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BWchick 23-03-2011 07:16 PM

I just realized something... this is a hug heavy thread :) I like it that way!

*Hugz Mark*

*Hugz Oliver*

*Hugz Crimson*

*Hugz Solo*

*Hugz Tiff*

PoisonedApple 23-03-2011 07:39 PM

indeed it is Megz!
*squishes* some days we just become the hug thread temporarily when we all are too busy or aren't up for chatting lol

*hugs Oliver* think of it this way, you can go to the gym later or even work out without the gym but if you fall asleep on the treadmill or something that could be awful! so sleep now work out later!

*glomps Mark* -pokes- How are you?

*huggles Solo* Did you have your OJ?

Doikers 23-03-2011 08:07 PM

*Pokes Crimson Back* Well, I'm sober , utterly although I was aware I was sluring my speech on the phone to my Mum I don't know why. I did injure though , Coulden't help it......

PoisonedApple 23-03-2011 08:11 PM

well one thing at a time, one day at a time. so one rather than both is good progress... as for the speech, I'd guess stress or anxiety maybe? that's happened to me before.

Louise 23-03-2011 08:13 PM

hugs everyone

Doikers 23-03-2011 08:17 PM

Yeah I guess Anxiety mixed with tiredness Crimson. I just hope she didn't think I was drunk :(

*Hugs Louise*

PoisonedApple 23-03-2011 08:19 PM

*hugs Louise*
*hugs Mark* She may, she may not. If she asks just tell her the truth, you hadn't been drunk just tired and anxious.

Doikers 23-03-2011 08:22 PM

yeah , Thats a good idea Crimson . My parents are away on Mothers Day so we are doing it this weekend I'm worried there will be alcohol . FREE alcohol , I'm not exactly outside of temptation hmmmmm

PoisonedApple 23-03-2011 08:27 PM

I totally understand the temptation factor.... Not quite the same thing but I'm sitting in my office for all of lunch to avoid the 'ice cream social' in the break room. I cave way to easy when deliciousness is offered to me...

Doikers 23-03-2011 08:29 PM

I cave in easily too Crimson , Not really for ice-cream but other stuff most definatley.

PoisonedApple 23-03-2011 08:33 PM

if i were there and it were socially acceptable i'd just eat the caramel lol but i'm eating nuts, carrots and fruit and they are delicious and healthy.

Doikers 23-03-2011 08:40 PM

I eat quite a bit of fruit , I get my 5 in before I even start on my meals :) I am on a budget though so I buy whatever types on offer .

PoisonedApple 23-03-2011 08:42 PM

*nods* we get them on sale too... this week was strawberries buy one get one free :D i'm going to have to dehydrate some for when i next make 'oatmeal packets' lol

Doikers 23-03-2011 08:44 PM

How do you dehydrate them , In the microwave? Or is there a special peice of kit you use?

Louise 23-03-2011 08:48 PM

sorry for being useless

Billy! 23-03-2011 08:49 PM

*Curls up*

Doikers 23-03-2011 08:51 PM

*Hugs Louise* You're not useless hun , Why do you think that ?

*Hugs Charlie* How are you hun?

Louise 23-03-2011 08:52 PM

i feel i let people down or so i get told. grrrrrrrrrrrrr feel down tonight due to some people

PoisonedApple 23-03-2011 08:54 PM

You are not useless Louise! *huggles*

Mark, I have an older version of this that a friend gave me (they hadn't used it in over 5 yrs) after my oster brand one blew a fuse and quit working. I made fruit leathers yesterday. They're good for making all kinds of things (meat jerky - i've made salmon, beef and moose; fruit chips; raisins (or craisins or other berry raisins); potato chips; etc).

Billy! 23-03-2011 08:56 PM

*Hugs Mark*
I just......give up.

PoisonedApple 23-03-2011 08:58 PM

wow got busy in here real quick!
*cuddles Charlie*
be back in an hour or so (gotta cover the front desk for R's lunch)
*cuddles all*

Doikers 23-03-2011 08:58 PM

Hey that looks Fun Crimson!

*Squishes Louise* You're not useless hun , try to ignore horrid comments people make?

Doikers 23-03-2011 09:02 PM

Whats up Charlie ?

Billy! 23-03-2011 09:09 PM

I just...These urges. They've been at least once a day for the past 29 days and I've fought through all of them. I've use every skill I can think of, every distraction, self soothing activity, everything. But I can't anymore. The last few days it's just been constant. I can't fight it anymore. I can manage tonight cause I'm not at home. But tomorrow....It's just not gonna happen.

Doikers 23-03-2011 09:14 PM

*Squishes Charlie* I'm sorry you are having urges , could you get rid of your tools before you get another urges , Into the River (With your phone :P) or flush them ? Start trying the techniques again , going From 1st to last ?

