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Doikers 05-07-2011 10:12 AM

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Laura* Cake for breakfast! Yum :)

one_step_closer 05-07-2011 11:39 AM

I'm going to kill myself. I'm going to kill myself. I'm going to kill myself. I'm sorry but I just can't do this any more.

Emo 05-07-2011 01:20 PM

Lindsay please get help .
Am sorry that things are so hard for you right now
please get some help call a crisis line or go to A and E

Kahlia1981 05-07-2011 02:03 PM

*big hugs* to those I know and *waves* to those wardies who have come onboard since I have last been on here.

Sorry I haven't been posting but there has been so much negative stuff going on that I'm barely managing to hold myself together. I'm extremely exhausted, depressed, suicidal, sleep deprived and bordering on psychotic but hey, that's life. And my GP decided to leave me for four days without a medication that you cannot stop abruptly for my physical pain.

Anyway any more information is available on the last page of my thread if anyone is interested. Take care all.

Laura2.0 05-07-2011 03:49 PM

*huggles Lindsay* how are you now?
*hugs Angel21*
*cuddles Kahlia*

Emo 05-07-2011 06:32 PM

I cut again ...cant seem to stop doing it ...maybe if i talk to my Dr about it
but she really dosent seem bothered about it really because it never anything major

Doikers 05-07-2011 06:46 PM

*Hugs Lindsay* PLEASE reach out , Even if it's just to me. I will try and help. *Squishes*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Waves to Angel* You can beat this hun :)

*Hugs Laura*

PoisonedApple 05-07-2011 06:54 PM

*walks in and leaves hugs in jars on the table*
*goes into padded room and locks self in*
*falls apart*

aklx 05-07-2011 06:57 PM

*holds out super glue for everybody to put themselves back together*
*lays in grass*

one_step_closer 05-07-2011 08:12 PM

*hugs everyone*

I can't take any more emotional pain. I HAVE to get my brother to understand this and kill myself.

Doikers 05-07-2011 08:34 PM

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

*Hugs Lindsay*

FlyingNy 05-07-2011 09:05 PM

Hey guys.

*Hugs Crimson* Do you want to talk about it?

*Hugs Mark* How are you today?

*Hugs Lindsey extra hard* I don't know what to say. Are you receiving any treatment for MH right now? If you're not, I don't know how you would go about getting some but go to your GP or someone, please, anyone.

Laura2.0 05-07-2011 09:10 PM

*hugs mark*
*double hugs lindsay*
*hugs pan*
*hugs crimson*
*hugs lia*
*hugs angel21*

FlyingNy 05-07-2011 09:28 PM

*Hugs Laura* Hey, how are you doing?

aklx 05-07-2011 09:31 PM

Hi. I feel a bit rubbish. How are you all?

Nice entrance that methinks lol.

Laura2.0 05-07-2011 09:33 PM

*hugs Lia* how are you?
*hugs Pan*

I was detached for the last week or so and now I'm not detached anymore. I think I like feeling detached better.

aklx 05-07-2011 09:36 PM

That makes sense. I like being numb better than feeling stuff most of the time.

Doikers 05-07-2011 09:42 PM

*Night time hugs y'all

Laura2.0 05-07-2011 09:48 PM

especially cause my sister and mom both found out about the cutting on wednesday last week and I had an appointment with a specialist yesterday. She suggested that I go inpatient for 6 weeks. My mom likes the idea. I dislike the idea. I don't want to ****ing feel now.

*good night hugs mark*

FlyingNy 05-07-2011 10:05 PM

Night night Mark.

*Hugs Pan* Is that okay?

I hate it when people do that Laura. Try and tell me what's best for me. Like when my head of year told my mum about my cutting, I swore it was a one off and she asked me to make a better job of it next time so she had one less mouth to feed (my mum not my HOY). I insisted it wasn't a good idea to tell her and she wouldn't listen. I'm sorry your family are being that way. Why is it you don't want to go inpatient?

PoisonedApple 05-07-2011 10:17 PM

*hugs Mrs. Pan, Mark, Lia, Laura, Lindsay*

Lia, I wouldn't even know what to say. Aside from feeling like I can't even hold it together I don't even know how I feel right now. Numbing out compared to earlier tho. Trying really hard not to injure.
I do know what caused it though and I hate that it is eating away at me and causing more problems than it's worth.
The following content has been hidden - Reason : the straw that broke the camel's back
Apparently D's friend (and father to my kid's friend) 'just doesn't talk to me because when he does I'm a bitch about it' Yeah well I'm sorry I don't like repeating myself, I'm sorry I don't like being lied to, I'm sorry if you don't think my feelings are valid and I'm sorry I call bullshit when necessary and think you are an arrogant ignorant ass when you tell me I'm wrong when I know I'm right
The following content has been hidden - Reason : related but sidetracked stories on that
-he actually told me there are no wolf spiders in AK when I've seen them and D's mom has been bitten by one; then after several months when D did research on the net and showed him they are up here he apologized to D not to me... but then he takes it personally that I referred to him poorly and he says I just think of him as a "know it all asshole"... well if the shoe fits.
He thinks that people who are trans aren't. He thinks it's all in their head and compared it to a person with agoraphobia. Figures they just need to know its all in their head and work on it so that it doesn't affect them anymore.
I have a ton of things that could be said here but I think those two examples sum it up just fine.
Well the more D hangs out with him the more he acts like him in some manners... B is always asking his wife what's wrong if she isn't all smiley and when she says nothing or that she's fine he starts... throwing a tantrum is what it looks like... saying if nothing was wrong she wouldn't be acting like that (seriously half the time he starts this she's just sitting there) and after a few rounds of this she does start to get pissed off. I would too. well yesterday D was telling B how the morning got all ****ed up and how I was just in a foul mood all day because of it and when I said I wasn't in a foul mood he started in on me... Well at one point I said okay fine if I'm in the kitchen because I'm in a foul mood I guess that means I'm not making this food for our dinner I guess I'll turn it off then so I can go sit with you while you tell me all about my foul mood. That wasn't appreciated either.
And all in all things just haven't been peachy since...
I want to injure but my options there are fairly limited and I don't see them as options but I also feel the need for them... I am all kinds of conflicted on the issue. Ok so I think that does count as talking about it after all. It leaves a lot out but gets the general idea out there.

