my sister called me selfish today, basically, or at least that's how it came across. :'(

feel awful. want to cut so badly. but laura, sweet, well done on not cutting last night!! *cuddles* hopefully you can keep it up. and thanks for being honest with us about how you're doing. i know how hard that can be.

i'm terrified about filling out these apps for res. :'( i don't want to be away from jarrod for 6-12 months... i am so ****ing scared. i don't think it's reasonable to be this scared, but i don't know... :(

*hides in a hidey hole* :crying:

Righto, I'm going to try and sleep now 9.40pm is late enough to sleep ( Or attempt it) right? I hope everyone has a good Night/morning/afternoon whichever timezone who happen to find yourselves in.
*Leaves hugs and cammomille tea and a jar of honey on the ward table*

pleasant dreams, mark... *cuddles and tucks you up in your ward bed* :) hope you sleep well... hope you get to sleep quickly.

i'm so exhausted. just fixed supper - actually fixed it - for the first time in awhile. made salsa ranch chicken on a bed of (frozen) veggies... it actually turned out pretty decently for something i just fiddled 'round with for the first time. heh.

but i'm full and don't want to finish my portion. :'( feel so fat and icky...

sorry, if that was against the rules or too triggering or something i can take it down and will if you let me know...

It was , It was to early to go to bed a expect to even rest , just so uncomfy and hot , I jast paced the flat a few time in the semi dark and found myself back on the ward:)

i feel so ****ing fat.

it doesn't matter though.

never mind... i'm being selfish again. can't seem to stop.

:crying:

you're not being selfish, promise <3
*snuggle*
just wish had advice

posted a thread in the ed forum... if you want to you can check it out here.

*hides away again*

Good Morning Wardies :-)

How is everyone today / tonight? I'm tired but yet to have my first coffee of the day .

I'm feeling ill with hayfever. I hope you feel more awake after your coffee.

Lindsay I hope your hayfever clears up *Hugs*

*Hugs Amy if she can accept hugs*

*glomps mark* :) mmm coffee, it's been months since my anxiety's allowed me to have a cuppa "real" coffee. :( hopefully it helps you wake up. how are you doing this morning?

*cuddles lindsay, if that's okay?* i'm sorry about your hayfever... that's got to be uncomfortable. how are you doing otherwise?

*sets a hug on the table for amy* what's up, sweet?

i'm so tired. and i just got up not 20 minutes ago!! i hate this.


very good song... and not triggering at all i don't think. :) i hope not anyway...

Hey guys.

I am in a slightly better mood today, I hope everyone else is OK.

Being away from school is getting me down now, I never thought I would say this, but I miss it. I'm on study leave and I miss pissing about in phyiscs, my English teacher's bad jokes, my drama teacher's constant change of character throughout our lessons, I just miss having something to do in the day which meant I didn't have to think about all of this. I miss having someone to put on an act for everyday because although that's hard, it at least meant I had to smile and couldn't wallow which was a damn sight better than this.

Anyway, how's everyone else?

I'm off to school now, to do some fun sociology.
x

I love Delta Goodrem & that song April!!!

I'm attempting to pack my suitcase LOL! I go away on holiday tomorrow, but have to go to my Dad's partner's house tonight :) So I won't be online tonight, not that I've been really posting. So you won't miss me anyway I'm sure :)

*Misses Helen Already*

i spies a hels!! *glomps* i have missed your posts and have wondered why you haven't been posting, but didn't want to pester you... if that makes sense? i hope that things are okayish... *extra cuddles* :) and that song is amazing, and so is delta goodrem... and britt nicole... my two new favorites. :D

lia, i'm a bit confused. you say you miss school but then that you're off to school? :-/ sorry if i'm being dense :-S it's just that that didn't make much sense to me. i do understand missing school though (kind of - i'm pretty over school at the moment though but i have missed it in the past when i've had to take a medical withdrawal, etc.). hopefully your day goes well!! *hugs*

i'm really triggered right now... not as bad as last night but still not really all that good. blah. :(

we're going over to my parents' in a bit to do laundry and maybe do some target shooting, not sure. but it should be nice. :) jarrod seems to be doing really well after his op, which is good, he doesn't even need pain meds!! so i'm proud of him. :) hehe. *random*

my head hurts and i'm anxious... grrrr. :(

*hides away after setting out a box of cuddles for everyone*

*hugs Mark & April*

Things aren't okay, oh well, sure I'll get over it *rolls eyes* Just want to get away noooow :P Well need to pack first :D But to do that, I need to get off my ass :D

*hugs everyone*

Hels: Have a great time. *big going away on holiday type hugs*

Sorry I'm not doing too much with individual replies at the moment. I can't keep things straight in my head and it just gets me all confuzzled.

For anyone who has been following my struggle with the complaint against the Mental Health system: I heard back from the Complaints Commission. The independent reviewer has found in my favour and are making recommendations back to the hospital.

Thank goodness for that.

Thats very good news Kahlia:) *HUGS*

Where are you going on hols Helen ?

OOOhhhhh April , I really like todays avatar:)