Doikers 23-03-2011 09:15 PM

*Night time Hugs my Wardies*

Billy! 23-03-2011 09:20 PM

I have got rid of my blades, but I can get new ones. And I want to. I don't care about it anymore. I just need it now. I can manage tonight, but tomorrow morning.....I'm looking forward to this. Does that make me sick?
*Night time Hugs Mark*

BWchick 23-03-2011 09:27 PM

It just gets hard. We all go through difficult times. tell yourself that you are better than that; that you are strong because you are we wouldn't have you any other way and we loooovvveee you


FlyingNy 23-03-2011 09:35 PM

*Hugs Charlie* You've done so well, you've managed to earn yourself your 1 month free bracelet :)

****. My friend is asking my really awkward questions. She saw my legs today. I haven't cut, but I had written in black marker everything I think about myself. I was wearing a dress but it's knee length and I had tights on so I thought it would be okay but now she's asking about them...

Billy! 23-03-2011 09:38 PM

Exactly Lia so I deserve a little relax right?

FlyingNy 23-03-2011 09:39 PM

I just don't want you to regret it so much you do something stupid or just generally feel like ****.

FlyingNy 23-03-2011 09:41 PM

Great all I could think of to reply to my friend's text asking about the writing on my legs was 'well this racoon came in and it was possessed by a piece of Voldermort's soul, so as I was innocently changing for school it came at my with my marker pen from my whiteboard and began a vicious attack. I fought it off but I was already late for school so I had to go with it." That's even worse than the excuse 'I'm baking a hedghog for Prince Charles' anniversary'.

Billy! 23-03-2011 09:42 PM

It's just....I'm getting to the point again that i'm having so many urges to self harm which I have to fight, I'm getting suicidal again.

BWchick 23-03-2011 09:43 PM

I like that actually! :) you are fine. that is better than actually hurting yourself

BWchick 23-03-2011 09:44 PM

NO CHARLIE *tackles and smothers in armes* pleeeeeeeeeeaaaassssseee dooonnnnttttt! :(

Billy! 23-03-2011 09:47 PM

Thats My point....it's like, the lesser of two evils. I can't fight both...

FlyingNy 23-03-2011 09:50 PM

If you really feel you need to, no one was expecting you to go cold turkey. You can come off the self harm slowly. Do it once a day, then twice a week, then once a week, twice a month, once a month etc.

Billy! 23-03-2011 09:52 PM

I am loving wearing my one month free but...I don't want to go back to being a suicidal mess, or worse-making attempts and even maybe succeeding. Self harms just more....safe?

FlyingNy 23-03-2011 09:58 PM

It is. But you can beat this permently. You just have to do it slowly. I won't stop you if you feel it's best for you, because as you said, the alternative is worse. I just don't want you to beat yourself up over it. Like I said, come off slowly, become less dependant bit my bit.

Billy! 23-03-2011 10:01 PM

Maybe I will feel better in the morning though. Hopefully. The longer I can manage the better. I wanted to wear short sleeves tomorrow if the weather was the same as it was today. 18 degrees here.

BWchick 23-03-2011 10:08 PM

thats the spirit!

PoisonedApple 23-03-2011 10:15 PM

*g'night hugs Mark*
That's the spirit Charlie *extra squishy huggles*
I like your answer *glomps Lia*
*hugs Megz*

Billy! 23-03-2011 10:18 PM

Thanks guys *Cuddles*
I'm not completley sure about the short sleeves. I would love to but....

BWchick 23-03-2011 10:19 PM

elbow gloves?

FlyingNy 23-03-2011 10:21 PM

Well my friend didn't buy it, but she gave me credit for the creativity.

FlyingNy 23-03-2011 10:22 PM

Depends how many people know about your self harm and how comfortable you are with it Charlie.

Billy! 23-03-2011 10:23 PM

I don't have any, and half the point would be to finally let people from college see my scars. As soon as I left college today I took my jumper off and was fine, but at college theres just something stopping me and I don't know what.
Sorry Lia, double posting. Not many people know..at least I don't think they do... i'm not very comfortable but I want to become comfortable.

FlyingNy 23-03-2011 11:00 PM

I'm here :) just hair straightening, getting in my jammies, writing etc. Not all at the same time.

Hmm...You could wear short sleeves and take a jacket, that way you can pick and chose throughout the day.

Billy! 23-03-2011 11:06 PM

Yeah, I just can't be botherd to carry it around all day.
I should go to sleep soon. I want to ask someone from college what they think, but I don't want a bad reaction right now :/

FlyingNy 23-03-2011 11:11 PM

Is there anyone you know would take it fine? Like Sophie?

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