Laura2.0 05-07-2011 10:44 PM

*hugs Lia and Crimson*

they all think it's best for me. T said that it would be good to go inpatient before I start uni. My mom thinks that I should go inpatient, because she watched some report about a girl who SHs on TV and she was in and out of hosp for years. She cares about me and she does understand that hosp wont work if I don't want it. I think my mom is really cool with everything, she didn't yell or go through my things. She just cried.

I'm sorry that your mom said something like that to you.

PoisonedApple 05-07-2011 11:07 PM

I want to move... You guys are all so far away. I think we should have RYL Island made for us...

frenchhorn 06-07-2011 12:27 AM

*hugs you all lots*

*waves to anyone who doesnt want hugs*

sorry I'm not doing individual replies, I'm a bit all over the place, I'm really low and want to OD badly, but can't cos I'm going home this weekend to see my sisters ballet show and found out something bad this morning.

PoisonedApple 06-07-2011 01:01 AM

*cuddles Oliver*

frenchhorn 06-07-2011 01:07 AM

*cuddles Crimson*

aklx 06-07-2011 02:53 AM

*hugs all*
Hugs are good for me Lia. I like your Glee avatar too :)

Well done for holding on Oliver.

Yay, an island! Better than a ward lol

frenchhorn 06-07-2011 02:57 AM

*hugs Mrs Pan* how are you?

aklx 06-07-2011 03:07 AM

*hugs Oliver*
I'm okay at the moment, thank you for asking. Had a strange night though, emotions up and down. I will hopefully get to sleep as soon as I go to bed so I don't have time to think about rubbish stuff.

frenchhorn 06-07-2011 03:19 AM

*hugs Mrs Pan* hope you sleep ok

Doikers 06-07-2011 10:02 AM

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

Laura2.0 06-07-2011 10:19 AM

*hugs Oliver*
*hugs Lia*
*hugs Pan*
*hugs mark*

how are you all?

one_step_closer 06-07-2011 11:36 AM

*hugs everyone*

Doikers 06-07-2011 12:59 PM

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Lindsay*

I don't know how I am yet , How are you gals?

one_step_closer 06-07-2011 02:21 PM

I'm still feeling suicidal. I'm going to try and contact the voluntary crisis team tonight but they usually just tell me to watch TV.

Doikers 06-07-2011 02:22 PM

*Squishes Lindsay Heaps*

one_step_closer 06-07-2011 04:00 PM

Thanks, Mark. How are you doing now?

aklx 06-07-2011 04:11 PM


Watching TV is bloody crap advice in a crisis. Is there nobody else you can contact?

one_step_closer 06-07-2011 04:25 PM

I might try and phone my OT tomorrow if they don't help, but she never knows what to do either.

I've decided that I have to kill myself to stop the men in my head from killing my brother. This is for the best. He won't have to die and I won't have to suffer any more.

Doikers 06-07-2011 04:30 PM

*Hugs Lindsay extra hard!*

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

aklx 06-07-2011 04:35 PM

*hugs Mark & Lindsay*

I know this probably isn't the most popular suggestion but have you thought about maybe being an actual impatient? Have you ever spoken to anybody about that?

I know that nobody wants you dead and we don't want anybody hurt at all. Maybe you could get help in there and you wouldn't have to suffer either.

Laura2.0 06-07-2011 04:49 PM

*hugs all*

does anyone have a hungry baby? I've got milk

PoisonedApple 06-07-2011 05:36 PM

*hugs everyone*

misskitty112 06-07-2011 06:03 PM

*hugs ward*
I'm still around, I've just been lurking.
I'll try to catch up later.

one_step_closer 06-07-2011 06:13 PM

I'm not allowed to be hospitalised unless my 'circumstances change' whatever that means because my old psychiatrist said that hospital isn't helpful for me.

Louise 06-07-2011 06:56 PM

hugs everyone,

Lindsay did you think that hospital or not?

PoisonedApple 06-07-2011 07:11 PM

How do they think circumstances are going to change that you will still need hospital, Lindsay? That just doesn't make sense to me... at all.

aklx 06-07-2011 07:27 PM

That doesn't make sense to me either :/
How do they know hospital wouldn't be helpful for you, have you been in one before?

PoisonedApple 06-07-2011 07:32 PM

Even if she has been, I'd think if one thing didn't work then they could try something else... Eventually something would be helpful.

Do you have a new psych that could determine if it would be helpful and send them new info to go off of?

one_step_closer 06-07-2011 07:41 PM

I have been in hospital twice before because I was suicidal, it kept me safe and lessened the thoughts but my pychiatrist didn't see it that way. My new psychiatrist is going by what my old one said. She never used to listen to me or take my opinion into account. I feel unheard and unsafe.

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