Highly Caffeinated Oliver :P How are you doing ?

I'm in conflict ith my emotions and there are so many different ones going round my head at the moment *hugs*

I Love your new signature Oliver :) *Hugs your head to calm it*

thank you Mark :) *hugs*

I have a plan for the rest of the day to try and incorporate all of my moods and feelings.

go to Asda with my friend, do some practice, go for a run and do some press ups etc, do some more practice, chill and watch a film/tv

That sounds a very good plan Oliver , Healthy too , I can't do push ups and Jogging? Hah! I need to lose weight by eating okay before excersize , I'm sick of salad and Tofu Pate sandwhiches :P

*hugs mark* I'm trying to lose weight and gain some muscle before I go on testosterone. I used to not be able to do press ups, but now I can do the half ones, so I'm improving :)

*Hugs Oliver* Go you ! when do you go on testosterone?

*Hugs Serenity*

* Hugs*

I've been there Serenity , Urges are horrible :S *Hug*

thank you serenity *hugs* please stay safe, is there something you can do to distract yourself from thoughts of self harm. I'm here for a bit, then out, but wont be away for long, so I'm about if you want someone to talk to

*hugs Mark* I dont have an exact date for going on testosterone (T) yet, although I have my first appt at the gendrr identity clinic on June 27th, so only a couple of months and a bit away, but I'm hoping to be on T by the end of this year :)

*Hugs everyone*

*hugs all around* just checking in real quick... had to come and see if you were doing better, oliver :) LOVE, LOVE, LOVE your new signature, btw!

now that I've read up and know I have to pop off and clean this house before my bff comes over to have a work night (filling orders for our business) ... I dread the thought of cleaning right now, but at least it'll be a distraction... I'm really dealing w/ this repressed anger toward hubby right now that is extremely drainging, but i can't see to let it go...

*Hugs Kelly*

*Hugs Serenity*

*Hugs Oliver* May I PM you on a possibly personal matter , It's not urgent but I'm curious (and we know what that did to the cat so I thought I'd get your permission first)

*Hugs Charlie*

*hugs back*

grrrrrrr... i think i need to go scream the top of my lungs or punch something! my husband is really pissing me off!

I'm sorry Kelly , want to talk to me hun?

maybe later.... thanks for the offer though... i'm getting ready to go out with my bff... that should help. I'm just really tired of not being heard and then when I try to make myself heard, I'm bitching (his words .. not mine) :(

*Squishes Kelly Heaps*

My partner and nephew are here ... i told my partner what i wanted to do they said that there going to hide the 18 rated films so i don't do that .

I dont have my anti psychotics tonight as my partner never made to the pharmacy on time because my mother keeps him behind with other jobs that needed done when he has already painted her kitchen for her .
So i dont know if am going to be ok tonight or not

*Squishes Serenity* Someeone will probably be about in here should you need to talk .....

*hugs mark* off course you may PM me :)

*hugs serenity* I'll be around tonight should you need to talk or anything. It was good you told your partner though *hugs*

*hugs Kelly* thank you for last night, not sure how I'm feeling today, but a bit weird, all over the place really. and thank you for loving my sig :)
sorry thing are hard with your husband, here if you want to talk.

*hugs everybody*

Oliver why does the gay pride flag have 6 colours when a rainbow has 7?

good question I don't know! I'm going to go look it up now, you have got me thinking

it was originally 8, then they got rid of one colour making it 7 then another making it 6, each colour means something different. Wikipedia told me this all. I don't know why they settled on the 6 ersion one though, it just is the most popular and used one

*hugs Serenity* is there anything you can do to try and block out the voices, like listen to some music or something. an early night sounds like a good idea though

*gives run by hugs*
tried to keep up this week... can't do individuals but... Oliver, one thing that helped me push up wise when I first started doing them (about a decade ago lol) was to put my feet on something about a foot off the floor. Now my back just kills me when I do floor push ups (even girlie ones) so I do pushups with my hands on a counter top :)
*edit* Indigo is missing btw Mark... probably more comp friendly since its so close to the blue and violet...

*hugs crimson*

*squishes Crimson* don't work too hard!

*Hugs y'all goodnight*

night * hugs*

*hugs Mark* night

*hugs Serenity*

*spots and hugs solo and felicia*

Thanks Oliver! ~Hugs ya back~

*hugs solo* how are you?

What's the word for aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whatever it is, that's how I am.

*hugs Solo*

hugs all curls up, wish these stuiped images and thoughts would go away, i no like them. sorry

*hugs shadow* its ok, is there anything you can do to distract yourself from the images. I'm around if you want to talk

thanks oliver, not sure if i have said this but the names jill. iam trying im playing a fb game, its not really working as the images are running through my head making me remember stuff i dont want to. how are you tonight?

*hugs Jill* sorry I forgot. i'm not sure how I am, dont feel good though

squishes oliver if okay. don't worry about it, i forget names all the time its all good. cuddles oliver hopping it will make him feel better

*cuddles Jill back*

im here if you need a listening ear oliver? hmm think this is going to be a long night, ugh another night without much sleep. ugh nothing new there tho, why the hell did i have to remember this stuff. damn it

* Hugs Oliver and Jill * Sorry that you both arent so good.
The voices have gotten louder ...i cant sleep.
Unsure what is real and what isnt.

*cuddles Jill* I fear its going to be a long night for me too, I'm here if you want to talk. anything you can do to help with the images

*hugs serenity*

hugs serenity if okay. is there anything that you can do to drown out the voices. hugs back thank you. hmm playing a facebook game in hopes of distracting me. not really working. hmm just want to curl up and die and screw the afterwards. sorry

*hugs Jill lots* lots of people would miss you hun, I certainly would and others in the ward. *cuddles*