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happiness...its all a lie 23-07-2012 10:34 PM

*leaves cuddles for all*

is very sleepy tonight, curls up and sleeps.

ratboy75 24-07-2012 12:39 AM

* safe cuddles for all *

Darkness is only the absence of light, our lights banish even the shadows it shines so strong! :)

sapphire hearts 26-07-2012 03:11 AM

what is the ****ing point? it is too late for me.

Twisted_Illusions 26-07-2012 09:37 PM

Good evening everyone....

*cuddles Sapphire hearts* (if thats ok?)

midnightphoenix 26-07-2012 10:02 PM

*slinks into ward with duvet and curls up in corner pulling duvet over head* am I safe in here? Will anyone hurt me? Tonight even numbers are out to get me and I'm scared and anxious

OMG this post's an even number as well even numbers keep away from meeeeeeeeeeeeee

Heaven20 26-07-2012 10:26 PM

Is it okay if I check in? I know it's a place for older members, however I've never felt my age and well... at any rate I'm not feeling safe right now. Is that okay? *looks worried she'll upset/offend someone*

Midnight-star I'm sorry my username has an even number in it, but I'm smiling at you underneath see :) *hugs*

ratboy75 26-07-2012 11:15 PM

*crawls in sneakily, finds shadowed spot*

Need some quiet time away from the...

All safe here peeps.

Midnight - I'm an odd number, so it must be safe.

Heaven - totally welcome, all good

Heaven20 26-07-2012 11:16 PM

Thank you :)

*snuggles up to a teddy bear and curls up*

risenfromperdition 27-07-2012 01:34 AM

welcoem. :)
*sits in ward staring at wall*

Heaven20 27-07-2012 09:33 AM

:) Thank you.

Walls are good, I prefer corners....they're kind of magical....I don't know why.

Gem-Louise 27-07-2012 03:01 PM

really feel unsafe went to AandE yesturday after overdosing on quite alot of tablets ...went to see my new mental health worker today and told her about what i plan to do tonight and how low i am feeling and that all i want to do is die she said she was going to let he crisis team know that i am struggling and i may need support ..im just so ready to give up right now

midnightphoenix 27-07-2012 03:56 PM

Saphire

Gem-Louise 27-07-2012 04:13 PM

thanks hun x

Heaven20 27-07-2012 04:40 PM

I'm so sorry Saphire :( I'm sorry you feel unsafe I just want to hug you and look after you <3 x

Gem-Louise 27-07-2012 04:52 PM

aawwh thankyou hunnie <3 *hugs*

Heaven20 27-07-2012 05:45 PM

That's okay *sleeps on a the floor in a ball* Taking a depressed, agoraphobic, anxiety ridden anorexic food shopping, is incredibly cruel.

happiness...its all a lie 27-07-2012 09:00 PM

*checks in for 2 weeks*

I cant cope and need safety and people that understands.

Bad evil girl being punished.

midnightphoenix 27-07-2012 09:14 PM

you're not a bad person happiness

I'm a nasty nasty girl and have found something else I could use to destroy myself and tempted to smuggle it upstairs to use it later

Heaven20 27-07-2012 09:43 PM

Happiness, Midnight, You're beautiful wonderful totally lovely people.
Happiness *hugs* You'll be okay here, I'll make sure of it :)
Midnight, sweetheart, please whatever it is tell someone physically in your life that you have it. Or throw it/put it away/somewhere safe.
<3

happiness...its all a lie 27-07-2012 10:11 PM

*hides in corner*

ill be quiet and good just dont throw me out please. She is going to hate me more now.

*leaves hugs for everyone*

midnight please get rid of your tool you dont need it. Your not nasty either your lovely. Be safe.

Hi heaven im faye btw

Heaven20 27-07-2012 10:25 PM

Happiness lovely, no one hates you, not here at least. Who do you think is going to hate you more sweetie? *hugs* I'm Lexy. xx

sapphire hearts 28-07-2012 01:03 AM

*hugs faye* hun, you are one of the loveliest people I've ever known. You're not bad or evil, and no one could ever hate you *hugs* love you sweetie

*hugs midnight* you are good hun, I promise. You don't have to use the tool. You don't deserve to hurt honey, ever.

*hugs heaven* hey. hope you're ok.

happiness...its all a lie 28-07-2012 08:21 AM

Hi lexy

My mum we dont always get on and now she has all next week off work and im trying to find a job and i feel like im a burden to her and she doesnt like me. I cant explain it well but i wish she had never had me she makes me feel like im a mistake.

Thanks Katie, hope your ok. I am bad its ok i know it and its ok for people to hate me i dont mind im used to it.

Had BAD BAD dreams last night. *rocks shaking in the corner*

Heaven20 28-07-2012 09:45 AM

*sits crossed legged next to happiness* Do you want to know something sweets, I feel exactly the same about my Dad, except I can't look for a job. I've been signed off of every job in the past like...year :( He adopted me, he makes me feel like had he kept the receipt I wouldn't be here any more. I know how you're feeling, but trust me when I say that your Mum loves you more than you could ever imagine, my Dad would walk through fire for me, he just doesn't realise how upsetting what he says is to me sometimes.

I have PTSD flashbacks, and the other night I had a nightmare about being sectioned. I woke up shaking and crying, so I know how real and affecting dreams can be. But just try and remember that it's NOT real *giant hugs* You're not bad, no one should hate you, you seem wonderful and lovely.

