eh 'sok <3
*cuddles*
*glares at computer*
:P

*cuddles some more*

I better try to sleep and hopefully no more mean dreams *sobs*

*cuddles* dreams are dumb *nod*
hope you get some rest x

Ok, brain seriously short circuiting. so bear with me

First of Hells *HUGS* sorry if I have been poor performer, entirely my fault, I am a ****, and will try to do better

second, bottle says take 1 every 24 hours, seems like quite a few pills, but I figure what the hell, 1 bottle of pills it is

*poke* jeff- you know 's 1 PILL every 24 hours =\
take care xox

Bro, behave yourself please?

I totally believe that the moon influences us. Lunatic? Most times I like the full moon, especially in fall and winter. I don't get what is going on tonight.

*hugs Helen*
*hugs heather, amanda,*
*reaches up on tiptoes to hug my Bro*

i am so triggered. for no reason. what an idiot. i want to do it, SO MUCH

DAMN FULL MOON!!!!!!!!!!

my bottle of Maalox says "do not take more than 8 teaspoonfuls in 24 hours"...
haha I swear I probably took at least 2 teaspoonfuls every hours if not ever half hour today... opps
I wonder why it says... it's just ****in' Maalox that... hmm... maybe it'll make me die
*sigh* but I doubt I'll be that lucky...

please help iam really scared.(MAY TRIGGER)
 

:crying: :crying: hi i need to check in because iam feeling so unsafe right now. and iam so scared of what else I will do to my self. I started cutting an hour ago and I just cant stop. They are Pretty Bad. I know that right now I really am a danger to myself. I just know there is know way that I can keep myself safe. I just dont know what to do , where to go or who to turn to for help. Can anyone please give me some help and advice on where I can go to get proffesional help. please? get professional help?
:crying: :crying:

At least there is a safe place that is not in the least scary for me i dont panic here were its safe

Good morning all. How's everyone doing today?
I'm not doing great, but much better than I was.
x

XXIF ONLY YOU KNEW81XX Have you tried the hospital? They may be able to help I know from experiance that at times they are help full

good evening from Oz

*cuddles some more* They are dumb but some are nice :) I did get some rest actually :)

*HUGS* I'm sorry Jeff, I do get quite snappy at times and probs make everyone feel even more crap than usual :blush: You're not a **** :blink:

*hugs susan back*

Good Afternoon Zowie hehe. I'm lad you're doing better, I hope it stays that way...*huggles*

God I'm stuck in a dilema and I have no idea what to do..

Oh my goodness, what a night for me to have been sleeping soundly through. I don't know where to start and really don't want to miss out anybody, but my main concern is for XXIFONLYYOUKNEWXX - please let us know asap if you sought medical advice.....though I'm kinda hoping you won't respond straight away as that'll mean you're getting the help you need. Hugs are here waiting for you though.
Hells, I'm gutted that you feel so bad right now and are thinking about checking yourself out. I'm pretty sure whenever I see you I send you hugs. You were one of the first people to welcome me to the ward. Please don't leave. *special snuggles just for helen* I'm gonna go check out your thread and see if theres anything I can help you with.
Zowie I'm glad your doing a bit better, hang on in there.
Oh and susan, thanks for the offer of beef jerky, but I'm a veggie so no thanks, though Eoghan loves it so if you've any spare you could always box it up and send it to afghan for him! lol
*brings in pretzels to share with everyone*
*snuggles everyone whether they want to be snuggled or not*
*realises some people are hiding in holes and cupbaords so goes roound snuggling everything including walls, doors and windows*

*emerges from hidey hole after a good night's sleep*

*hugs everyone*

*chomps breakfast*

Morning susan! Hope you have a good day today.

I'm on a new occupational therapy programme for my M.E so its time for my 30min power nap. See you all later.

im glad you got some rest helen :)

Ok had a nap and then been on phone nattering. My friend thats been in hospital for 16months is being discharged in 2weeks, yay!! I know you don't know her, but it gave me a reason to smile, so wanted to share it with you all.
*snuggles you all before going out to smoking shelter*

I'm still here in mind giving snuggles to those who want and need them, but just gotta do my ASDA online shopping lol as I appear to have eaten myslef out of house and home apart from some rice and a packet of crisps!! That'll make an interesting breakfast tomorrow before the shopping arrives! lol

Appreciate the hugs and snuggles, skip the food, ugh.

Takes a minute to spray another coat of varnish on door, turning out quite mediocre if I do say so myself.

