorse 09-05-2019 12:56 AM

I don't know what to do. I don't kow what I want.

Auror. 09-05-2019 04:39 AM

I think being unsure is okay. Do you know what you DON'T want? Sometimes that's as good a place to start as any.

chinahorse 09-05-2019 05:03 AM

Don't want to die. Just not live. Don't want another blood transfusion but my head is saying that I've failed unless j gt one. And an iron infusion would mean I could potentially keep doing it longer. I really don't want to be forced to do anything or to collapse at work.

one_step_closer 09-05-2019 10:46 AM

If you don't want to be forced to do anything or collapse at work then maybe it's best that you choose to have treatment while you can, as much as that might not seem like an actual choice. Please try not to listen to the part of your mind that is encouraging you to do more damage or calling you a failure if you don't, that isn't a kind part and it isn't right. I know it's really hard though but please keep fighting.

chinahorse 09-05-2019 01:18 PM

Im at work but I have called the gp and she is going to arrange for me to get treatment and call me back shortly.

chinahorse 09-05-2019 01:30 PM

I'm going to hospital for treatment now.

tamobhuuta 09-05-2019 02:57 PM

Hope it's going ok, well done for talking to your GP.

one_step_closer 09-05-2019 04:22 PM

Huge well done. You deserve to feel better.

Auror. 09-05-2019 06:02 PM

I'm really proud of you. I hope it is not awful at hospital.

I know it's hard, and as one step closer said, there are choices you can make here to still be in control of the situation, even if they're not ones you like, and it doesn't feel like much of a choice. Sometimes inaction is a passive choice as well, so I'm glad you chose to do something. Getting medical treatment will show that you do have the ability to make decisions to care for yourself, and show willingness to work with treatment providers. That should make them less likely to force you into any type of treatment or help later on.

Thinking of you.

nonperson 09-05-2019 06:26 PM

Also just want to say well done for getting treatment. Hope you're getting on ok.

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