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MammaMia 13-11-2009 12:16 PM

*cuddles all*

Feeling a little better today..

Synthetisk 13-11-2009 06:50 PM

Went AWOL for a bit. Hello again.

Please wish me luck for Tuesday, I have a hospital appointment and my psychiatrist-person doesn't think I've really got better even on such heavy medication doses. I'm scared about what will happen next.

SoMuchMore 13-11-2009 07:22 PM

*hugs helen* glad that you are feeling better
*hugs kirkland* good luck with your hospital appointment. hope it goes okay.

Had a good anniversary with my boyfriend yesterday and found out that my best friend from high school will probably be coming to visit me at my university in a few weeks!!!! Yay!

Synthetisk 13-11-2009 08:51 PM

Thank you Laura <3

Ahh,it sounds like you're having fun then! Congrats to both you and your boyfriend too- and your friend coming to visit sounds like tons of fun too. Enjoy youself!

Kahlia1981 14-11-2009 01:16 PM

*cuddles everyone then disappears into a corner, sits down and starts rocking*

shadowedseraph 14-11-2009 02:18 PM

*hugs kahalia* whats up hon?

MammaMia 14-11-2009 08:44 PM

*curls up*

Kahlia1981 15-11-2009 12:36 AM

*hugs everyone*

So tired of being stressed to the max all the time... So tired of having the urge to cut every waking moment ... So tired of getting to the point where ODing seems like the answer - the only answer - to life getting on top of me ... Just so over everything.

shadowedseraph 15-11-2009 11:18 AM

*hugs kahalia* im sorry that i dont have a smart answer for you, my head is all over the place. But oding isnt the only answer, please talk about whats going on for you instead

Kahlia1981 16-11-2009 11:03 AM

*hugs everyone*

I'm tired but I can't sleep. Hopefully that will settle. At least there's nothing physically wrong with me. Meh. This night looks like it's going to be a pain in the arse.

shadowedseraph 16-11-2009 11:46 AM

*hugs kahalia* is it hot there? i find that affects my sleep

SoMuchMore 16-11-2009 08:38 PM

*hugs everyone*

I did something stupid and now I may lose the only person that knows more than anyone else about me... I'm an awful person. I screwed up.. i should've known better.

Synthetisk 17-11-2009 05:08 PM

*giant hugs for everyone*
You're all much nicer, stronger, powerful and more beautiful than you think. Just thought I should say that.

Laura, you are definitely not an awful person. I'm sure there'll be a way for everything to be made right again <3

Today my lamotrigine dose was bumped up, as well as being started on an antidepressant. Woo, go me _

Kahlia1981 17-11-2009 09:20 PM

*hugs everyone*

realflifefaerie 18-11-2009 11:39 AM

Could I come and hide in here for a bit please, I'm really struggling

[Fog] 18-11-2009 03:00 PM

*Hugs for all*

Haven't been on for a while. I'm really struggling at the moment. DID getting totally out of control, my parents know that I'll get sectioned soon so I've taken a day off work today and I've spent the day under the supervision of my dad. The thing is that I really wouldn't mind going into hospital for a while because I'm frightened of myself and I am going to lose my job soon. I just can't cope with real life and normal people. My parents are properly against it though after last time and want to keep it all within the family.

Hope you guys are all doing ok, loves xxx

Kahlia1981 18-11-2009 09:39 PM

realflifefaerie: Sure come on in and find yourself somewhere. We have a denial tent (for when you want to feel that everything is okay even when it's not), a puppy (puppy SinClair), a smoking shelter and a couple of thousand corners. Make yourself at home and if we can help in any way, let us know. *hugs you*

Hannah: Sounds tough hon. Sorry I can't offer any words of wisdom, just wanted to let you know I read and I care. *hugs you*

*hugs everyone*

My life while seeming on the outside to be coming together feels from the inside like it's falling apart. I'm struggling to keep myself together and to keep myself motivated to do the things I have to do. A panic/stress feeling has been around since the weekend and it keeps me on such a high level of awareness that it's hard to do even simple tasks because my heart feels like it's about to jump out of my chest.

*sits down in a corner and wraps herself in a blanket and lets herself rock*

[Fog] 19-11-2009 07:06 PM

Kahlia *hugs back* I'm sorry to hear that you are finding things so difficult at the moment. It's frustrating when it feels like the outside image is different to the inside, but if things are coming together on the outside you must be doing something right! Is there anything you can do to relieve the feelings you have? Exercise or art or writing or something? Exercise often helps me with panic/ anxiety feelings. It is horrible though, sending you loves.

I've been very very very manic today. This is probably the calmest I've been all day. I've been manic for a week now which is weird normally I hit rock bottom after a day or so. Back to work tomorrow s**t s**t s**t I reeeeally hope I can keep it together...

Kahlia1981 19-11-2009 11:56 PM

*hugs everyone*

I know this is OT but I thought some of you might get a smile out of it. It's quite simply a fact of the day:

After Monday and Tuesday even the calendar goes W T F ....

Country Girl 20-11-2009 01:27 AM

haha! good one Kahlia

I think I might have screwed up today. i am a teacher and I often play counselor to some of my students. We were talking today and we were talking about mistakes and such and i said that I had made a big mistake the night before :S dumb of me....well...one of them looked at me and said do you cut yourself, and I said yes. It was stupid I shouldn't have said it, but I don't like lieing to my students and it just came out without me thinking :( any thoughts on this would be welcome....

