*HUGS everybody*

Sorry, i haven't been there for anybody..must be a time difference doh..but hope everybody is okies :-)

*hugs*

So my friend is talking to me, thank god for that. My appointment letter came through, they lied to me AGAIN. They told me they'd make one for me, I was NOT told I had to make it myself.

**** it, I'm not going.

Helen, I am glad to hear your friend is talking to you again. As for your appointment, I am sure that is frusterating but maybe you should still go sweetie...
*still hugging you from the other night :-D*

Well damn... I've got an appointment to get my hand looked at in two hours... Will probably miss both of my classes this morning as ones at 09:00 and the others at 10:00... Oh well, I was kind of feeling to tired to go any way... But this isn't good for this term... I have to do well and finish uni and already it isn't feeling like it's possible... :crying:

*hugs Ally* I have belief in you to do well hun, I know it's been a struggle lately though.

Yeah it's good about my friend. But another one just half started a row with me, so have blocked her so I don't say anything I might regret. >.<

Lalalaaaa...
Im fine
no shes not
yes i am
no shes not
....

:/

I'm not okay.
Far from it.
Why did I have to realise?

*hugs Helen and Alexx*

Don't have anything for y'all atm, just please remember that I love you and think you're worth while...

Hand didn't get stitched and I only got a slightly nauseiating lecture so I suppose all could have been worse... of course he really didn't ask me before he decided to add another medication but that's not uncommon with him...

Will someone tell me what reality is please?
I want to die.

I would try...but I'm not in touch with it...
I live in my own head...
In my own fantasy...

But please dont die :crying:
you've helped me soooo much hun *hugs*

dont see the point anymore. f*cking scared of what doc will say. f*cking frustrated with everything else. dont care anymore

*SCREAMS*
*SCREAMS*
*SCREAMS*
I want to die.
But I can't.

p.s. Jeremy - don't you just love the time difference?

I hope you guys are ok. I have been rubbish at support lately. I just have no energy. I'm sorry I'm so useless. But yeah. I just want to die.

I think we all need a huge lift at the moment.
I wish I had words to help you guys and I know I'm trying to help you Ally && Alex....

I love you all, but I'm struggling so much myself too.

*hides in blanket crying*

A lift would be good. Any ideas?

Yeah...i love the difference...hahaha...not!

*hugs chloe and helen*

hang in there ppl...*offers them minty chocolate chip ice cream*

mmm minty chocolate. man, there are a lot of guests watching us right now. weird....they cant all be those searchy thingies. how are you?

I'm going shopping today but I'm so scared I'll hurt someone. I can't control myself anymore, I can't distinguish reality.
Love you all xxx

Errh, i could be better really...but oh well, i'll live

Urself chloe?

*hugs zowie* just try and pretend that everybody who u see r individuals like u

What's a 'searchy thingy'..?
And yeah, the other day there were like, five guests, and like two of us in here... lol it's like at pow-wow when all those non-native american white folks come and gawk at our dancing... Only this is more personal.

*hugs everyone that needs it*
Zowie, howd it go down town?

*snuggles Jeremy*
What's up friend?

Me? I'm awful but c'est la vie so... *yawn* and exhausted :-( damn and I've got all day to go yet...

*makes some breakfast for everyone, pancakes, waffles, eggs, bacon, mushrooms, tomatos, whatever, all good stuff... And te and coffee, very important those*

Town went okay, thanks for asking Ally. My friend who took me said I should tell someone about the police are spying on me. She got worried when I hid everytime a policeman walked past or if I heard a siren, so I had to tell her about how they are spying on me and she thinks it's because I'm 'unwell'
I don't think it is, I'm really sure they are. Is it because I'm unwell?

Hot air balloon?^_^