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Kahlia1981 21-09-2009 12:13 PM

*hugs Helen* ~ Hopefully there's nothing to worry about hon.

*hugs everyone*

zowie 21-09-2009 12:27 PM

*Cuddles everyone*
I feel a little worse for wear today :o

Kahlia1981 21-09-2009 01:20 PM

*hugs Arwen* ~ I'm sorry to hear that.

I've been drinking and wish I still was but I stopped so that I didn't get drunk. I felt okay while I was drinking and everyone was awake but now the depression or low mood has kicked in again and I feel like OD'ing. I won't do it because I have to be strong, but I feel like I need to...

*curls up in a corner and starts crying*

youonlyliveonce 21-09-2009 02:05 PM

hi im bk im on extended leave till thurs then being discharged. hows everyone xx

SoMuchMore 21-09-2009 05:01 PM

*hugs arwen*
*hugs kahlia*
*hugs cherylwilson*
Sorry I don't have words for you guys...

I was trying to catch up on the posts here from yesterday, so i was reading the last page... and stumbled upon my post last night... i don't even remember posting it, in fact, i don't remember being on my computer at all last night. No alcohol involved... hmmmm... I don't think that's good. Makes me wonder what else I did online, although i haven't found any other evidence of anything...
Anyway, hope everyone is alright.

Ileana 21-09-2009 07:51 PM


shadowedseraph 21-09-2009 08:44 PM

*crawls into the corner and cries*

realflifefaerie 21-09-2009 10:02 PM

I can't do this. I just want it to go away.
Can i hide?

Kahlia1981 21-09-2009 10:47 PM

*hugs everyone and offers tissues to those crying in corners*

I see the psychologist for the first time today. I'm more than a little bit nervous. I just hope that I will be able to learn to trust her enough to open up. At the moment I have no trust in her whatsoever due to my trust issues. I've been hurt by so many psych professionals and so keep myself guarded around them. I just hope it goes well...

MammaMia 22-09-2009 12:19 AM

*hides and cries so hard because I can't in real life and my mum cant find me hehe*

Kahlia1981 22-09-2009 06:48 AM

*hugs Helen*
*hugs everyone*

MammaMia 22-09-2009 10:37 AM

I am really struggling and now I'm really angry again (Y)

My two best friends are worried I'm beginning to develop two eating disorders and by telling them they feel even more powerless to help. I guess I have been slowly spiralling. One went far as contacting my mum. But she won't get that message because I've deleted it.

I forgot to tell you, my best who was meant to be in the ED clinic for five months, was taken off section and out of there the other day. Unfortnately she's in hospital again today after fainting, hitting her head and fitting :( She's done that quite a few times, it's not good. Last time it was because of stomach ulcers (which then nearly killed her when they ruptured).

Oh I didn't have my blood test yesterday. They re-made my 'doctors appointment' for Wednesday. Then this morning, I got a letter from a different GP, asking me to have a wee chat about how I'm feeling and after my A&E attendence. HAHAHAHHA. It's taken them FOUR ****ING LONG WEEKS TO FINALLY GIVE A ****????? I don't see why I should ****ing bother. They don't give a **** about me. Even my OWN GP DOESN'T CARE!!!!!

This is all too much. So much **** going down. I just need to die.

Strawberry.Bananas 22-09-2009 03:04 PM

Ok, Ok. I can't cope and I don't know what to do. The anti-depressants aren't working yet and my suicidal urges are stronger than ever. I feel like the only way I can stop all of this is to just finish it off. I don't know what to do. I don't know...

SoMuchMore 22-09-2009 03:28 PM

*gently hugs helen* I'm so sorry to hear about everything that's going on with you. But you don't need to die, we would miss you dearly. Do you think you are going to talk to the GP? I know you are mad but maybe you should anyway....

*hugs strawberry.bananas* Do you have anyone you can call? Maybe a professional? Hang in there hun.

*walks to a dark corner and sits down to watch my life instead of live it*

MammaMia 22-09-2009 04:37 PM

I am possibly going to, we'll see.

Ileana 22-09-2009 06:11 PM

I haven't been here in ages. I missed it.

lolly_x 22-09-2009 06:13 PM

needs a cuddle..x

Ileana 22-09-2009 07:22 PM

I wish I could go to sleep and wake up somewhere else, somwhere better, and realize (to my eternal relief) that this had all been a dream and I hadn't been misplaced but was instead just simply having a nightmare. Sometimes I think this feeling could only be achieved with death's release from this miserable, earthly existence. I don't know why some people are scared of dying, death could not possibly be worse than life.
I wish I was comatose, physically dead yet mentally alive and living in a wonderful fantasy without knowing it isn't real.
How could my inner world be so extremely different and better than the so-called real one? Why does there have to be such a huge gap between what I see and what I can imagine? And why do I have to be aware of this gap? Why do I have to bear the painful truth of its existence and the obvious difference between the two worlds?

Wow, I'm not feeling so hot. I'm sorry I ranted here. I feel exposed, unsafe. I think I just need comfort.

~*Rainbow*~ 22-09-2009 11:17 PM

im dorwning and nobody can save me - i;ve had enough dont want to do this anymore!!!!!!!!!!11

can i give up now please

hate my life
friends backstabbing
keep trying to find the answer at the bottom of the bottle

help me please

SoMuchMore 23-09-2009 02:32 AM

*comes out of corner to hug everyone* sorry to hear that so many of us are having a hard time right now.