Hells - thank you for kind words, skip the judgement, I know me much better, but will let it drop in the interest of Ward Peace. *hugs*

*closes and locks door so cannot be seen, heard or found*

*goes looking for Jeff is very determind to find him just for a snuggle*


*aha!!! In here?......nope.......*

*wonders around somemore*

*Reads Bro's mind to find where he is hiding and blows a couple of sister-kisses to him. Crawls in long enough to give him a hug and beg for one back.*

*hugs everyone*

*sits and leans protectively against a bit of the wall that might be a bit tacky with varnish and tries to decide if it would be best to make a prayer shawl, work on squares for the ryl blanket or to do some mending for a friend*

*finds Jeff and gives him some massive hugs*

*sigh* I have no idea how I'm doing tbh... Yay for me :s if I read my charts again I'll be able to tell you, I'm sure and it won't be good :s

*cuddles daughter Ally*

*sobs* can't believe I can't find Jeff and others can.....maybe I should wear my glasses?!
*snuggles Ally* hope you feel bit better soon
*snuggles susan* you're making a RYL blanket?! How exciting!

*makes tea (the drink not the meal) for all and leaves a tray of biscuits*

I probs won't leave...I dunno...awww thanks for my special snuggles *gives special snuggles back*

*hugs susan* Hope your day will be good :)


Thanks sweet. I still feel so tired.

Awwwwww yay for you & your friend =]

*gives Jeff lots of cuddles*

FFS I'm either having nightly panic attacks every night at the moment or my asthma is returning or something :crying:

oooh biscuits, yum! Thanks 1ofmany! I'm not a tea drinker myself though so I shall pass, I've been banned from all caffiene and alcohol by my OT. Going cold turkey is not fun. Anyhoo, I know its for the best and just have to hang on in there, so I'm going to hang on in there in that inviting looking space over to the left hand side of the ward near the pot plant. if anyone needs me thats where I shall be, but I've taken my night time meds and am now struggling to type and keep my eyes open, so you may have to poke or shout to get a response. If I'm not needed, nighty night everyone - and goodmorning to those of you in different time zones, lol.
*snuggles everyone she can find*
*goes to the inviting space to the left hand side of the ward by the pot plant*
*waters pot plant before snuggling down for the night*

*snuggles Hayley*

Sleep well hun :)

wow don't think I would be able to give up tea...Good for you for going through with it! Sleep well.

Amaryllis is making an RYL blanket. She's invited all of us to make squares for it, knitted or crocheted, six inches square, any color but orange. Then she will use orange, the color of self injury awareness, to connect all of the squares together.

Yesterday my girlfriend was over. She counted how many I'd made and did some quality control, so I ended up undoing and redoing four of them.

Bro, can you smell anything behind your invisible door? Hope you're ok with the smell of shampoo.

*cuddles everyone*
*goes back to finish bowl of doritos before looking at crochet work.* btw, i'm such a nut about clean hands that I use chopstick to eat greasy salty snack foods. My psych assures me that it is not OCD.

wow thats a good idea! I hate getting greasy hands from doritos (love them!).

Nope can't smell a thing, airtight, triple locked, with a decoy door somewhere else. I suspect that you all have been snuggling and hugging a manequin, but if it made you feel better that is fine. Had to put extra work into making a fat, smelly, balding manequin that generates heat, but it has been worth it to avoid leaving the Ward.

You haven't had to leave the ward. The smell of your wood varnish has probably overwhelmed you for a bit. Thank you for removing old from your description of yourself, younger brother. ;o) (You just don't want to admit that the smell of your sis's shampoo is comforting.) I am so vain about my hair!

Innovative is just something weird that works, therefore the chop sticks. I learned how by eating popcorn with them.

*curls up in a cupboard and cries*

Feeling horrible atm, thinking of taking an OD like last time, only this time I wont go to A&E and tell them what I've done. This time I'll let the pills work.
Sorry if that was something that ryl doesnt accept, im just in a really bad place at the moment.

*hugs Soph and Zowie*

Please Zowie, don't? :(

:'(
life sucks.

*snuggles everyone*

thanks.. *crawls back into cupboard*

It certainly does suck Soph.

I'd get into a cupboard but I've been having panic attacks or breathing problems, idk what one exactly *cries*

*cuddles and cries with you*

*crawls into her own cupboard with her pig doll Fredfred*

i hope you guys have nice cupboards like mine... mine comes with a popcorn machine, diet coke fridge and every disney movie ever made...

mine has hugs and chocolate

Prayer shawls, diet rite and beef jerkey.

ooo chocolate... hmmm.... chocolate or popcorn...

HEY! I know! Soph... we can merge our cupboards!

Mine comes with all the sweets I like including choc :) and it comes with cushions, a comfy quilt, dvds, muusic etc, oh and lots cuddly toys ^_^

*cuddles and cries with Soph some more*

Since mine is more of a hole, it is not decked out as nicely as everyone else's. But you have to admit the door is, better than some, worse than others. I like the arched panel.

I think I like it in here a lot. Dark, quiet, soundproof, nice little isolation chamber.