*HUGS everyone*

Kahlia1981 20-11-2009 11:09 PM

*hugs everyone*

My landlord's mother passed away last night. There's a very solemn air to the house at the moment. :(

tweety pie 84 20-11-2009 11:52 PM

need to come and hide for a while, im having a really bad time. :crying:

SoMuchMore 21-11-2009 01:02 AM

*hugs rachel* I can't give you any advice on your situation... but i hope you figure it out. Stay safe.
*hugs kahlia* I'm sorry about your landlord's mother.
*hugs tweety pie* Hope you feel better.

Its my fall break now. that means I have to go home, which could either be good or bad, we'll see I guess.
My uncle was also apparently facebook stalking and googling me (waste of time much?) and he came across something I wrote and told my mother that I belong to some "pro cutting site." I was so mad when I found out, especially since it was an anti-piece. If he's gonna accuse anyone of anything, he should do his research first. *sigh* I have worked very hard at convincing my mother that I'm okay.

Kahlia1981 21-11-2009 06:52 AM

*hugs everyone*

No anxiety today as I haven't had to leave the house. Bit worried about monday but I'll have to mention my little fear to my GP. Errk. Just realised that I'll have to go out on the bike too ....

tweety pie 84 21-11-2009 10:58 AM


fallinstar, maybe you could print what you wrote out, so that they can read it for themselves.

still struggling this morning, just trying to forget everything. Got to clean my whole flat today because my mum's coming and its in a right state. Am hoping it might make me feel better

Kahlia1981 22-11-2009 12:13 PM

*hugs everyone*

Sorry it can't be more. I'm not in such a great place myself...

xXxDeathDancerxXx 23-11-2009 03:56 AM

*walks into room ,sits in corner*

asks shyly, Have room for one more?

SoMuchMore 23-11-2009 04:58 AM

*hugs kahlia* Its okay that it is not more. Hope you are alright.
*hugs deathdancer* Of course there is room. U alright? *offers welcome pillows and blankets*

xXxDeathDancerxXx 23-11-2009 02:58 PM

*hugs Fallinstar back*

no I feel so numb right now and its scares me :crying:

I have been three months free of SI but I feel like im falling fast

Accidentally Abstract 23-11-2009 09:18 PM

*curls up* :(

realflifefaerie 23-11-2009 10:21 PM

Thanks for being so welcoming.

I'm struggling so much at the moment, I want to hide away

xXxDeathDancerxXx 23-11-2009 10:38 PM

*snuggles close to Accidentally Abstract*

*hands over blanket*

You ok?

tweety pie 84 23-11-2009 11:20 PM

*cries* If i cant do this physically im doing it virtually.

feeling really sore from stiches and emotionally drained. Trying to keep on going but its so hard

hellbunny 24-11-2009 12:03 AM

*hugs everyone*

curls up in the corner cos cant deal with everything thats going on at the moment! and reallly need to hide away.

MammaMia 24-11-2009 03:15 PM

*curls up* :'(

Optimus Pirate 24-11-2009 03:39 PM

*sneaks in and curls up in a ball of essay stress and uselessness in a corner*

signingchild 24-11-2009 04:27 PM

*walks up to the check in desk*
may i check in please?

Kahlia1981 25-11-2009 12:05 AM

*walks in, hugs everyone then disappears into a corner*

xXxDeathDancerxXx 25-11-2009 04:56 AM

* sit in corner and crys *

Why does life have to be so freaking difficult?
I hate my life I don't know why I try.

MammaMia 25-11-2009 11:41 PM

*hides in the denial tent*

Ahhhh thats better =D

SoMuchMore 26-11-2009 12:12 AM

*hugs everyone*
Sorry I'm too tired to do individual posts.

It's family time here since its thanksgiving week. Being around my family is so draining most of the time. I always like the idea of seeing everyone, and then when I get here I always just want to go back to my school.

Kahlia1981 26-11-2009 12:50 PM

*hugs everyone*

If anyone wants me I'll be curled up in a corner crying since I can't cry in real life.

MammaMia 26-11-2009 01:12 PM

Same here Kahlia *comes and sits next to you and gives you hugs*

signingchild 26-11-2009 06:20 PM

goes over to kahlia and mamma and gives them ea a hug and sits in the corner galad to b a away from "familyness".

Kahlia1981 26-11-2009 09:10 PM

*hugs Helen*
*hugs Sarah*
*hugs everyone*

I woke up to find a knife beside me that I don't remember putting there again this morning. I think I'm losing my fragile control. *sigh*

signingchild 27-11-2009 03:27 AM

that is kinda scary. i'm sorry. anything i can do?

youonlyliveonce 27-11-2009 01:35 PM

can i cum n hide in the corner please

Kahlia1981 27-11-2009 01:39 PM


Originally Posted by signingchild (Post 2008388)
that is kinda scary. i'm sorry. anything i can do?

Sarah - yeah it's very scary. I'm not sure if there's anything anyone can do. But thank you very much for the offer.

*hugs everyone*

I should be happy because I ordered a new laptop today ... but strangely I'm not. Probably because my special saving bank account is currently close to empty. Meh.

realflifefaerie 27-11-2009 01:41 PM

Leaves hugs for everyone.

Well suppose I finally have a diagnosis today, though I was still told in a way I'm not good enough. Can I come and curl up with you guys in the corner please?

youonlyliveonce 27-11-2009 01:44 PM

big hugs. hope ur ok chick head up

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