Kahlia1981 23-09-2009 04:27 AM

*hugs everyone then tries to disappear into a corner*

Strawberry.Bananas 23-09-2009 08:34 AM

Guys? What's it like to go IP?

Katey-lou 23-09-2009 01:35 PM

*slips in and hides away*

sorry not been around i ended up bk in hosp :( im out on leave for a bit, but theyre talking about trying to get me in to a specialised unit. but im really not sure about it, it was only briefly mentioned t be but theyre going to be talking about it at the complex case panel and then at my CPA tomorrow. eeeuuurrggghhh why cant things just be simple and ok :(

thinking of you all xx

MammaMia 23-09-2009 03:07 PM

Oh Katey sweetheart *cuddles*

Vicki, hopefully someone can answer you soon :)

Kahlia, don't disappear.

Katey-lou 23-09-2009 04:20 PM

Thankyou Helen, *hugsback* hope your ok x

Vicki, sorry i didnt reply earlier was in a bit of a self obsessed mood. i know this might sound a really general reply, but its depends what sort of IP unit it is, and the reasons for going IP, and also how you become IP. (wether your detained or not, no that theres much difference) it can be scary, especially if its a first admission, but even if its not it can still be scary at times. a lot of acute wards are busy places and theres a mix of people on them. being an IP can be helpful in various ways, but each persons expereince is different. hope that helped a little bit. am here if you want to talk more about it. spent an awful lot of time as an IP (unfortuantly) on various units so may be able to help you more. *hugs*

hope evryones doing ok *hugs everyone*

SoMuchMore 24-09-2009 03:52 AM

done.. gone.. given up. The end.

Kahlia1981 24-09-2009 03:53 AM

*hugs everyone then retires to her corner*

zowie 24-09-2009 12:35 PM

*hugs everyone*
I'ma spend the day in the smoking shelter, avoiding all the things I need to get done.

youonlyliveonce 24-09-2009 06:49 PM

needs to hide away this is 2 hard

MammaMia 24-09-2009 07:21 PM

I know how you feel ^ :(

~*Rainbow*~ 24-09-2009 08:28 PM

*hugs to everyone* Sorry its not more

Can i trade my life in please????????
Everything was going great now its just not!!! Wish i could just start over!!
I wanna go home cant deal with this horrid place anymore
someone help me to come home please!!

Kahlia1981 25-09-2009 12:52 AM

*hugs everyone then tries to disappear into a corner*

shadowedseraph 25-09-2009 01:25 PM

*hugs everyone then hides in a corner under a blanket*

SoMuchMore 25-09-2009 04:49 PM

*hugs rainbow*
*hugs kahlia*
*hugs shadowedseraph*
*hands over pillows for anyone sitting in corners*
Sorry I dont have anything more for you guys.

Very unsafe night. It was bad. I don't looks so good today. Now gotta plaster on a happy face for work.

Kahlia1981 26-09-2009 03:49 PM

*hugs everyone*

Up to about 45 minutes ago it was my birthday. I had a pretty good day. I wasn't expecting the day to be so good. . . It's now my sisters birthday believe it or not. We are going out to breakfast in the morning - or should I say "later on today"?? My mood has been improving most likely because of the addition of an extra lithium tablet. Now I just have to convince my GP to keep me on that dose.

shadowedseraph 26-09-2009 04:08 PM

*hugs Kahalia* Belated happy birthday :) Im glad it went well! I hope that your GP will listen to you about the Lithium

MammaMia 26-09-2009 07:33 PM

Happy (well belated your time) Birthday Kahlia :]

zowie 26-09-2009 10:50 PM

Happy (belated) birthday Kahlia :) xxx

SoMuchMore 26-09-2009 11:33 PM

*hugs everyone*

Happy belated Birthday Kahlia!

Kahlia1981 27-09-2009 12:58 AM

*hugs everyone*

Thank you all for the birthday wishes. :) They are much appreciated.

frenchhorn 27-09-2009 01:02 AM

feel so angry at the moment, my friends hav been really pissing me off lately, just feel so unsafe atm, going to curl up with my duvet and try to hide.

Pomegranate 27-09-2009 01:40 AM

Happy Belated Birthday Kahlia ( I think it may still be your birthday over here, so technically it is not belated :P)

Kahlia1981 27-09-2009 06:23 AM

*hugs everyone*

Thanks Emma. *hugs you*

Wakeful Dreamer. 27-09-2009 07:58 AM

*hugs everyone*
How are we all?

MammaMia 27-09-2009 01:05 PM

Kahlia, not sure if you were aware, but there's more birthday wishes for you on the previous page :]

zowie 27-09-2009 01:51 PM

*Is still in the smoking shelter*

MammaMia 27-09-2009 01:53 PM

Do things ever get better?

youngatheart 27-09-2009 03:02 PM

hi everyone how are you all? not so good here

SoMuchMore 27-09-2009 05:40 PM

*hugs arwen*
*hugs helen* I know the question was probably rhetorical... but my answer would be I hope so... I mean, it has to, right?
*hugs youngatheart* I'm sorry your not doing well.. feel better!

I actually had a good night last night.. nice change of pace.

Kahlia1981 28-09-2009 01:14 AM

Thanks everyone for the birthday wishes - sorry I haven't mentioned everyone individually but I'm a bit scatterbrained at the moment.

*hugs everyone*

I wanna go back to bed and it's only 10:14 in the morning! Meh.

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