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farawayfairy 20-06-2008 02:51 PM

*cuddles jetforce*

how is everyone?

blondiebear 20-06-2008 03:58 PM

Good morning all. My sinus medicine is still making me sleepy but the tooth ache from the sinus problems is easing.

This will be another hot day but a good one I think.

*hugs everyone*

Automatik Teknicolour 20-06-2008 04:25 PM

Just to let you know, Alexx hasn't been on for a few days due to moving house yesterday. She emailed me before to say that they were cut off a day earlier than they should have been, however she is all settled in her new house. I'm not sure when she will be back on here, hopefully it will be soon :-)

Hope everyone is well, anybody wants to talk, I'm here and all ears :-) xxx

~*forever_broken*~ 20-06-2008 07:39 PM

*hugs LP Emma tight hoping to get some of that exuberance or whatever it is*

Hi guys. Still **** for support and I'm sorry.

I. Feel. Awful. :crying:
It's been a little over a year since... Everything happened and my life fell to pieces. When a cut needed to be looked at and the Uni health centre learned I cut. Consequently the Uni counselling centre got involved (that very afternoon). A month and a half or so, a handful of therapy sessions, and a doctors appointment or two later and I'm on one AD. A summer, three school terms of therapy, a shitty school year where I attempted (but never failed because I withdrew twice) one class three times and the highest grade I got all year was an A which I think was a gift cause it was his last term here... The rest of the grades were low B's and the whole range of C's... A school year where I barely functioned, habitually missed lectures, called in sick to work WAY too many times... A spring term where I narrowly escaped hospitalisation... Twice...
Now I'm still working at the dining hall on campus while I try and find a 'real' job (guess how much looking I've done?). The housing I found because I've got to be out of this apartment by the end of the month... Government housing. Not bad really, it's cheap so I should be able to get caught up on my bills. I am even able to bypass the long waiting list that there usually is... Because evidently the fact that I've got to leave my apartment at the end of the month means I qualify as 'homeless'. This means that I've got to participate in this program, can't quite explain it really. But I had my first meeting today with... My case worker!:pinch: Because I'm not pathetic enough already. You know the kind of stuff a case worker gets to know? Financial information (any outstanding bills?), health information, physical, mental... Any disabilities, mental health issues... You're involved in therapy? Where's that? How long will you be able to participate in that? Will you need help finding more after that ends? The confidentiality speech they give you is the same as a therapist or doctor for crying out loud! 'Anything we talk about stays confidential as long as ... Or I think you're at risk of hurting yourself or others...' blahblahblah :crying:

*huddles in her corner*

I hate this :crying:

Jetforce 20-06-2008 08:23 PM

*jumps and cuddles ally*

lil-princess 20-06-2008 08:49 PM

Heya everyone *hugs all round*

How you all doing this evening??

I should be happy as it's my birthday but i'm not :( i was earlier but now i'm on my own i just feel like sh*t but i don't wanna sit with my family lol and i'm totally shattered and really excited about the party tomorrow wooo but still feel like sh*t considering the party's nearly here. xxx

Auburn Shadow 20-06-2008 08:57 PM

*cuddles Ally, LP-Emma, and Jem*

I'm... ok I suppose. Just shattered from work, and ever since I got in from work people have been yelling at me to do this that or the other, just fed up of it I guess.

*hugs anyone else who needs/wants/I've missed*

lil-princess 20-06-2008 10:46 PM

Hey, i'm around if anyone wants to chat :) i wont be staying long tho as gotta be up early ohh fun fun fun lol just to sort the party stuff out, i don't wanna set it up i just wanna arrive there lol and have a great time but noooo i have to set it up myself how fun, i'm so bloody stressed it's unreal and i sooooooo need a strong drink right now :( xxx

*Hugs all round* x

blondiebear 20-06-2008 11:20 PM

*cuddles Ally*

I'm glad to be inside cause it is so hot!

MammaMia 21-06-2008 12:04 AM

Ugh my arm really hurts :(
I'm so tired too.
*hides*

blondiebear 21-06-2008 12:49 AM

*cuddles helen*

I'm tired too. And tired of dealing with difficult personalities.

blondiebear 21-06-2008 02:34 AM

One of my friends sent me an email a couple of days about how morbidly obese people who'd had bariatric (stomach stapling) surgery were so healthy since they had the surgery. That surgery has a 5% complication rate. there is aftercare for the rest of the life too. does not sound very good to me.

I'd rather just be fit. and accept myself.

zowie 21-06-2008 09:51 AM

Today would be my mum's birthday.
I miss her.

blondiebear 21-06-2008 03:18 PM

*hugs zowie*

I overslept. I'm taking my peanut butter sandwich and going back to bed.

irkeninvader 21-06-2008 05:00 PM

*hugs zowie* You okay hun?