I'm okay, my mum is going into hospital tomorrow evening and then my dad (as the donor) is going in Monday morning...it's weird and I'm not sure it'll hit me till we're driving to drop mum off at the ward.

xx

Louise 28-07-2012 07:23 PM

hugs everyone

midnightphoenix 28-07-2012 07:49 PM

*comes into ward and curls up in corner* Bad bad bad deserve to hurt

ratboy75 28-07-2012 10:36 PM

*curls up in a ball in the corner*

and that's why I'm not supposed to be around people - for a little while I get accepted, then for a bit I'm tolerated, but not spoken to, then I'm ignored - not part of the human race. :(

Gem-Louise 28-07-2012 10:40 PM

why am u such a screw up cant stop feeling suicidal

ratboy75 28-07-2012 11:06 PM

*hugs midnight* you don't deserve to be hurt, no-one deserves to be hurt dear

*hugs Saphire* you're not a screw up dear

YodaBearInterrupted 28-07-2012 11:20 PM

*puts some brownies and cookies on the table for all*

Really struggling right now and really want to SH, my journal isnt helping right now, and the person I reached out to hasnt responded back to me yet...

Gem-Louise 28-07-2012 11:20 PM

:( cant i am so close to just hurting myself feel so scared want all the voices and things to stop

Heaven20 28-07-2012 11:58 PM

*hugs everyone and cuddles you all up*

ninais 29-07-2012 04:18 AM

squashed
 
I'm feeling like a bug that's being squashed or stuck in a jar and denied air. If i had the option of spending some time in the hospital now, i would jump at it. As it is I can't be around anyone. It's been months since i could talk to people other than immediate family (and even that's just a necessary evil) I don't answer the phone or messages or post on facebook. I've driven everyone from my life but I can't cut, and certainly cannot die because i have a daughter who is, like me, bipolar and those things would be devastating to her. She's saved my life so many times because of that thought. On the other hand, my life is so intensely painful and lonely that i can barely function. Thank you for letting me get that off of my chest.

RootsbeforeBranches 29-07-2012 04:36 AM

haven't been on for a little while - life has been insanely busy and I'm experiencing a lot of goodbyes and lasts that are very hard... I hope everyone is doing alright - sending love and hugs!

midnightphoenix 29-07-2012 10:48 AM

Bad bad bad deserve to suffer and die

I've thrown the tool away again

ˈsäləˌterē 29-07-2012 02:10 PM

Ninais, I'm useless atm cause I feel so much like you do that you almost coulda been writing that for me. I just wanted you to know that you're not alone n someone cares. ��

Gem-Louise 29-07-2012 02:11 PM

i have had enough cant take it anymore

Laura2.0 29-07-2012 03:49 PM

*hugs all*

I know I haven't been on here for a while. And if I was, then I wasn't doing individuals.
I'm going to a specialized hospital on Tuesday, which means that I probably wont get much online time in the next time. I'm going to be there for 4 weeks... that's my plan anyway. I don't know their plan, but they can't hold me there if I don't want to be there.

hope you are all well or at least well enough

happiness...its all a lie 30-07-2012 08:17 AM

*curls up in the corner*

Heaven20 30-07-2012 07:33 PM

Not good enough, never has been, never will be... bad lexy, not doing enough, no no no... very bad. Not acceptable, unhelpful, selfish, self serving, brattish, bad bad bad. Doesn't deserve to live, should go away, everyone would be happy, oh yes they would. Bad lexy, should do more, not ill, not a tall...

Laura2.0 30-07-2012 08:56 PM

*hugs faye* how are you?

*hugs lexy* Is that your name? You are certainly not a bad person.


I'm going ip tomorrow morning. I wish you all a good time and all that.

risenfromperdition 30-07-2012 10:51 PM

good luck love <3 hope it's helpful for you <3

happiness...its all a lie 31-07-2012 07:07 PM

*sits in corner with tool* bad bad bad evil girl. Must learn to be better and not a failure.

midnightphoenix 31-07-2012 07:52 PM

I don't feel well I don't want to live any more and I can't get help until the psychiatrist contacts me

Gem-Louise 01-08-2012 01:22 AM

cant do this anymore just want to die

RootsbeforeBranches 01-08-2012 02:32 AM

I missed three months clean by days - also got the day wrong for therapy and missed that today. Thinking of disappearing

Lyria 01-08-2012 06:58 AM

HI EVERYONE! I'm back again and in a spiral of unmedication and no sleep. WOO. Whatever. I havent felt in a while. I want to crash...ok that's probably a bit sick but who cares...

midnightphoenix 01-08-2012 07:08 PM

Ugh I hate this I want out of here

Heaven20 01-08-2012 11:31 PM

-stares at a wall-

m0nk 02-08-2012 05:39 PM

DIE !
Hide in your fuc kin' grave
You're afraid of life
You do nothing
If you spenD life whineing about death
any wonder you dont like life
just shut up!
Actions speek louder
...but theres still no one listening.
I dont care what you do
just stop getting in my way.
Stop getting me down

You loved me
even though
I know-you knew
I would never love you back
Its youre fault
you shoulda known better
dont blame me, i told you i was heartless

I'm better now, thanks for the boost
oh you want a hand up?... sorry im kinda busy

I'll always lie to you
you're nothing to me
you dont even deserve my honesty
we were never friends
and now that you're no use to me
goodbye

I despise you

but who am I
I'm just a bit ch
I'm heartless, I'm cruel
I never even thought of what i did to you
and now i dont even talk to you
dying wont get my attention
dont live for me
find another
anything
aslong as I dont have to think of you ever again
you're dead to me


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