Mark, do you have facebook? Add me! PM or text me if you do and i'll let you know my name.

Hurricane, do you know why you feel panicky? I hope you feel better soon.

I've just cut myself a little. I'm not counting it as a slip up because it's not to the right extent. I don't really feel able to cut as deep as I want to for some reason. I'm not bothered about wasting the 10 months i've been through, I just want some relief. I wish I had enough medication to overdose on.

*hugs all*

*hugs all*

Mark well done on 2 weeks :) really proud of you.

Hi to the new people I'm Oliver *waves*

I managed to go to asda today and not buy pills, that is a really big thing for me.

*Hugs Oliver* Thats Amazing mate ! So cool!

Well done, Oliver!

*hugs Oliver* Well done! Proud of you!
*hugs Laura, Mark, Lindsay*

*hugs Lindsay, Crimson and Mark* thanks guys. how are you all doing?

I've got my phone next to me trying to call the crisis team but i'm scared. They will probably be out on a visit and i'll disturb them, plus, they have just done my review which means they think i'm ok now.

Is it wrong that I brushed my teeth then tasted my blood and liked it , I am sick I swear.

I'm becoming really obsessed with death again, my suicide plan is all in place, it has been for a few months now and the date is getting closer. I feel a sort of calmness that it is coming, I keep listening to sad music and looking up funeral stuff which keeps me calm, I can't wait for this pain of life to be over.

*hugs poisonedapple and enjoys the tea* Thanks lovely.

one_step_closer, Not really sure why I feel the panic. I got through the day without any major incidences though, so I'm considering it a success.

Also, you all can call me either hurricane or Heidi. Either way is fine.

I love how people just ignore other peoples posts.... :/

Oliver, you need to reach out for real help. Death is not the only option

Mark, I don't think you're sick.

Hope all are okay.

proud of you mark <3

*cuddles oliver* love you <3 take care

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Heidi*

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

*Hugs Heather*

I miss Felicia . we are constantly texting , but I miss her voice , I'm almost in tears ..... 10 more days and we'll be together Friday-Monday , it's just not enough time , I want to spend 99 bajillian years with her.

Anyhoo,

How is everyone?

*walks in groggily*
*hugs Heidi* you can call me Crimson.
*hugs Lindsay* Did you call the crisis team?
*hugs Oliver* Have you talked to your doc or anyone?
*hugs Mark, Mrs Pan, Heather*
*goes out to the garden to nap in the sun*

*Hugs Crimson*

*hugs all*
sorry I'm not doing individuals again. Just wanted to let you all know that I'm fine and I've got a goal.
My goal is that I don't harm this week.
We are going to watch Harry Potter tonight :D

How are you all?

*hugs everyone*

Today is a better day. I don't feel quite as stressed out, though I have a few hours at both jobs so we'll see if that holds. Today is day number 99 of no SI. I feel really tired but I seem to be unable to sleep. At some point I think I want some Chinese food.

How are you all doing today?