*hugs everyone*

*hugs all*

*leaves some brownies and cookies on the table*

Today has just went south quickly. I wrote in my journal to see if it would help - its become a 8 page fight over who should control my mind, me or the Voices/Dark Lord. Dunno who is really winning the fight right now... but the urge to SH is becoming stronger as I write. It seems like the writing for my mind will continue till something winds

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Gemma*

*Hugs Dylan*

How are all my wardies today?

I'm wanting to escape from myself atm, feel like packing a bag and running off .............. I emailed samaritans yesterday but they haven't responded ............... have hardly eaten anything today and it's lunchtime .............

seriously thinking about really huritng myself i cant take it anymore im just fed up of evrything

Dylan , Perhaps you should wait for the Sams to reply? It can take a while but they get back to you *Hugs*

*Hugs Gemma* I know that feeling :( Is that you in your avatar pic or Amy Macdonald?

They have and they want to know my name .........

*hugs all* not much to say right now.

hugs everyone

*Hugs Dylan* You are under no obligation to tell them your name , they use Jo, you can use whatever you want too , Max , Kim , Sanday are all names that man/woman.

*Hugs Louise* How are you?

*Hugs Laura* How you?

better than yesterday. how are you?

Doikers its me in the avatar

I'm pretty flat Laura , It's good you are feeling better hun *Hugs*

*Hugs Gemma* Well you bear a strikeing resemmbelence to Amy Macdonald . Pretty :)

I could be better - trying to keep distracted.

*hugs Gemma*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Louise*

*hugs all*

I know it's been a long time... things are crazy! My soon to be x-husband is in the process of moving out. In the course of the past month I have had to close out the checking account, change over all my assistance so that he's not on it, and look at moving into a smaller place (still looking). I've had to deal with his new girl friend coming before the kids and me and his drama with the DWI he got when he totaled the van. I'm exhausted! I can't sleep, food has lost all appeal and I feel like I'm barely holding it together at all. I haven't cut since all this happened and I'm honestly not sure how I've avoided it... my heart aches so bad.

*hugs lj* sorry I forgot your real name.

I'm off to bed now. Good night all.

it's kelly.. and thanks... good night :)

it's kelly... and thanks... good night :)

*gives everyone extra long goodbye hugs*
I'm moving out tomorrow so won't have internet for a while which sucks. Just hoping I cope when I'm totally alone :s It sure will be a test! Take care guys :)