I'm really disorientated. I posted on my own thread. I don't know what I said on there. It doesn't make sense to me. Nothing does.

I'm a bad person.

Your not a bad person at all and its ok to write on your own thread. Look after yourself hun

You're not a bad person Dylan *Hugs*

*Hugs Gemma* Please talk to us hun?

*hugs all*

I don't know what to do. I'm dissociated ALL the time. I don't remember the last time I was not dissociated. I don't think I want to 'come back', it scares me.

Yep a major Beatles fan :)

*hugs everyone*

Today I am actually feeling okay which is nice since the last few days have been the worst yet. I know that tonight it will probably get bad again but I am going to try and enjoy my day. I may go to the fair tonight but not sure yet.

just tired of everything thats happend and is happeing and i cant handle it anymore ....i just dont want to be alive anymore i dont have anyone inmy life that cares about me or that wants to help me i have no one....so many people have told me to just go and kill myself and i should just listen to them even my parents told me they wouldnt be botherd if i did that im worth nothing ...voices are too hard to control ...i just feel so unhappy in a life that i dont want anymore

May i have some safe cuddles please? my leg is really painful tonight
:( and im sad i was ok all day and now im in bed i just melted.

*safe hugs ya*

thank you i like safe hugs am v scared tonight.

really need someone to talk to or something

Saphire would PM-ing someone on RYL help? Or phoning crisis team?

i dont know who to pm :( and im too scared to phone crisis

Left a letter for my dad to find. Wish me luck

good luck hun xx

cant do this anymore :'(

PM anyone in this thread Saphire *hugs*

*hugs Huayruro* hope it goes well

i dont just want to pm someone random i want them to say i can :/

He still hasn't found it yet. We'll see what comes of this haha

EDIT: He's gone to sleep, so I suppose this will wait until tomorrow

I had a rough day today and I don't know why - I left my first job to go to my second and all I could think of was how much I wanted to injure. My second job cheered me up and then I had a great night with a friend who knew I needed a distraction... My life should be great right now but I just want to crawl into a corner and cry...

I wish someone else would be the mama bear for once and give me a break.

*curls into ball*

Saphire, you're welcome to PM me anytime though I'm pretty sure we're on totally different time zones and I'm not on as much as I'd like to be.

RootsbeforeBranches, I know that feeling. I'm constantly feeling as though I need even a tiny break. Hang in there.

Today was great until I had to deal with my X. He upset me so bad I was shaking and I wanted to SI so badly after... I'm glad my sis-in-law was here to distract me though.