honestly sweetheart, you did everything you could have done and im sure she is really greatful for that. there wasnt much else you could have done but you were there when she reached out to you for help and that is wonderful. Im sorry you feel like you let her down but honestly you didnt.
You haven't been here very long but its clear to see that you are a wonderful person and care deeply about people. Please dont beat yourself up about it.
Take care of yourself and we are always here for you.
PM me if you need to talk more one-to-one....but if not then i'll be in and out all night :)
*hugs you tight*
xxxxx

*feels guilty for doing a very similar thing to Alex && Emma*

Guess who can't stop thinking about that night? How I should have let Emma get me help. I was letting her. But because of my mum, I chickened out, she would have understood though. (My mum that is) But instead I risked far too much. Gwad I feel ***** tonight :(

I'm not glad you feel ***** tonight. We all risk a bit too much sometimes but at the time are so low and unhappy that we don't stop to think of the effect it has on everyone around - or maybe we do but we think we are releiving them of their burden - i wish I could just dissapear - but more than that sometimes I wish I had never been in the first place that way I couldn't hurt anymore and I wouldn't be able to cause hurt or let anyone down.
Loads of hugs to you all.

Thanks Hun

*hugs you so so much Katch* You're a very special person hun and I'm glad you're around here :D Your words have really helped me hunnie and I hope we can help you too. The first exprience of knowing someone has taken an OD and you can't do much.....is awful. I know. Once my friend had been taking of suidice and regularly does (poor pet) and she said she'd text me the next day if she was still alive and I told her that if she did die from killing herself that night (well she attempted) that I wouldn't blame her and it was ok for her to do. But she promised she wouldnt leave me. The next day, my battery ran out pretty early and I was at college. So I spent the entire day feeling really worried, I felt ill from it and was a tiny bit. On the way home I was convinced she was dead.....but needless to saya few hours later she signed on and apolgised for not texting and told me she was ok. It's hard I know, but somehow you get used to dealing with it....well if you have a load of people over time talkin to u about what they done....which u may do from here, but it gets easier to cope with :) (Sorry for rambling and talking complete ****)

We are home, I have laundry going, bedding first cause I don't want those hours to make me sick. Cat is jumpy, i'm off for a nap soon. We are getting the car unloaded in bits and pieces. I always overpack. Yet last night all I had to read were romance novels, I left the only thing my husband could stand down in the car.

Katch, you did exactly what you could and should have. I get a lot of my stuff from AA. One thing we say is that we carry the message, we don't deliver it. Meaning we make the information and resources available but we can't make anyone take action. You carried the message and you did a good job of that.

If you would, if you hear, please let us know how Mummyof3 is doing? Or even ask her husband to update her thread in the wide world of vets support?

Helen don't be sillyyyy *rushes in and hugs you tight*

Thanks guys - you are the best - I so wish I had known sites like this existed years ago. I think her husband will let me knwo and I will put a post in when I hear anything.

*hugs you more and more*

Awwwww well be glad you have us now :D We'll always try our best to help people. Normally overall us vets and in here do cope well. But unfortnately we all seem to be struggling at the moment. -hugs- So some people cant support so good, but people are tryig their best =D

Right I'm gonna grab a shower cus my hair needs to be clean for work tomorrow.

Oh Katch*hugs you tight* sweetie it's always so scary when you're in such a situation. It sounds like you did everything you could and that's all that can be asked hunni. You did well. Please keep us updated on Mummyof3, and take care of yourself sweetie, this sort of thing can be very difficult.

Amanda, you're welcome. If you'd like to talk there's always someone to respond and we all care (though some are not in a position to support all that much).

Helen hun, you're not the only one that has put friends in similar situations. It is something that sometimes goes along with this struggle we are all in. It because we love you that we worry. *snuggles*

*sits in her corner and stares blankly at the floor*
I don't know what's going on, if I'm feeling better or just blank or what. Highly unmotivated... Very aware of my wrists (never a good thing because that means I'm thinking of cutting them)... Exhausted, restless... I just don't know any more... Damn.

I agree.....I've (unfortunately) done it so please try not to worry. we love you so so so much *hugs

Hey Amanda...I'm Alexx :]

Thanks Ally & Alex. I love you both you sweethearts *squezes*

Ally, can yo try and distract thoughts about self harm hun? Maybe make a promise with me? That we both don't cut tonight or whatever? Love you hunnie xxx

No worries Helen I don't have it in me to cut or do much of anything for that matter. A good thing too because what I mean by 'cut my wrists' is CUT my wrists:pinch:
*sigh*
Love you all.

I'm glad you can't do anything hun *snuggles* Please stay safe Ally sweetie *snuggles more*

I feel completly hopeless. I think?

*snuggles Helen* I know how you feel hun :-(

I got myself in trouble with the credit card people :-(. I think I can get caught up when I get my tax refund but that won't be until Monday at the earliest :-(
:crying:IsuckIsuckIsuckIsuckIsuckIsuckIsuckIsuckIs uckIsuck:crying:

arghhhhhhhhhhh i'm ill and feel horrible but have to start studying, 2 exams this week :S

take care everyone.

Ally you do not suck. If you are sincere and helpful with the credit card people and give them a change to give you a bit of time, they will. They'd rather give you a bit of extra time than have you walk away from your debt. Sorry, don't mean to be a downer. They will work with you if you are sincere about paying them.

Chloe, good luck on your exams.

I got a nap. It just reminded me of how tired I am. I think I may put on my sleepshirt and go watch TV with Philip and eat some dinner and fall asleep on the sofa. I have to remember that it is okay to sleep.

Thanks Susan-mom. I'm going to try and get a hold of them and see what I can do. I don't want to walk away from my debt. I want to get it taken care of and hopefully, one of these days have it paid off. I hope they'll be ok with waiting till I get my refund. I am glad you got to go home today and that you got a nap*hugs*

I cut. On my other wrist. But I didn't go too deep. Almost though. I better not cut there again or I'll end up like last time and I don't think they'll agree to not locking me up again. I'm gonna have to tell my doctor he can't see this one when I go in to see him about my meds. Don't want him to freak out on me. *sigh* I almost felt like crying while I was doing it... Weird to almost feel like crying but...*shrug* ugh hurts like a b**ch.

Take care all

I'm so so atm..not feeling the best...but it will get better
Thx's for asking alexx *squishes back at u*
How r u doing? u keep well? I hope so xx

I hope ur keeping well there ally...*squishes u too* lol

Oh yeah..good luck chloe!!! I hope u manage to do well in ur exams...*jem thinks ur smart so yeah u'll blitz it* :)

*runs in, hugs everyone, sits down *