hugs, how are you? xx

I'm not sure happiness, I don't know what I am any more. I think I'm a cat and I want to run away back to Yorkshire ...

hugs, sorry you dont knwo what you want. Have you got anyone you can talk to about things?

*hugs midnight* if you're a cat, your typing is excellent :) sorry you're feeling this way. did anything trigger this?

*hugs faye* how you doing honey?

hey *shrugs* not good. Still stressing, things seem a little better with my dad but yeah i dont know. I give up still money is my biggest worry.

hugs. how are you?

surge of motivation means my room is finally tidy. its fading though, now i'm vegging watching buffy.

sorry things are bad with your dad hun *hugs* he doesn't deserve someone as great as you as a daughter.

I've just been remembering the past a lot, remembering the rescue and it's making me want to run away back to Yorkshire ... Not sure why I feel like I'm a cat ...

cats are cute and fluffy. no reason not to want to be one i guess :)
sorry the past is difficult to deal with honey, but it's over and you're safe *hugs*

:( ended up in AandE this morning because i was feeling suicidal and i dont feel any better told the crisis team that i was planning on overdosing today and she wasnt even listening i just feel so low and upset right now just want everything to end :(

*hugs butterfly* I'm sorry things are so bad at the moment, and that the crisis team didn't listen to you. Do you have a regular therapist or a friend/family member you can talk to and who can help keep you safe?

i have a mental health worker that was supposed to phone me today and she hasnt and now there office is closed and i dont have anyone else i just dont know what to do ...i dont see the point in going back to AandE when i have been once already today and it didnt help me

*hugs all*

Sorry for the random in and out. I feel bad about doing that. Back in here again cause I failed. Or is it going to fail? Things happened today that caused me to quickly go into depression and a bit of psychosis with the Voices. I tried to go for a walk and listened to some music and it helped a lil, but its all coming back. I hate myself. What did I do to deserve this? All I wanted was understanding and love. Love mostly from my parents. Not for them to ignore me and help my younger siblings to no end. I love my siblings, trust me I do. Just wish... you know... I could get the same help they did? Have my parents tell me they love me and want to help me? *tears up some* I dunno how I do this everyday... I should just do stupid stuff... then they paid attention to me even though it was negative... I should do that. I think I will. Make me feel better

*hugs YodaBearInterrupted* I'm sorry your family is so unsupportive of you. Don't do anything stupid honey. Don't hurt yourself, they're not worth it. It won't help you in the long run. Is there anyone you can talk to? xxx

*hugs butterfly* I'm so sorry no one is around, but please don't hurt yourself.

Both of you, PM me anytime. Stay safe. I love you both.
Katie x

*hugs all*

im so nervous and scared of this interview :( I cant not get it. I MUST have this job at all costs. I hate being this nervous. ahh. It sucks but at least its an easier feeling to cope with and then crash after it until i find out what they say.

*hugs sapphire* thanks hun :(

*hugs happiness* hope you get it hun and it goes well thinking of you

thanks, it went well i just want to know now if i got it. Im so nervous and worried and stressed all at once.

*hugs all* sorry I wasn't here in the last few days. I'm struggling with my ego states and don't have much time to turn on the computer.

hey laura how you doing now?

*curls up in corner* i want to sleep but everytime i shut my eyes bad things appear.

*stares blankly at the wall*

I am so mad at myself, I specifically didn't go out to dinner with my family so I wouldn't have to eat but they brought me something home and I didn't have much of a choice. It wasn't a high calorie or high fat food but still I didn't want to eat. It is making me uncomfortable and making me want to well do something that is bad. Tonight officially sucks. *sigh* I am just going to take something that will knock me out so this day can already be over and I can do better tomorrow.

*hugs everyone* how are you all? I really need to be productive and go clean the bathroom