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MammaMia 04-11-2009 02:36 PM

How did it go honey?? *hugs you back and then cuddles everyone else*

Still in ****ing pain. Not ****ing happy.

Strawberry.Bananas 04-11-2009 08:03 PM

*hugs everybody*

Just popped in to give everybody hugs...hope you're all doing ok.
Sorry I don't check the thread as often as I'd like, but I'm always a PM away if any of you need anything...I'll certainly try to help...x

Kahlia1981 04-11-2009 09:14 PM

*cuddles everyone*

The appointment with the psychologist went well. He wants to see me weekly but my next appointment isn't until December unless there is a cancellation.

one_step_closer 05-11-2009 03:54 PM

I'm glad your appointment went well but that is quite a wait.

Kahlia1981 05-11-2009 09:20 PM

Lindsay: Yeah it is quite a wait. I'm hoping I can hang on for that long.

*cuddles everyone then goes and finds an empty corner and sits and rocks staring at the wall*

stargazer_x 05-11-2009 10:32 PM

*Walks in, looking around unsure*

Uhm...hello...I think I may need to check into this place. Feeling very unsafe right now.

However, I do bring cookies.

*Hands out chocolate chip cookies to everyone*

MammaMia 06-11-2009 12:08 AM

*cuddles everyone*

Not doing so good...

*stares at the wall and cries because she can't in real life*

Kahlia1981 06-11-2009 01:05 AM

*hugs Bethany* - come on in. We have a denial tent, a puppy (puppy SinClair), a smoking shelter, as many corners as people who need them so I hope you can get some relief from real life here.

*holds Helen* - no words I'm afraid but I can offer you a tissue.

*hugs everyone*

I feel down again. I had to act cheerful when I went to see my physio and now that I've stopped acting I just want to curl up on my bed and cry. But I can't cry. I feel like there is no escape from this mood except through death. I want it all to stop now. Can anybody stop the world cause I really, really want to get off.

*curls up into a little ball in the corner and cries*

MammaMia 06-11-2009 01:41 AM

*cuddles Kahlia lots*

Kahlia1981 06-11-2009 02:54 AM

*cuddles into Helen*

zowie 06-11-2009 04:55 AM

*Joins the cuddle with Kahlia and Helen and cries quietly*
Love you both. xxxxxx

Kahlia1981 06-11-2009 10:51 AM

*hugs Arwen*
*hugs everyone*
*curls up in a corner and cries her heart out*

MammaMia 06-11-2009 12:58 PM

*also cries her heart out and cuddles kahlia and arwen some more*

Shame I can't cry in real life *shrugs* Also there's cuddles for everyone :) One of my best friends has left me, well said she was, then a couple hours texted me saying she was sorry for everything, then has called me 12 times since and phoned my other best friend 5 times too. I could text her back and end this hurting etc, but she needs to know she can't keep saying she's going to leave/pushing me away and for nothing to happen. I don't want to do it...but as my best friend said I didn't leave, she's the one who pushed me..So why do I feel so guilty??

stargazer_x 06-11-2009 05:13 PM

*hugs Kahlia* Thank you for your kind welcome.

*looks around before finding a nice, cozy corner to curl up and cry in*

Kahlia1981 06-11-2009 09:32 PM

*hugs Helen* - I can't cry irl either. I'm sorry to hear what you are going through with your best friend. I hope you manage to work out something that is in your best interest.
*hugs Bethany and passes over some tissues*
*hugs everyone*

I just want to go back to bed and pretend this day never happened. And the problem with that is it's only about 7:30 am. I've been up for an hour and my low mood has hit. It's getting distressing. And the worst thing is that I can't find a cause. Oh well.

*goes and finds puppy SinClair then disappears into the denial tent and pretends that everything is alright*

Strawberry.Bananas 06-11-2009 09:41 PM

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Kahlia*

Hope you're both ok...x

This really sucks. Really, really sucks. Nobody seems to understand. The only reason I'm dwelling on the break-up is because that's the only thing that I can stop hurting me. Eventually. Only, I'd rather not stop it hurting. I'd rather it was never over. Why did he ask me to try again for 2 weeks later to bail again? I wish I understood him. I wish I could hate him.

SoMuchMore 06-11-2009 10:26 PM

*hugs helen, kahlia, bethany, and vicki* Sorry i would do individual responses but there has been a lot of posts since Ive been in here. Hope you all are doing alright.

I don't feel like talking much, it hurts to talk, or even think too much. I just wanted to pop in and say hi.

Kahlia1981 06-11-2009 11:31 PM

*hugs Vicki and Laura*
*hugs everyone else*


stargazer_x 06-11-2009 11:42 PM

*hugs everyone*

I hope you're all doing okay.

MammaMia 06-11-2009 11:55 PM

*cuddles everyone*

Sorry we're all feeling so bad. Kahlia, hope your day improves :(

I just want to curl and sleep already :/

Kahlia1981 07-11-2009 04:07 AM

*cuddles everyone*

Helen: Thanks. My day isn't improving but at least I'm keeping my head above water.

I want to disappear. This depression isn't lessening in any way. Meh...

Kahlia1981 08-11-2009 02:42 AM

I feel like a post hog but...

*cuddles everyone*

*sneaks into a corner that no-one can see and curls up wishing she could cry*

MammaMia 08-11-2009 12:49 PM

*cuddles everyone*

Things have been sorted with my best friend :) One less thing for me to stress over I guess.

