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blondiebear 18-08-2008 03:15 PM

I'm claustraphobic today. So I think I'll sit outside in the corridor and guard so that everyone else is safer.

zowie 18-08-2008 03:18 PM

You okay Susan and mors certa (sorry, dunno your name)?
I'm doing better than I was last night.

CrazyHayley 18-08-2008 03:59 PM

*rubs eyes and comes out from behind pot plant* :blink:

Hey everyone?! *shouts that loudly as lots of you seem to be hiding inside cupboards and holes*

Hope people are having/had pleasent dreams (those of you who are sleeping atm and those of you currently awake!)

I actually slept well and feeling ok today :-D

Glad that your feeling a bit better zowie *snuggles*

Oh gosh, my alarms just gone off, didn't realise the time, time for my 3rd nap of the day, lol!

blondiebear 18-08-2008 04:26 PM

I'm ok. I just get claustraphobic sometimes. I used to be phobic about the dark too.

I'm restless and only have a small mending job to do, so i'll be doing a lot of hand work this week.

CrazyHayley 18-08-2008 04:35 PM

*rubs eyes* oh nap over....how I wish I could now have a coffee...

Glad you're ok Susan. Is there anything we can do to help when you feel claustraphobic? The RYL blanket sounds a fab idea that you're contributing to. I wish I was creative in that way.....

*goes out to smoking shelter*

MammaMia 18-08-2008 06:16 PM

I am so bad :p

Went to sleep at 6am and slept until 3pm =\

Mors Certa 18-08-2008 06:25 PM

For those of you that care about me and my whereabouts, I will be offline for several weeks starting on Wednesday. I have contacted my case manager at the insurance company and advised her that I need to be an inpatient somewhere that will actually treat me, rather than locking me in a room. I also advised her that I cannot go anywhere until Wednesday morning, as I am the only caregiver for the kids until then. Final part that I advised her of is the fact that I have every intention of killing myself on Thursday, I have mailed the things I need to accomplish this so that they will arrive on Thursday. If I am available to receive them, then I will use them. She seemed to be agreeable to the concept of getting me into a facility on Wednesday morning. We shall see, at this point in time, either solution works for me.

There is 0.01% of me that wants to get help, the rest wants Thursday to arrive, so the case manager is trying to see to it that the 1/100% gets its way rather than the 99.99%

Please do not waste your hugs or tears on me, either direction the end of this madness is near, and I am content that I have done what I am supposed to do. As a human being, I am supposed to make the effort to live, and I have done so. The rest, as they say, is out of my hands.

Please take care of yourselves, I am operating on the assumption that I will be an inpatient on Wednesday, and that it will be around 2 weeks of inpatient therapy after I arrive. Could be more, could be less.

I will not have any access to any electronic devices once I go in, so will not be able to communicate.

I am awaiting the case managers response, and will let you know. I know that I tried this inpatient thing before at a holding facility, told her I would not do that again, and I identified the only facility within 100 miles that offers what I need.

Again, don't waste your time on this, probably wasted enough reading this post. Thank you for helping me so much over the past few months, I hope that I have provided more comfort than pain, more support than drag.

MammaMia 18-08-2008 06:31 PM

*hugs Jeff*

We're not wasting anything on you, we give hugs etc because yoju deserve them and because we're so caring xx

I hope all goes well hun x

zowie 18-08-2008 08:38 PM

*Group hug*

Mors Certa 18-08-2008 08:43 PM

Skip the wednesday crap, going now. Goodbye, will contact when I get out, if I get out.

CrazyHayley 18-08-2008 08:48 PM

Jeff I've PM'd you, was long waffle that didn't want to block up the ward with. I hope you get a chance to read it before you go. Good luck with the treatment. *snuggles*

CrazyHayley 18-08-2008 08:56 PM

*is sad that jeff is going :crying:but pleased that he's getting treatment :thumbup: *

*goes outside to smoking shelter to have BIG fag and long hard think*

1ofmany 18-08-2008 09:50 PM

*support for jeff*

MammaMia 18-08-2008 10:03 PM

*group hug*

We'll miss you Jeff

blondiebear 18-08-2008 10:05 PM

*says a prayer for her bro*

My unemployment situation is starting to wear. My husband made a rude comment about it this morning. I don't know what to do about it.


MammaMia 18-08-2008 10:29 PM

*hugs Susan*

blondiebear 19-08-2008 12:32 AM

Thanks Helen.
I am crying because I am so very worried about Jeff. When he was going in, I was at the bead store getting a charm for my bracelet so I can remember to pray for him while he's gone inpatient. He really likes trains and train museums and so do I, so I got a charm that is a 1800's type locomotive.

*clings to everyone and weeps*

MammaMia 19-08-2008 01:05 AM

It's okay to be worried hun. But you know this will help him, well I hope it does :) You'll have us to lean on.

I do miss Emma :( I feel like I haven't spoken to her in ages it's werid.

People have diisapeeared..

Amanda? Hana? Emma? Emma? Ally? Alexx? Jem? Jess?

How you guys doing?

Casper_Fading 19-08-2008 02:25 AM

This is an automated message: Jess is away right now and not available to answer calls. She is busy self-destructing. Thank you and have a nice day.

