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Eir 19-04-2016 08:25 PM

May I try some too? I think I can deal with magic tea.
Its 5 something in the morning and I've not slept. Again. Am about to attempt. But YAY for meds tomorrow. Mostly. Shall try better to not run out with so many days left to pay day. Cannot do without this long.
Fresh home-made bread for anyone who wants it.

CaiteeBug 20-04-2016 04:07 PM

gross, I've got a doctor's appt at 1 today. I'm hoping my blood sugars and A1c numbers went down and I also hope I lost a little weight.

YodaBearInterrupted 20-04-2016 05:16 PM

*hugs all in here and puts out more cookies*

Got put on new meds and they are pretty strong... am at work, yet I want to do no work since I feel tired and don't feel like doing anything at all

*sits in the corner again*

Kathryn_Anna 20-04-2016 07:25 PM

How did your appointment go Caitlyn?

Thanks for the hugs and cookies Matt. Sorry you are feeling so tired. Hopefully as time goes on you'll get adjusted to the meds and won't feel as bad.

It has been just go, go, go today. I'm exhausted. And now I'm feeling a bit paranoid so that's heightening my anxiety. Ugh. Not good.

Kathryn_Anna 21-04-2016 11:53 AM

How is everyone doing today?

Doikers 21-04-2016 01:15 PM

Fairly Unwell , this bug is taking it's toll :(

How are you Kathryn? And everyone Else?

Eir 21-04-2016 02:54 PM

24+ hrs of meds has done wonders. My skins no longer crawling with the need to hurt myself. Only figured out what that itch was just now cos it's gone.
Unfortunately, have zero motivation to do my uni assignment. Started it. But so difficult to focus on it. Given up for the night.
Matt I know the feeling. Mine do it everytime my dose is adjusted or i go a week without. Titrating my meds up as we speak cos I cant afford to be bombed whilst I adjust to my normal dosage.
Mark, have you tried honey and lemon and ginger tea? If your flu-ey, it may help you feel a bit better.
Kathryn, I hope things slow up a bit so you can feel less exhausted.

Kathryn_Anna 21-04-2016 07:24 PM

I'm very thankful I have a calendar. All these medical appointments for my kids is making it hard to schedule anything else. I've had to decline dates again because of conflicts with other appointments. I'm so busy there is little time for me. *sigh* I really need to start scheduling stuff in like showers and taking care of me.

CaiteeBug 21-04-2016 08:16 PM

I am heartbroken. The legendary musician Prince has passed way

Kathryn_Anna 22-04-2016 01:34 AM

It's a very sad day indeed Caitlyn. :(

Eir 22-04-2016 04:10 PM

Well done for your organisation skills. Scheduling you time sounds like a great idea

Drewbles 22-04-2016 09:26 PM

*leaves blankets and pillows for everyone*
I've been on a waitlist for a doctor's appointment for almost 2 months and it's finally this coming Thursday and I'm so anxious about it :(

It feels like every time I go to the doctor about mental health somehow the message doesn't get across. I went to the hospital once for it and came away with a diagnosis I know isn't right.

I just feel like I'm too bad at talking to ever explain to anyone in a way they could understand. I keep worrying I'll leave there really stressed out without getting what I need :( I can't wait around forever for help.

Sorry for disappearing and returning to rant.. Hope all is ok with everyone

Doikers 23-04-2016 10:47 AM

Best of luck Drewbles! I know the feeling of not being able to make the right works under stress *Offers safe Hugs*

Eir 23-04-2016 05:31 PM

Drew, have you ever though of getting your mental health down on paper? Your concerns, your history with mental health, that sort of stuff. I did this after going through several doctors and getting sick of telling the same story, as well as several frustrating attempts to open up to them but being unable to express verbally major problems due to paranoia.
I generally express myself better in writing. Some of the things I *can't* talk about I can put in writing, and others make more sense on paper because I tend to lose track of conversations and get muddled. My written vocabulary is better and concepts are slightly easier to convey and much easier to keep track of.
And there's always the possibility that if you have prepared what you want to say and what you want to ask on paper, the anxiety you have about the appointment might lessen because you'll have a reference so you don't forget to say things due to the anxiety of seeing the doctor. If that make sense.
Good luck with the appointment anyway.
* puts starburst and marshmallows on the table*
I'll just sit quietly over here. Still struggling with lack of motivation and now concentration for this stupid and now overdue assignment.

Kathryn_Anna 24-04-2016 09:18 PM

Drew, writing things down always helps me. I still ramble when I write but not nearly as much. Good luck with the appointment.

I hope motivation and concentration find you Eir! Good luck with the assignment.

I was doing well for a few days. This afternoon though I just seem to be going down hill and I don't know why. I just want to crawl into a hole and hide.

Eir 25-04-2016 05:22 AM

I ended up botching the submission. And it's a long weekend so I can't contact the subject coordinator. Ah well.

Doikers 25-04-2016 10:02 AM


Kathryn_Anna 25-04-2016 12:49 PM

*crawls further into her hole*

Doikers 26-04-2016 09:52 AM

Hey Guys , How are you all today?

Kathryn_Anna 26-04-2016 11:54 AM

My daughter has therapy most of the day so I'm being forced to function. I really don't want to parent today though. I don't want to do much of anything really.

How are you?

