God... I just wrote my complaint to the Queensland Health Quality & Complaints commission about my last two hospitalisations. I'm now shaking like a leaf. I read it to my housemate to make sure it was okay. He said it was good. I asked for a formal apology from the Director of Mental Health and an assurance that the pdoc who was my consultant would never be my consultant again. I also told them that they couldn't forward my complaint on to the hospital because "it would be met with an aggressive defensive attitude on the part of the current Director of Mental Health which would effectively bias the investigation".

Man, oh, man. I've taken a Xanax so I should calm down shortly.

*hugs everyone the disappears into a corner to try and control the shaking*

I haven't been around in a long while, and i feel terrible coming back when i'm feeling shitty, but i figure this is better than any other option.
I just need a place to hide for a while.

*hides in a corner*

*hugs Sefka* Hii :) hope the sleep helped. i wanna sleep....urgh. too much work. o wells.

*hugs Kahlia* your complaint sounds like a very good idea. they seem to have been fairly rubbish and not much help for you. *hugs* hope they listen to what you have to say.

*hugs Inkyspider* *hands a blanket and cookies* i like coming in here to hide for a while too.

*cuddles everyone else*

urgh. i'm soooo tired. but i'm going out again. i'm an idiot. and i told my friend how i felt and she said that she was having issues dealing with my problems as well as hers. so now i feel great. FFS. i now have no-one i can actually talk to. fab.
*cries and hides under a duvet* and yea a duvets the thing you put on your bed :) its waaaaarm

<hugs Laura back> thanks :) I'm too sleepy.
<hugs Kahlia> good luck with the complaint.
<hugs Inkyspider> your picture is one of the cutest I've seen.

<falls asleep again>
Naps rule and duvets are the greatest inventions EVAR!

*hugs everyone in the room and makes sure they are doing okay - and makes some cookies for all in here*

I wish it was different. I wish I could go back to that fateful day where I lost my mind and change everything. I wish I could go back and meet friends that would really care for me and be there when I need them -- instead of telling me that since I abandoned them -- that means I don't need them and that I can take care of myself... *sigh* Unhappiness breeds deep depression. Trying to be safe in my own house seems weird to say. Trying to keep it together so my family won't notice my unhappiness and want to disappear.

*cuddles everyone then disappears into a dark corner*

*cuddles everyone* Sorry, too many individual responses from you all for me to reply to them all... but sending love & hugs out to all of you guys!! ♥

I'm really tired... got up at 5am today so yeah. Been a busy day, too, with breakfast out, then Walmart for groceries, then laundry. Urgh. So frickin' sleepy!!! I even took a nappish sort of thing this afternoon, about half an hour of lying down. Felt so good. :)

Am annoyed because I don't know how I feel or anything. :(

*hides*

Just borrowing a corner, thanks.

*grabs her pillow, blanket, and stuffed lamb, finds her old corner, and cries*

woooi m drunk again. ffs. urgh. gay gay gay x

*curls up in a corner* need some support and hugs, sorry to ask

*hugs Oliver* We're here for you as best we can be. I'm done sleeping now. Talk to me (pm if you want.)

It's 5:30am.
I'm drunk, high, and depressed.
I should sleep, i can't.
I don't feel safe so hiding here.

*hugs to everyone*
Sorry i'm not in a place to respond to you all individually.

*cuddles Oliver* What's up, love? anything I can do to help? ♥

*cuddles everyone else* How are you all doing today? ♥

I'm tired STILL... got up at 4:30am instead of sleeping in until 6 or so today... stupid stupid stupid. Couldn't sleep. I hate this!! :(

Played WoW for awhile with my husband, which was nice... started some new toons on a new server where my best friend's little sister & brother play, so I can talk with them when leveling. :) It's fun... nice escape. I think we played from 4:45am until 7:40am? so three hours, yeh, it can really pull you in. :o

Am not sure how I'm feeling... :( Hate feeling like this.

Need to do schoolwork but really don't want to... anyone care to study health psych for me?? pllllllllease??

*hides*

i've just had a cigarette, i'm trying to distract myself but i wanna cut......
argh. i can't be bothered fighting any more. who cares anyway.

argh!!!!wish today would piss off, its making me feel worse

*is hiding still*

*Pokes head in*
Never posted here before.
*Occupies a corner for the night *
Hope this is ok :S

*offers doikers a welcome cookie*

*cuddles everyone* sorry no individual replies right now.

Going to dinner tonight so i'm trying to get things done now.. but i cant concentrate.. Every time i sit down to do anything i immediately get sleepy. Maybe I just dont want to do anymore science reporting homework. I mean ive already spent about 16 hours since thursday on the subject. Sorry, complaining about nothing again.

Hope everyone is alright

Thankyou for the Cookie :)

Welcome Doikers *waves* I'm Oliver :)

thank you for the hugs everyone, I'm still not doing great, but am beginning to try and deal with it, basically I came out to my sister last night, she is visiting me at uni for a few days, and it was very tough, we both cried a lot. She is still here and we have had an ok day, but she seems slightly distant and less talkative than normal, maybe its me being paranoid. Its just very tough trying to deal with it