ljmeep |
06-06-2012 05:12 AM |
I know I've still been a bit MIA... things are really rough right now though and I don't have much time to check in these days. But I still like to have a spot to let loose some of these bubbling emotions so I'm taking a moment to let you all know what's up.
My husband is seeing another woman and so we've decided to divorce. He knows he doesn't have a leg to stand on in court so he's agreed on pretty much any terms I lay out, knowing he'll be better off taking what I offer. His entire family aside from his mom has written him off and is refusing to help him in any way and my family is ready to kick is butt if he's stupid enough to come around.
We're telling the kids tomorrow and that's the part I dread the most. I know my 7 yr old will take it the hardest while my 5 and 2 year old will take a while to fully grasp the changes that are taking place.
I've already started packing up his things and he's picking up a small load tonight while the kids are sleeping. I'm on pins and needles and completely agitated waiting on him to finish at work and get in and out as fast as possible. Thankfully, I've had a lot of friends and family surrounding me and keeping me busy... the distractions have kept me from slipping up and cutting though the urge is very strong. I've also been completely sick to my stomach so I've had no appetite. My sister-in-law (who stayed with me last night) is constantly reminding me to eat and making sure that I don't let myself go too long without a meal... I am so thankful for all the support.
I hope that you all are doing well. I miss being able to catch up with everyone and hope to have a chance to do so soon. You are all in my thoughts though even when I can't log in for days or weeks at a time.
|