But I do sleep. That's the thing. Weekdays, I don't get much and because I have to get up early in the morning I typically can't sleep, but then at weekends, I sleep way too much and am still tired. I didn't get out of bed until 11.30 this morning, after going to bed at about 1.30. I couldn't sleep mind. Still, I got loads of sleep and want more. Oh well. I'll live.

*Hugs all*

lol lia, i mean, you struggle to get to sleep. you're often online past midnight.
Oh god.
My mums cooking a roast :/

hi Doikers ( i foprgot your name too sorry :( ) my names Sam.
Im fine ta, just having a relaxing (??) sunday. sorry to hear you fell|!!

Hello Sam, I'm Lia if you didn't already know that.

*Hugs Nicole* You could tell her you're trying to diet and don't want any and cook something healthier instead, or at least ask her to give you a small portion if she's anything like my mum and will create at the very suggestion. I sleep too much sometimes, but I also believe that too much sleep is a massive waste of time and lie ins are nice, I can't resist them when I'm not busy, but there are so many better things to do than sleep. Write for example. Or go to theatre studies lessons.

*hugs everybody*

I didn't sleep too well last night. Went to bed after 1am. Then my best friend texted me at 5.40am and thankfully I was awake. So we texted for about an hour & then chatted online til 8.30am. We both went back to bed as we were falling asleep again lol.

I have a migraine AGAIN & I'm seriously not impressed. Just what I need to add to my cold, cough & feeling very bad =/

*Hugs Lia* I know what it's like to be tired a lot , I take Olanzapine at night and am still sedated from it in the morning :S

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Helen* Your poor head :(

*Hugs Sam* My name is Mark :)

*hugs mark, lia and helen*
lia-I tried telling her i didn't want any and she said i have to eat it :( eugh. it's ok. I will just go for a run or something after....

I am one week Self Injury free today :) ! I know it's not a massive milestone but still it's something , My best this year was 9 days on my own and 12 days but I was in a Psych ward and coulden't so that kind of counts less .

Nicole - I don't think it's wise to be running in the dark honey. Plus don't want you to start getting obsessed with this diet. Particularly when we have Sunday roasts, I always want a small portion and always get a much bigger one than my Mum. Ugh =/

Mark - indeed :'(

It still is massive. Congratulations Mark. Every single time you don't cut, whether it's for 2 days or 9 weeks, still counts, even if you slip up & start counting again, they STILL count :)

*hugs helen* Don't worry, we have a lot of well-lit running paths around here. And i am being carful on the diet, honestly, in fact, i ate WAY too much yesterday....... :/

:) Thanks Helen :) Stupid thing is now I've realised it it's all I can think about .......

I still don't like the thought of you running in the dark on your own :S *hugs Nicole* From what I could gather from your posts last night, sounds like you didn't eat an awful lot :S

It's not stupid :) I promise *hugs*

I honestly did. Almost x calories :/ And i didn't even purge although i so wanted to :)

x calories isn't a lot, you're meant to have 2000 per day.

It was a lot. Too much. Anyway, that was yesterday, this is today.
How are you?

Fine. Just bangtidy.

:/ lia.....whats up?
*spies and hugs april*

*glomps everyone*

Lia, how are you?? I got your PM, so sorry I haven't been on in forever. :( As I said in earlier post(s) though, I'm gonna try to be on more frequently now. Bleh. But how have things been?

Mark, those falls sound pretty nasty. :-/ Guess the weather is definitely not so great where you are? Here we just have a dusting of snow but the roads/sidewalks are fine - thankfully. :) And one week SI-free - go go, you!!! <3

Hels, you are too a lovely person. :) *hugs* I'm sorry you're having those bad thoughts - I hope that they go away soon. :( How have things been with you??

Nicole, x calories is not a lot but - per RYL's rules - we probs shouldn't talk about calories in specific amounts. I don't mind personally but it might trigger other people. *squishes* In any case, that really isn't enough for you, not at all... maybe try to fight the urges that say that it's too much and/or that you have to purge??

Hi people I don't know!! ;)

Have Hayley or Crimson been on lately?

Sooo freaking tired. Stayed up til around 11:30pm last night and then woke up at freaking 5:40am today. :( So I'm exhausted... yet still Jarrod persists in wanting us to go to church, even though I'm likely to fall asleep there or start crying or at the very least, not take in the sermon and not do much worshiping. But whatevs. >_<

That's one thing that's not been cool with me - I've been crying a lot. Up and down moods, etc. The whole gambit. I don't think my tegretol is working anymore. >_< Stupidness. And I'm supposed to see my NP on Friday at 6:15pm but I'm also scheduled to work from 1-8pm soooo... I really need to talk with my supervisor. :-/ Not liking how this is going. I really don't want to have to reschedule AGAIN, especially because 1) I really need to talk with her because of my moods, and 2) I'm running out of meds. :-S

*cuddles all*

*hugs april* heh. Forgot about the rules :/ But i promise you guys, i am being careful with my eating. Because i am determined now. I am gonna quit the self harm, lose weight (cause i really am overweight) finish my college course, get a job, save up, and next year, i'm moving. haven't decided whre yet though :/