Alexx, get your ear checked out immediately! I do have hearing loss from ear infections and it is a chore.

Ally, something will come up.

Katch, I've heard that you are only as sick as your secrets. This is a safe place to tell your story. So many of us have been though the same thing or something similar.

Katey-Lou, I'm worried about you. Please do as you're advised so you're here another day.

My vision is swimming. My husband is working, wait, he is dozing in fromt of his computer.

My husband says that once Bozo cat and Sage tortoise and I his blondie bear are settled in the motel room, he'll go home for a bit and open up the windows so our place can air out overnight. Our next door neighbor may do it if he gets home first. Tomorrow I want to at least wash a set of sheets so we don't have bad allergies or anything when we sleep.

I was a slightly bad girl today. I stopped at a quilt shop between having lunch with others from my morning meeting and coming to my husband's office. One of the little old ladies I was with spilled water all over her table, why do I end up cleaning up this stuff? I get tired of caring for others.

I have a wall hanging I want to do for our bedroom, a design pre printed onto fabric to stitch for a quilt or something, this one is 40 x 40 inches. Decided the colors of thread I'd picked out weren't the right ones for our bedroom so got three new spools, $8 per spool, Eguptian cotton, why don't they use California pima cotton? Hmmm

If this fog doesn't lift i'm going to go nuts. Never mind, it won't lift much until July 1. Never mind again, i am nuts.

i ****ing hate having exams.
why do i have to get sick NOW??

i'm sorry i dont mean to worry you. i dont mean to worry anyone. i just dont liek them trying to stop me. i wanna b left. :crying: why wont they just leave me be

Blondiebear - would that be hazel nut or walnut? your not nuts and good luck with the wall hanging - you will have totake a picture of it to let us see the finished work - I wouldn't even know where to begin.

Katey Lou - do you mind being in on your own - Hope you are OK with it - I know I'd prefer it (unless I could choose the people to be here) but we are all different. Just please look after yourself - I am sure meds have their bad sides but they must have good as well.

Ally, there is a purpose - for one we need you here - who else is going to hand out the coffee and biscuits. Something will turn up for after uni but you may need to do a bit of digging around and work out what you would like to turn up - then fight for it - as low as we all feel we are all fighters.

and Alexx - Yep I agree your ear needs looking at - you don't need that adding to your problems. Good luck

You are all amazing and I really need to be around some amazing people right now. Thank you

oops i think i scared all the amazing peope away. that's how i feel in life in general - hope some of you come back - could do with some company

*hugs everybody*

I'm here and still being ignored and beginning to feel slightly sad, might go to sleep and then wake up happy =D xxx

how are you

I edited my post lol at same time as you posting I think?

I'm feeling a bit deflated from my happiness :( Might just need to go bed and will feel better in the morning....

i'm stil here i was just getting a drink, i do like being on my own sumtimes i dont though. i think i'm just used to it. right now i dont mind it at all.

does that going to sleep and waking up happy work?

Sorry my internet connection keeps going down.
I'm not sure whether the sleep thing works but maybe we should try it sometime - you just reminded me of something though - "how can you wake up with a smile on your face everyday?


GO TO SLEEP WITH A PLATE IN YOUR MOUTH!!!
Probably not that funny but i know it made me laugh once in the past.

yeah i imagine it did make you laugh once, but its so true lol!! hmm yeah sleep might help except yeah it doesnt seem to happen at the minute without medication, but then wen i sleep i have nightamres so i dont wanna sleep. unless right now i dnt wake up from it

well we can just hang around here then - I've got to take my dogs out on the field for a minute but I will be back - if you are still around. If not catch you soon

I have woke up in the past and felt happy once I got going :S Not often tho....u kinda have to have been happy a bit at least the previous day or the sun to be really shining

well - the suns been doing it's part so I guess it'sdown to us. oops my dogs are pulling me to the door. catch you later

yeah i think that the being slightly happy may have to come into it somewhere. the sun bits true aswell i think but then yeah u can start the day of well but i struggle to keep that up if that happens .
i feel like going for a long run!

it's a bit dark and late to go for a run - if you do go take care

shoot - I want to stay here as I know sleep isn't going to come tonight - but i've been told I have to turn the internet connection off. I don't want to... thank you for making me feel a bit better though - my heart isn't going as fast as it was. still not sure saying everything was the right thing to do but I'm glad I have given it a go - I do still want to write the rest as my mind is so full of it and it seems to be absorbing my whole mind at the moment. Thank you to you both for listening - i'm really glad i found this site - it's the first thing i think about every day and the last thing i do every night - lus it's the first thing i've ever told this much to. thanks xxx

i'm going to go am getting a headache, bnot going to run gna go listen 2 sum msuci and see if that thing called sleep happens.

*cries*

I shouldn't have gone to sleep......had the WORST nightmare in a long time =[ Panic attack going on atm =[

Aww, Helen, I'm sorry*snuggles* I hope things get better soon...