Susan - I've heard about that stomach stapling thing, it sounds like there are lots of problems and complications with it. Plus you have to chop up all your food into tiny bits so it doesn't get stuck in the gap where they staple it. Yuck. I hope your sandwich was nice!

*leaves a pile of freshly baked muffins for everyone*

blondiebear 21-06-2008 05:34 PM

I was wrong, I looked up the surgery. It is a 20% complication rate, that is that number of people require additional surgery. I'll pass thanks.

*Graps a muffin on the way out*

razorblade_babi 21-06-2008 08:51 PM

hi guys. . .im still signed into the psych ward! huddled under my table!needing to sort head out!grr!

just wanted to say sorry to LP for missing her b'day yesterday:( i hope u had a good day and yr party's awesome.

much luv to all
X

Auburn Shadow 21-06-2008 09:00 PM

heya sweetie,

*hugs* I'm around if there's anything completely random you wanna talk about :)

xxx

Zowie, I'm thinking of you sweetie, hope you're ok? *huge hugs* If you wanna talk about anything, I'm here. And I'm only a PM away.

xxx

razorblade_babi 21-06-2008 09:19 PM

*pokes auburn shadow*
Look, over there. . .chocolate donut. . .with the chocolate sauce in the middle. . .and sugar!. . .i like that! yum. . .random thort of the day. . .What do vegetarians feed their dogs. . .i mean if they dont eat meat do they feed their dogs it?
im random. . .and slightly insane. . . .f*kety ****

X

zowie 21-06-2008 09:21 PM

We went to the pub for lunch with my mum's parents today. It was nice, we talked about her and bought a pint for her, which we left on the bar.
Still feeling pretty low. I miss her.

Auburn Shadow 21-06-2008 09:30 PM

*pokes Emz back* meanie! :P lol, that's a good question about the vegetarians and the dogs... although one of my mates was vegetarian and still fed her snake mice... :P Depends on the person.

And random is good :)

*hugs zowie* can't begin to imagine how hard it's been for you hun. Glad you had a nice lunch with her parents though. It will get better over time, sweetheart, honest. *more squishes*

--------------------------------

Heading out for a fag or 2, but I'm still pretty much around and everything if you need to talk about anything.

blondiebear 22-06-2008 06:53 AM

I had a great day with my girlfriend. She crocheted lots of cute little baby hats for charity. I have the rug for my laundry room about 3/4 done. My husband made dinner for us. Nothing fancy, he just heated the hot dogs and sliced the bread.

Now I'm having another personality conflict. I sent a message asking this person to make a decision and stick with it.

Another woman with whom I am having a personality conflict would not even come to a birthday lunch for someone we both know because I was there.

A third person says that if I have stomach stapling surgery I'll lose weight and it will make me more healthy. And of course I'll be more Cute! I don't want to limit myself to cute, thanks. I also don't want surgery that has a 1 in 5 chance of needing surgery to fix something that went wrong.

I'm so tired of this. I gave up mind games years ago. I don't believe in them. I am straightforward and honest and open as I know or can figure out how to be.

Thanks y'all for reading my rant.

Still Scarred 22-06-2008 07:36 AM

hi, im only new around here but im feeling pretty damn unsafe....can i come in?

Jetforce 22-06-2008 07:41 AM

Of course...your welcome anyday Still Scarred :-)

Welcome in....

Auburn Shadow 22-06-2008 10:02 AM

Coursee you can Still Scarred. Welcome.

Anything you wanna talk about?

Hows it going Jem?
xxx

Jetforce 22-06-2008 10:09 AM

I'm surviving hana - got an exam on monday..tomorrow ekkkk!!!

Auburn Shadow 22-06-2008 10:21 AM

Aww *huge hugs* Good luck!

Jetforce 22-06-2008 10:22 AM

Thx's

I'll need it...i don't know anything atm :-(

blondiebear 22-06-2008 01:47 PM

Still Scarred, welcome. *gives you a welcoming hug*

Jess, good luck on your exam.

I had all of five hours of sleep last night. That is two hours too few. Let's see if I can keep my temper today?

MammaMia 22-06-2008 04:09 PM

Gaaaaaah.

I've barely slept, I STILL feel sick and have done for nearly 24 hours....damm alcohol.

BEST weekend of my life with Emma & Emma. Couldn't have spent it with anyone better I don't think!! Gosh I do want to sleep, but then I run the risk of having another crappy night's sleep :( It's rather fun trying to sleep in a bed with three heavy bags in it and stuff lying all over the quilt too, was kinda fun....and lol at how both of the Emma's slept on the floor. Kinda cute :)

I miss tem both already and am half crying, damm tiredness making me cry >.<

I was oh-soooooo-triggered this morning by a couple of the lads who came home with us. Was bit ****ing stuipd really >.< But never mind, just hours away from 3 weeks free :)

Jetforce 22-06-2008 04:18 PM

jess? lol

am i a gal now haha...

blondiebear 22-06-2008 04:55 PM

*Blush* Sorry Jeremy.