MammaMia 19-08-2008 02:32 AM


Casper_Fading 19-08-2008 02:39 AM

This is an automated message: Jess is away right now and not available to answer calls. She is busy self-destructing. Thank you and have a nice day.

blondiebear 19-08-2008 02:44 AM

I know it is for the best. I just have a big soft heart and that is okay.
I am going to need you. For me, i'm going to be restless, kinda squirrely, for the next few days, till the 27th. Then it is, i hope and god willing, PARTY!

~*forever_broken*~ 19-08-2008 02:48 AM

Here, and not happy about it :crying:
*hunts for the tissues* I'm sorry I missed you Jeff and that you're in such a bad place at the moment... I love you*massive hugs*
*heads to her linen closet with the tissues*

blondiebear 19-08-2008 03:14 AM

*hugs ally*
Jeff is taking care of himself.
And I may be a short stuff, but my shoulders are broad and I have a big heart. I can't take his place. I'll just be me and help however I can though.

MammaMia 19-08-2008 03:36 AM

*hugs all*

~*forever_broken*~ 19-08-2008 03:41 AM

Blondie-mum, you're great just as you are :-D
*cuddles up to her RYL-mum with a blanket and her stuffed lamb*

MammaMia 19-08-2008 04:18 AM

Maybe I'd be better dead.
I don't know though.
What on earth do I want?

All I'm Living For 19-08-2008 04:40 AM

*hugs you* i dont know what i can say to help you but i'm here if you want to talk or need a cuddle or anything *offers cuddles*

MammaMia 19-08-2008 05:00 AM

*takes cuddles and gives you some aswell*

It's odd I feel this way.
Because I dont feel sucidical.
Even though I'm thinking about it.
As in doing it.

I've upset Jess.
Bad Hells.

I would REALLY love to see my best friend right now.
I haven't heard from her for 18 days or so.
It's real hard not having her in this country.

When am I gonna be ok again?
Never probably

Kahlia1981 19-08-2008 05:02 AM

*gives hugs to everyone who wants and needs them*

I really want to sit and cry, and to hurt myself so badly that I never recover.

I'd like to ask for hugs if anyone has any to spare. And possibly a nice shoulder to cry on.


Pomegranate 19-08-2008 09:41 AM

*sits and rocks in the corner* can someone just shoot me or something? I don't want to do this anymore. I'm not sure I can :(

effervescence 19-08-2008 10:09 AM

*sits with emma*
hello my dear.
i don't know if i can do this anymore either. shall we be uncertain together?

MammaMia 19-08-2008 12:48 PM


Originally Posted by Pomegranate (Post 1012859)
*sits and rocks in the corner* can someone just shoot me or something? I don't want to do this anymore. I'm not sure I can :(

Nobody is going to shoot you Em, we all love you too much. *offers hugs*

MammaMia 19-08-2008 12:49 PM


Originally Posted by effervescence (Post 1012891)
*sits with emma*
hello my dear.
i don't know if i can do this anymore either. shall we be uncertain together?

*offers hugs* You BOTH can do this :thumbup:

Kahlia1981 19-08-2008 12:59 PM

* offers hugs to Pomegranate and effervescence *

I know I'm not in here as often as I would like and probably should be .... I'm sorry.

* curls up in a corner and pulls several layers of blankets over her head *

I managed to dislocate a bone in my foot, which may be fractured, however, because it's a foot we won't find out for possibly another week. Between the pain in my foot and my messed up head I just don't know what to do. I want to hide away from the world. I want to destroy myself, and I'm scared that I will actually go ahead and do it. Is there a way out other than what is in my head ??

* cuddles up to a teddybear *

blondiebear 19-08-2008 03:13 PM

I had to end a friendship yesterday. I wasn't helping and it was messing me up, totally upsetting me.

I have the locomotive charm to look at so I remember to pray for my Bro, Jeff. He is in my thoughts and prayers all the time right now.

*cuddles Ally*

Kahlia, come over and sit with Ally and me? I love to cuddle people and I need the cuddles myself.

Auburn Shadow 19-08-2008 04:03 PM

*hugs everyone*

*retreats to a corner to attempt to sleep*

1ofmany 19-08-2008 04:29 PM

A year is too long, got to be happy...can I wait?

MammaMia 19-08-2008 05:07 PM

**cuddles everyone**

How can I go from thinking about death to giggling pretty hard in a matter of minutes..

zowie 19-08-2008 05:29 PM

Tried having a nap but just had a nightmare so now I'm awake and thinking about self-destruction.

MammaMia 19-08-2008 07:29 PM

*huggles Zowie*

1ofmany 19-08-2008 07:51 PM


All I'm Living For 20-08-2008 12:55 AM

*hides in cupboard*
stupid stupid stupid!!!

blondiebear 20-08-2008 01:34 AM

*cuddles Marc, Helen, Sophie, Zowie*
*leaves a box of super soft hand crocheted or hand sewn cuddles for anyone who wants or needs them*
*prays for her Bro*

*Hangs out doing hand work*

risenfromperdition 20-08-2008 01:36 AM

parents suck. end of.

MammaMia 20-08-2008 02:47 AM

This is NOT normal.

It should have killed me there and then.
Would save me the effort of having to freaking try again.

All I'm Living For 20-08-2008 03:04 AM

would anyone like some hugs?

glitter 20-08-2008 03:06 AM

I would love a hug.

All I'm Living For 20-08-2008 03:11 AM

*huggles and cuddles lots*

MammaMia 20-08-2008 03:24 AM

Would adore to be wrapped in hugs.

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