Hey everyone!! It's been a number of days since I last posted in here. I hope Ya'll are doing the best you can.

I have been okay for the most part. Not much going on today except I'm waiting for the fiance to pick me up then we are going to the library to do some research then we are going to shoot our monthly local access paranormal tv show.

*offers everyone safe hugs*

I worked really hard today and I'm exhausted. I'm nervous about tomorrow. My son has a Dr's appointment and I have a feeling it's not going to go very well. I'm trying to prepare myself for it now but it's tough. I wish I didn't even have to go or at least hubby could go with me but he can't.

Good luck to your son tomorrow , Kathryn :)

Thanks. It didn't go well. :( he is so backed up Dr doesn't think he can get cleaned out at home and it'll be another hospitalization. His anxiety is through the roof and I don't know how to help him. He's only 9 (well in 2 weeks).

I'm sorry Kathryn :( *Offers Hugs*

How are y'all?

I'm trying to be positive this morning. I've loaded up on coffee, prepared to have more later too. Not quite ready to face the day but here it is so I guess I have to!

How are you today Mark?

Having a really rough time right now... I just want to make it all go away... especially the Voices

*puts some cookies and brownies on the table*

*sits in the corner and stares at the wall

I'm weary , Kathryn , Mentally and Phsyically .

*hugs* Mark. Care to talk about it?

I'm sorry you're having a rough time right now Matt. Anything we can do to help? *hugs*

Hi Matt , Are you a hugger? *Waves*

Just worn out from 3 year old tomorrow Nephew after 85 year old Granny with vascular dementia who was just repeating over and over she wanted to die and listing methods for about an hour this morning.

I'm sorry Mark. Sounds like a long day! Hope you can get some rest so you feel more refreshed in the morning. <3

The one day all week I need hubby home on time and he will be hours more I'm sure. I'm completely drained from today.

Hope your Fella rocks up soon!

Tomororow is a 3 year olds birthday , I wanna go home.

this was 2 pages ago, I'm sorry. I took an internet break. Sometimes keeping up everywhere is too stressful.

Because Kathryn asked a while back: I got accepted to residence and I put my tuition deposit down and got my student card. Just have to keep going to work so I can pay for my first few months at residence in a big lump sum. Going to work feels really hard but staying where I am now is unthinkable. It's starting to feel real and I'm getting cautiously excited.

*offers everyone handmade blankets* hope things are ok for everyone.

Drew, congratulations on residence! I know work may seem hard right now but just take it a little bit at a time and think of your end goal. You can do this!

Thank you for the blanket. It's beautiful :)

Today is going pretty well. Not at all how I planned though. That's both good and bad.

Thank-you :) I think it'll be really good for me.

I'm glad at least some parts of your day are going well!

I don't really understand what a residence is but I am happy you got what you needed ,Drew !

I'm fighting a sinus infection. Not fun. Sad that it's Sunday because if we can't get my son where he needs to be today then I'm worried how this week will go.

So for now... *offers warm drinks and pastries*

*sits down to color some more*

I don't want to be here again.i don't want the fear. I don't want the hate. I don't want the hopelessness. Yet here it comes.....again

*Offers Safe Hugs to Kathryn and Margo*

*offers Margo safe hugs*

I'm feeling really anxious today. I'm hoping it goes away soon.