Doikers 26-04-2016 02:08 PM

Just got Home :)
*Offers Safe Huggles*

Kathryn_Anna 26-04-2016 03:34 PM

Thanks for the hugs. *offers safe hugs back*

I'm feeling really done for today. :/

Doikers 27-04-2016 11:05 AM

How are we all today? **Leaves a Jar of Hugs*

Kathryn_Anna 27-04-2016 12:49 PM

Struggling. I have a few friends going through rough times and watched a show that was unexpectedly triggering last night. My back is spasming out again. Just not a great start to the day.

How are you Mark?

Doikers 27-04-2016 04:20 PM

I hate being unexpectedly Triggered :(

I honestly don't know how I am . . . .

Kathryn_Anna 27-04-2016 04:49 PM

*offers safe hugs*

I'm done. I give up. No more life, please.

Kathryn_Anna 27-04-2016 08:39 PM

Really struggling right now. Feeling a bit like what's the point in trying any more?

*places some goodies on the table*

*crawls back in to my hole*

Doikers 28-04-2016 11:30 AM

*Climbs into the hole with Kathryn ( Whoa , I had to word that carefully ) and Sits with*

Kathryn_Anna 28-04-2016 11:55 AM

Hey Mark. How are you today?

Doikers 28-04-2016 01:54 PM

Much the same . . . .IDK if that's good or bad or neither. How are you Kathryn?

Kathryn_Anna 28-04-2016 02:03 PM

Well you aren't worse so that's good, right?

I'm feeling a bit antisocial at the moment. And overwhelmed. And just overall struggling. Really don't want to be here right now. Meh.

Kathryn_Anna 28-04-2016 07:56 PM

I feel asleep. Ugh. Now I feel worse than before. Could be I haven't eaten much all day. I ache and can barely function.

Doikers 29-04-2016 11:16 AM

*Glomps Kathryn*

You know when you wake up and know today is gonna be awful? That. :(

How are you all today?

*Places Pineapple Free Pizza on the Table*

Kathryn_Anna 29-04-2016 01:02 PM

*hugs* Mark. I've had days like that before. Hopefully today will go better than expected!

I'm just sort of here today. Woke up late but have made up a little time. The day just started and I'm ready for it to be over. *yawn* Plus side is the weekend starts tonight!

Eir 30-04-2016 10:39 AM

Submission is sorted without further penalty.
One more assignment for the semester. About 'active aging' based on a paper discussing how it's empty rhetoric. How painful. All I know is that it isn't well supported at work. A flyer and an essay.
Told my bestie that I'm looking for an out from my relationship. The man threatened the three year old with walking out into the bush to die, cos in a tantrum she said she didn't love him. Not on. He admitted it was just a threat. Just one he's used on me multiple times. It is the first major coffin nail. I've fought against his insecurity the entire nine years of our relationship, I won't have her suffering the same.

Kathryn_Anna 30-04-2016 12:11 PM

Yay for only one more assignment! And sorry to hear about your relationship. It's not OK he threatened your daughter (or you!). Has he been to counseling? <3 <3

*places breakfast foods on the table*

I slept horribly. Had a dream about talking to my kid's pediatrician. He's a super nice guy and easy to talk to. The entire dream though was him bringing up my mental health. He had some 112 question thing for me. Bleh. I deal with my mental health during the day so come time to sleep I want nothing to do with it. It's really put me in a funk.

Eir 30-04-2016 05:07 PM

It's an empty, if painful threat. He's never even made it to the door. (just realised it wasn't clear- he said if that was how she felt, that he would walk out and find a mineshaft for himself to die in)
He used to be on anti depressants. But they weren't right for him and he doesn't do the sharing feelings well, even within family. He no longer thinks he has mental health problems, but he's so paranoid and insecure.
It still guts me when he threatens to walk away or hurt himself. I still love him but he won't change, he just proved it with that sentence. And this is not a healthy environment for the little one. I don't want to see him hurt, but I won't let it continue.
And probably the worst part is, I'm not ready to leave yet. I'll live in hope till unis done. Maybe it will change. Maybe....
Oh and if I put as much effort into uni as I have this, my assignment would be done.

Kathryn_Anna 30-04-2016 07:02 PM


On my way to spend the afternoon with hubby's family. I'm on edge and ready to snap so this should be fun.

Kahlia1981 01-05-2016 12:50 AM

This world is so dark and evil. I'm terrified that I, including the whole system, can't cope or hold myself/ourselves together.

*disappears into pillow fort*

RescueIsPossible 01-05-2016 01:38 AM

*Curls up in middle of room*

Just need to not be alone
Feeling really alone and just...idk..... made a thread but since I haven't been posting much don't expect much from it

Eir 01-05-2016 09:43 AM

*hugs for everyone who wants one*
Feel awful. Nuff said.

Doikers 01-05-2016 11:05 AM


Feel Tre Awful.

RescueIsPossible 01-05-2016 01:09 PM

*Offers milk and cookies*

What's going on doik and eir

Doikers 01-05-2016 01:23 PM

Hey Haile . I just struggling a bit . How are you?

RescueIsPossible 01-05-2016 02:54 PM

Struggling alot but I'll get there
If you wanna talk my inbox is open

Eir 01-05-2016 04:41 PM

Just so done with existing, and think I'm pathetic for not doing something about it.
Must attempt sleep now. So i can continue to procrastinate this assignment.

Doikers 01-05-2016 05:19 PM

*Safe Group Hugs*

Doikers 03-05-2016 11:01 AM

How are we all?

Eir 03-05-2016 11:37 AM

Getting there. Sort of.
And yourself?

Doikers 03-05-2016 11:50 AM

Head overload :) :(

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