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lil-princess 13-06-2008 01:19 AM


Why does life have to be so bloody hard.


Auburn Shadow 13-06-2008 01:26 AM


I wish I had the answer to that sweetie.
What happened?

*more hugs*

lil-princess 13-06-2008 01:34 AM

Everything is just going complety wrong :( i new it would i just new it, i can't say the full thing as to why i'm feeling so bad, i just can't cause i'm in tears and i just don't know whether i can do this any longer :'( xx

blondiebear 13-06-2008 05:54 AM

Two of the honorary uncles that I always count on seeing at the Thursday night meeting weren't there. I feel lost without them. As much as I have and I snivel about what I don't have.

MammaMia 13-06-2008 09:02 AM

I feel utter useless re: helping certain people :(

I've had another bad night's sleep :( But had fun talking to Ally though, so thank you for that hun =D

*sighs* I really don't like Friday 13th :(

zowie 13-06-2008 11:02 AM

I might try to quit my job today, it's absolutely horrible.

MammaMia 13-06-2008 11:40 AM

Good Luck Zowie, I hope it goes okay *snuggles*

blondiebear 13-06-2008 03:16 PM

Thinking about you Zowie.

I'm thinking about looking in at the small fabric store to see if they need someone a couple of mornings a week. But I haven't decided. Maybe if I do it just for the summer.

~*forever_broken*~ 13-06-2008 05:04 PM

lol any time Helen luv :-)
Susan-mom, maybe just for the summer to start..? And then see how that goes?

Good luck Zowie, sweetie.

EXHAUSTED... need to see if my mom has any butterfly closures or some tape I can use to make some :pinch:
Damn it

MammaMia 13-06-2008 05:33 PM

*snuggles Ally*

zowie 13-06-2008 05:37 PM

Thanks for the luck people. My boss wasn't in today, so I couldn't quit. Damn damn damn.

blondiebear 13-06-2008 10:00 PM

I have more work coming in tomorrow, copying a couple of dresses for an older lady. She has a couple of dresses that she has loved to pieces. Actually her care taker will bring the dresses over cause I live upstairs. That is fine.

MammaMia 14-06-2008 12:34 AM

Sounds pretty good :D

How's Emma? Emma (lil-princess)? Ally? Jemery? Alexx? Jess? Amanda? Katch? Anyone else (since I know Carole has left and Chloe has gone home)

Pomegranate 14-06-2008 05:35 AM

I can't do this forever. I just cut, pretty deep but somewhere different from normal and blood just started spurting 3 or 4 inches in the air, it's stopped now but never had spurting before, just pumping at a maximum. Instead of being freaked out, I'm vaguely intrigued. Blood droplets spurted all over but stopped fairly quickly. Twas awesome though. Know shouldn't glamorise but it was pretty different. I want that back, presume hit a arteriole instead of small vein. Such power though, such control. I want it back. Not in the best of places tonight though.

Pomegranate 14-06-2008 05:41 AM

I just can't do this forever. That is the reality. Had a fair bit to drink, but will let you in on a secret, something I swore to tell nobody....I have been planning it. I know how it will happen and I know that because of that I will not complete some of the tasks I have promised I will. I know how it will occur, with what and to a certain extent when. I just need to finalise a date, but I keep putting off the finalising date. I have a vague idea but that's it. I don't want to do this anymore. No matter how 'ok' I seem, it will never be alright. I will never be 'good' and this is probably the only way.

~*forever_broken*~ 14-06-2008 05:49 AM

*snuggles Emma*
Oh sweetie... I don't know what to say to you. Other than, intreguing though it may be (and believe me I know what you mean, I felt the same way) spurting isn't a good thing and while it may have stopped now it's very likely to start again (mine did... and I had been pretty proud of myself -was drunk at the time- for being able to stop it and a bit miffed at the Dr who managed to get it going again). Whatever you hit needs to be tied off sweetie.

I don't want to try and convince you of anything... heaven knows we hear it enough from other people and it gets SO tiering... I just want to tell you that I love you... and while I am the first person to say that you shouldn't decide to stay just for others (though I know many of us are still here for that exact reason)... I'd miss you terrible, I'd feel awful at the loss of my friend, my 'across the pond drinking buddy'

Please take care sweetie *cuddles you*

Jetforce 14-06-2008 08:55 AM

*hugs helen*

I'm feeling blah....got so much uni work study to do..argh :-S

How is every1 else keeping up?? *cuddles everyone and leaves a few hot chocolates behind for ppl to drink*

MammaMia 14-06-2008 12:47 PM


First of all *hugs* It's my fault, I was the one who went around assuming and saying to Ally & Emma that you were okay *sighs* My bad.

You really need to take Ally's advice on that cut. I know how much you hate A&E- it's boring, tiring, etc. But you know all of this so I won't really say it because I feel like I'm being patronising.

