Saphire

thanks hun x

I'm so sorry Saphire :( I'm sorry you feel unsafe I just want to hug you and look after you <3 x

aawwh thankyou hunnie <3 *hugs*

That's okay *sleeps on a the floor in a ball* Taking a depressed, agoraphobic, anxiety ridden anorexic food shopping, is incredibly cruel.

*checks in for 2 weeks*

I cant cope and need safety and people that understands.

Bad evil girl being punished.

you're not a bad person happiness

I'm a nasty nasty girl and have found something else I could use to destroy myself and tempted to smuggle it upstairs to use it later

Happiness, Midnight, You're beautiful wonderful totally lovely people.
Happiness *hugs* You'll be okay here, I'll make sure of it :)
Midnight, sweetheart, please whatever it is tell someone physically in your life that you have it. Or throw it/put it away/somewhere safe.
<3

*hides in corner*

ill be quiet and good just dont throw me out please. She is going to hate me more now.

*leaves hugs for everyone*

midnight please get rid of your tool you dont need it. Your not nasty either your lovely. Be safe.

Hi heaven im faye btw

Happiness lovely, no one hates you, not here at least. Who do you think is going to hate you more sweetie? *hugs* I'm Lexy. xx

*hugs faye* hun, you are one of the loveliest people I've ever known. You're not bad or evil, and no one could ever hate you *hugs* love you sweetie

*hugs midnight* you are good hun, I promise. You don't have to use the tool. You don't deserve to hurt honey, ever.

*hugs heaven* hey. hope you're ok.

Hi lexy

My mum we dont always get on and now she has all next week off work and im trying to find a job and i feel like im a burden to her and she doesnt like me. I cant explain it well but i wish she had never had me she makes me feel like im a mistake.

Thanks Katie, hope your ok. I am bad its ok i know it and its ok for people to hate me i dont mind im used to it.

Had BAD BAD dreams last night. *rocks shaking in the corner*

*sits crossed legged next to happiness* Do you want to know something sweets, I feel exactly the same about my Dad, except I can't look for a job. I've been signed off of every job in the past like...year :( He adopted me, he makes me feel like had he kept the receipt I wouldn't be here any more. I know how you're feeling, but trust me when I say that your Mum loves you more than you could ever imagine, my Dad would walk through fire for me, he just doesn't realise how upsetting what he says is to me sometimes.

I have PTSD flashbacks, and the other night I had a nightmare about being sectioned. I woke up shaking and crying, so I know how real and affecting dreams can be. But just try and remember that it's NOT real *giant hugs* You're not bad, no one should hate you, you seem wonderful and lovely.

I'm okay, my mum is going into hospital tomorrow evening and then my dad (as the donor) is going in Monday morning...it's weird and I'm not sure it'll hit me till we're driving to drop mum off at the ward.

xx

hugs everyone

*comes into ward and curls up in corner* Bad bad bad deserve to hurt

*curls up in a ball in the corner*

and that's why I'm not supposed to be around people - for a little while I get accepted, then for a bit I'm tolerated, but not spoken to, then I'm ignored - not part of the human race. :(

why am u such a screw up cant stop feeling suicidal

*hugs midnight* you don't deserve to be hurt, no-one deserves to be hurt dear

*hugs Saphire* you're not a screw up dear

*puts some brownies and cookies on the table for all*

Really struggling right now and really want to SH, my journal isnt helping right now, and the person I reached out to hasnt responded back to me yet...

:( cant i am so close to just hurting myself feel so scared want all the voices and things to stop