Having a really bad day yay :/

SoMuchMore 08-11-2009 05:47 PM

*hugs kahlia* you are definitely not being a post hog.
*hugs helen* Glad things are better with your friend! Sorry your day is crappy.

*walks blankly to a corner and sits down to think*

MammaMia 08-11-2009 05:58 PM

*curls up*

Kahlia1981 09-11-2009 12:19 PM

*hugs Helen*
*hugs Laura*
*hugs everyone*

I'm dying inside. Little by little. I can feel it. My heart has been smashed open. Broken so bad that it can never be repaired. I want out.

*curls up and rocks while staring blankly at a wall*

zowie 09-11-2009 01:27 PM

My next door neighbour is dead.
She was so mentally unwell for so long, and I did nothing to help her.
She died in the psychiatric hospital where I stayed IP a lot last year.
I've been through illness. I want to spend my life helping people with MH problems.
And yet I did nothing to help the lovely woman who's been part of my life for 16 years.

Sigma 09-11-2009 01:32 PM

hi everyone

is there a spare corner? i can't deal with everything anymore..

SoMuchMore 09-11-2009 02:22 PM

*hugs kahlia*
*hugs arwen* I'm so sorry about your neighbor.. please don't be so hard on yourself. Nothing is your fault.
*hugs tokoloshe* of course there is a spare corner, come on in and find one.

Sigma 09-11-2009 02:27 PM

thanks, I brought my duvet to wrap myself in...

*hugs back and offers everyone a jelly baby*

MammaMia 09-11-2009 03:47 PM

*goes and hugs Kahlia* You'll get through this honey, I promise, I know everything hurts and is a massive struggle right now..but you will :)

*goes and hugs Arwen* I'm so sorry about your neighbour, I'm glad you want to help people with MH issues, you'll be fablous at it. Don't be so hard on yourself though sweetie.

*hugs everyone including new people* :)

Ugh not having a good time still. Ha. *curls up and dies*

zowie 09-11-2009 04:25 PM

Thanks Laura and Helen.


Kahlia1981 09-11-2009 10:04 PM

*hugs Arwen*
*hugs Helen*
*hugs Laura*
*hugs everyone she's missed from the previous page*
*hugs everyone who wanders in*

I'm sorry for the lack of individual replies but my brain isn't working right now. All I can think of is harming myself in some way - possibly fatally. God I'm even listening to depressing songs because I can't listen to any of the other songs on my computer because they seem so fake. I just want out. Anyone worked out how to stop the world yet? I have to get off now before I do myself some serious damage. I'm sorry for bringing this up with all of you.

*retreats into a corner, sits down and starts rocking*

Sigma 11-11-2009 10:35 AM

Sorry, Kahlia, I haven't worked out the answer yet either. I'm glad you're still here though...


Kahlia1981 11-11-2009 11:11 AM

Thanks Tokoloshe. *hugs you*
*hugs everyone*

I would really like all the ***** to stop now... Please???

*withdraws to a hidden corner, sits down and rocks while wishing she could cry*

MammaMia 11-11-2009 12:16 PM

*hugs everyone*

Kahlia1981 11-11-2009 08:01 PM

*cuddles everyone*

K1979 11-11-2009 09:41 PM

Not posted here before - really want to be safe.
Hospital even sounds like a good idea but would let too many people down.
I feel so alone.
I feel under so much pressure to stay well - I can't control this illness but why do people think I can?

MammaMia 12-11-2009 12:44 AM

*cuddles all*

Having a nightmare of a night. Just hope my fears don't become truth. Please please please don't :'(

SoMuchMore 12-11-2009 03:11 AM

*hugs kahlia*
*hugs k1979 and offers some welcome cookies*
*hugs helen* I hope your night is going better. Sorry its been a bad one so far.

I'm not holding back tonight when my friend comes over... he wants me to talk, so i guess i will. I'm kinda nervous though... I don't let too many people into my head

Kahlia1981 12-11-2009 03:59 AM

*hugs K1979* - Welcome.
*hugs Helen* - I hope your night improves.
*hugs Laura* - Good luck with talking to your friend. I hope it comes easily.
*hugs everyone*

SoMuchMore 12-11-2009 05:26 AM

*hugs everyone*

Things did not go well chatting with my friend. I feel horrible. :-(

Kahlia1981 12-11-2009 09:01 AM

*hugs Laura* - I'm sorry things didn't go so well.
*hugs everyone*

Aghhh. Someone stop the world I really want to get off.
*sneaks into a corner and sits down to meditate and try and get some calmness back*

MammaMia 12-11-2009 11:14 AM


*cuddles everyone*

shadowedseraph 12-11-2009 12:15 PM

*creeps in and rocks in a corner*

SoMuchMore 12-11-2009 03:40 PM

*hugs everyone*

Today is my boyfriend's and my 4 year anniversary. I hope it turns out okay, I really just want to be okay today.

Kahlia1981 13-11-2009 09:23 AM

*cuddles everyone*

*disappears into a corner and starts to cry*

shadowedseraph 13-11-2009 09:36 AM

*cuddles kahalia* whats wrong honey

Kahlia1981 13-11-2009 09:42 AM

*cuddles shadowed* I'm fighting to keep myself from doing either some form of SH or ODing. I'm in a really bad down patch and keep crying - it just takes a little thing for me to get set off.

shadowedseraph 13-11-2009 10:08 AM

*cuddles kahalia* your strong, you can do it! As for crying, its supposed to be good for you, a better release of tension than SH anyway *hugs*

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