I know that if you die.....I'd miss you so much (words can't describe it), I also know Emma...Ally...Alexx...and others in here would miss you. But we shouldn't ask you to stay for us, but to stay for yourself hun. Don't you want to see what you can make of life hun? I know you're really struggling and I'm pretty sure uni hasn't gone well this year. But....you could turn that all around or something? But if you died...you'd never have that chance. I know the future seems so dark when you feel how you do. I was there, I've been there a million times and I'll probs think that's how it feels a million times more...but thee's so many good times to come Em. Don't you think? Because everything comes and goes...feelings....humans...everything...

MammaMia 14-06-2008 12:48 PM


It blinking turned up. So the pain has commenced grr, I'm gonna try take painkillers for it today >.< It should be alright though. I need to be able to cope with tablets since my malira tablets will need to be taken for about seven weeks which is like 49 days :S

blondiebear 14-06-2008 02:23 PM

Bozo had trouble getting onto the bed this morning. He grabbed my shin. It looks worse than it feels though. Durn it all, I thought Philip had just trimmed Bozo's claws.

lil-princess 14-06-2008 03:11 PM

Heya everyone :) *Hugs for everyone*

Em i really hope your ok hunni, and i hope you got your cut sorted out, i know your having a rough time hun but you can get through this you have us all here, and we'd miss you soooo much if you died, i don't really know what else to say but i'll always be here for you hun. *hugs*

How's everyone else today??


I'm not feeling my greatest today :( i can't really be bovered to do anything and i feel really low so i'll prob keep away today. xxx

MammaMia 14-06-2008 05:08 PM

My cousin is not just getting married. She's now having a BABY:hop::hop:

I'm soooooooooooo happy for her, because I knew she wanted another child, as she already has a 12yr old son. Wow her life has gone so well, she graduated in 06, she's got the job she wants (I think), she's got a new man, they're getting married next October, their baby is on the way in November. What more could you want?

blondiebear 14-06-2008 06:14 PM

Hi Emma, I hope you feel better soon.
Helen, that is great news about your cousin.

Now I'm involved in the 3rd argument this week. And I absolutely have to be calm and impartial. When someone wins an argument, someone else loses. Not nice and not necessary. But I'm getting witchy because of it.

MammaMia 14-06-2008 07:01 PM

*hugs Susan*

I wish I could say something useful. Arguments suck >.<

l'il esky 14-06-2008 08:51 PM

^ hells, i saw someone that looked exactly like you on the tube yesterday. dont think it was you (was it?!) but was uncanny! :)

Auburn Shadow 14-06-2008 09:17 PM

Hope you're ok Emma?

Great news about your cousin Helen :) And hope the malaria tabs aren't too horrible for you.

Hope the argument's sorted soon, Susan. I wish I could say something constructive.

My parents just took me out for a meal, but I couldn't eat it. I just... I don't want to be here anymore. But I have to be, I can't go anywhere, much as I wish I could. The thoughts are coming back, all the suicidalness, but... there's too many people relying on me staying here... I'm here for them, not me at the moment... I just wish... I wish everything was different.

Sorry... I'll go hide now.

Pomegranate 14-06-2008 09:40 PM

Thanks for the words of support and messages *hugs*. I am back from A&E, all patched up and in and out fairly quickly, didn't even have to have a psych assessment. I think I have figured out I am not upset atm, I'm not happy or content. I am just, nothing and I don't like it.

MammaMia 14-06-2008 09:57 PM


Originally Posted by l'il esky (Post 848949)
^ hells, i saw someone that looked exactly like you on the tube yesterday. dont think it was you (was it?!) but was uncanny! :)

Spoooooky. I wish it was me but I stayed indoors all of yesterday looking after a sick dog. Maybe it was my double :laugh:


Originally Posted by Auburn Shadow (Post 848998)
Great news about your cousin Helen :) And hope the malaria tabs aren't too horrible for you.

Thanks sweetheart :]


Originally Posted by Pomegranate (Post 849053)
Thanks for the words of support and messages *hugs*. I am back from A&E, all patched up and in and out fairly quickly, didn't even have to have a psych assessment. I think I have figured out I am not upset atm, I'm not happy or content. I am just, nothing and I don't like it.


blondiebear 15-06-2008 02:54 PM

If y'all see dizzy in my "i am currently" thingy today, it is my sinuses, not exhaustion. Because of my toothache, i'm to be on over the counter sinus meds for a few weeks.