Stinking Personality Confilct. Stinking trust issues. These things trigger me. One of them triggers me. Three of them? I'm ready to explode or implode.

zowie 22-06-2008 05:20 PM

Hi all. Just popping in briefly to let you know I'm doing okay. xxx

razorblade_babi 22-06-2008 05:27 PM

thanks zowie. . .and have a hug :)

spose id better let people know im ok too i guess. . .well, being ok is a matter of opinion really!
X

farawayfairy 22-06-2008 05:28 PM

:crying:

irkeninvader 22-06-2008 08:28 PM

*checks in*

Good luck for your exam Jeremy!

Sorry you're having so many conflicts at the moment Susan, does it look like you will be to able to resovle any of them soon and de-stress a litte?

farawayfairy, is something the matter? Want to talk?

*waves to everyone else*

MammaMia 22-06-2008 09:54 PM

I am like :crying: too

*needs to see her two favourite girls* :(

blondiebear 22-06-2008 10:54 PM

I'm trying to resolve one of the situations right now. I don't see either of the others being resolved any time soon, if ever. In all three cases, no one accepts that I am an adult capable of making my own decisions.

I have had enough. I will honor my own body, my own instincts, and my own principles. Two of them, if they dislike what I do, they can leave me alone. For me it won't be a loss of a friendship, it will be removing dead and diseased tissue.

I'm furious past the screaming point. If something does not happen and change I will either explode or implode. Either would be extremely ugly and the damage will be horrible.

The photos at the fair were to me absolutely uninspiring. The quilts were decent though, and some of the gem and jewlery exhibits.

Sorry to vent all.

irkeninvader 22-06-2008 10:59 PM

You okay Helen?

Sorry to hear that Susan. But if they can't accept you for who you are then it's their loss not yours. I know that doesn't make it any easier. I hope something happens to stop you exploding or imploding. Feel free to vent more if you need to, I'll read it. Take care of yourself

MammaMia 23-06-2008 12:04 AM

Susan, irkeninvader is right....

Me? I'm not...never mind. *crawls into a corner*

blondiebear 23-06-2008 03:45 AM

I've worked out the first, worst and most important personality conflict. The second is with the barbie-doll who sent me the article about stomach stapling. I've told her how I feel about that and I did my best to be polite, maybe not nice, but polite.

Third one, the only solution is to ignore it. My sponsor is handling it anyway. Believe it that my sponsor has talked to me about my behavior! But I asked her too.

We did make it to the fair! Funnel cake, yum. The only photos that I liked were the black and white ones. Some of the quilts were interesting. often times they are just the same pattern over and over in the same fabrics. These weren't that way, much more character.

Got the rest of the yarn for my rugs too. So now the one for the laundry room is only about 2/3 done since i'm making it larger.

I don't have any work coming in until Friday, I plan to use the time to rest and relax. Maybe start to catch up on my sleep. Maybe.

Thank you for all your advice and patience irkeninvader. Feel better Helen.

*hugs you and who ever else is around and wants a bear hug*

*Leaves behind some natural vanilla ice cream*

MammaMia 23-06-2008 03:55 AM

Thanks Susan, sounds like you're getting thing under control.

Ooooh ice cream *stores for later* :P

l.e.g.o 23-06-2008 06:36 AM

*hugs to all*
im such a reject-lost the fight!!
cant wait till the end of the week
xx

Casper_Fading 23-06-2008 08:41 AM

*slinks in*

*hides in corner*

can't do it anymore. *shuts out the world*

irkeninvader 23-06-2008 08:44 AM

Lost what fight Newlife? You're not a reject *hugs*

Hey Jess *gives you a blanket and a teddy bear to make your corner a bit more comfortable* How are you hun?

Casper_Fading 23-06-2008 08:46 AM

not k. so not k. i cant anymore. I just cant. thining up ways to 'acdiently' hurt self so cant be balmd. just cnt.

irkeninvader 23-06-2008 08:52 AM

Oh sweetheart I'm sorry. Is there anything you can do to try to take your mind off wanting to hurt? I see the date in your signature, have you had any distractions or coping mechanisms for the past two years that you could try? *hugs you lots*

Jetforce 23-06-2008 09:27 AM

*hugs Jo* hope ur okies there? hang in there...xxx

Wat's wrong jess? *cuddles u*

My exam went so so..probably failed it but oh well, i should of passed the course so yeah :-)

Casper_Fading 23-06-2008 09:38 AM

nothing. tv goin. trid muic. hurting. just. over ti. i gota go. sory.

Jetforce 23-06-2008 09:40 AM

Look after urself.

U know where to find me if u need me..ok?

*squishes u* stay safe there xxx


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