Jetforce 15-06-2008 03:28 PM

*cuddles every one the psych ward and leaves some mint chocolate ice cream* lol

shadowedseraph 15-06-2008 05:05 PM

*steals some of the ice cream and huddles with it in a corner* i feel so wretched can't eat sleep all the time or not at all and the voices are tormenting me :( i hate my life i just want it over

zowie 15-06-2008 06:04 PM

Hi everyone *hands out cookies*
Having a bit of a bad day. Asked my partner to come over and he said he had work, but he sounded like he was outdoors. Is he trying to avoid me? I really need some friendly company at the moment. Beth's being very negative. xxx

Margo 15-06-2008 07:45 PM

*worries to death*

Ill just sit here quietly i think.

MammaMia 15-06-2008 08:05 PM

*huggles everyone*


I dont like Mint anything heeh :P

I'll be back later maybe. I have a killer headache :(

irkeninvader 15-06-2008 08:32 PM

Zowie, could your partner be on his way to/from work or on a break or something?

Matthew, what are you worrying about?

*hands Helen an aspirin*

*leaves hugs for everyone*

Auburn Shadow 15-06-2008 08:39 PM

*hugs everyone*

Zowie - Maybe he was just on a break, or it was too noisy so he went outside to talk to you?

What is it you're worried about, Matthew?

Hope the headache clears up soon, Helen.

How are you irkeninvader?

blondiebear 15-06-2008 08:56 PM

Hugs all around. I'm lazy mellow. Sitting here with my hair wet down my neck. We have a couple of rugs that need to be hand washed only my hands aren't strong enough. so I washed them in the shower, stomp stomp, rinse, flip, stomp stomp. My husband will wring them out and dry them later.

*hugs pengy* *hugs zowie* *takes a big helping of ice cream.* I like anything mint.

Margo 15-06-2008 08:56 PM

People. *nods*


Margo 15-06-2008 08:58 PM

"Rug showering" is now in my list of all time most surreal acts!

Auburn Shadow 15-06-2008 09:04 PM

Well that's one way of solving the problem anyways, can't say I'd have thought of it to be honest.

Anything you wanna talk about Matthew?

Margo 15-06-2008 09:10 PM

Ever just gone numb from worrying bout others? Like they dont exist anymore? Like your brain just shut it all out like it does with personal trauma or something?

Auburn Shadow 15-06-2008 09:32 PM

Yeah, I know what you mean, I get that sometimes.
I don't have any suggestions, but I can do hugs...

Look after yourself as well as everyone else though...

MammaMia 15-06-2008 10:08 PM

-hugs everyone-

Has anyone seen Emma today? (Pomegranate)

My headache is a lot better after the nap I had a while ago and my sister is home yay :)

Kuwairo 15-06-2008 10:49 PM

^ No I've not hun...
Matthew, I know how that feels, and as Hana said, look after yourself too yeah?
How is everyone?

MammaMia 16-06-2008 12:08 AM

Hmmmmm hopefully she'll get my pm soooooon.

I'm verrrry tired :(

blondiebear 16-06-2008 12:48 AM

Heya Pengy, at least it isn't a smutty image. Just soapy. And it works.
Except that the dye is still running even after they've been washed many times. So our grey rug is now pink in some places. I'm going to have to get some yarn and make new ones to replace those we got at the discount store. It is difficult to find rugs that don't have latex on the back and I'm allergic to latex.

I am a wimp. It is only 82F here and I am hot and disgusting. And the most athletic thing i've done today is stomp on rugs. Sigh.

~*forever_broken*~ 16-06-2008 01:34 AM

*hugs everyone*
Aww, Matthew... Don't know what to tell you luv, I've never been in that situation... I just worry *shrug*

Hope the headache is gone Helen.

lol good way to get the job done Susan.

Hmm, nope, haven't seen Emma lately... PMd her yesterday and haven't heard back from her... I hope she's ok
*pokes around the denial tent looking for her ATP drinking buddy*
Almost home (yay internet on your mobile!)... Gotta pack a bunch of crap inside and then sharpen my blade as it's become virtually ineffective and I've no money to buy new ones:pinch:
My head hurts and while this weekend didn't completely suck I'd still have rather stayed home...

lil-princess 16-06-2008 02:00 AM

*hugs for anyone who needs or wants them*

I hope you feel better soon hun *hugs* i'm around if you wanna chat or anything :)

Even tho should be getting some sleep as i have counselling at half 9 not like i want to go but hey i have to i haven't got a choice in the matter and it's my last counselling session being 20 hehe as on friday i'm gonna be 21 oh how depressing lol.

Take care everyone xxx

Pomegranate 16-06-2008 02:30 AM

I'm here, sorry for not posting here earlier.

Hope everyone is relatively alright *hugs all* xxxxxxxx

thewordwasaphex 16-06-2008 02:53 AM

I'm manic-depressive, heehee... I probably belong here...

I tell you, sometimes I'm glad I'm bi-polar (really!), but most of the time I just want it to go away...

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