hugs to all!

Life = pointless!

Oh, my gosh, so many new people since the last time I posted, it seems. :)
So, to anyone who doesn't know me already, I'm Felicia :) *runs around hugging and greeting everyone*
Anyway, I may be back for a little while, since I finally finished my 3rd year of uni, only to find I don't know how I'm gonna afford my 4th year since my financial aid isn't gonna come through, but that's a whole different story, and I don't want to be whiny on my first post back. hah.

*Hugs everyone*

*runs off to watch Romeo and Juliet* I've wanted to watch this film all day... and I just now got around to it :) haha. Spaztastic brain, I tell you.

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Mara*

*Hugs Michelle*

*Hugs Felicia*

*hugs every one*

Hi Felicia, nice to meet you :-D

I need to check in here permanently. I need to be locked up in here. I drank too much last night and hurt myself worse than I have before. :cry:

*Hugs MJ* TYake care of yyour wounds carefully please hun :S

*hugs mara*
*hugs michelle*
*hugs felicia*
*hugs mark*
*hugs MJ*

I feel like my life is out of control since the psych appointment on Monday.
Is that normal?
I stopped eating, well.. I do eat... a little. I'm injuring a lot more than I used to before the appointment. I used to injure once a week or every other week now I'm injuring every day.
I'm really struggling right now. Hugs please?

*Massive Hugs For Laura*

*hugs mark* thanks. I really needed that. how are you?

Bit anxious , Must try hard to not injure twice in one day or drink , I must...

*hugs mark* can you distract yourself?

Chatting to friends but my dad is coming to take me shopping for heavy stuff , I could easily buy drink , Crickets on , TRYing to distract myself , seriously

Maybe you could take something small, like a bracelet or a picture of someone with you to remind you not to buy drink?

*hugs everyone*
I have to go buy flowers and balloons and stuff for dad's grave. It's his birthday.

I don't know how I'm not gonna SI today. I went 17 days without it, just for him... and now, I just wanna break.

I'm sorry.

*stops whining and runs out*

*cuddles Felicia*
*hugs Mark, Laura, MJ*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Crimson*

*hugs Felicia*
*hugs Crimson*
*hugs Mark*

*Night time hugs my wardies*

*hugs mark* good night

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs MJ*

*Hugs Michelle*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Mara*

My room is now sorted thank god. I had help to move all my things back in again. It finally feels like my room again.

*hugs Ian* I'm glad it's sorted!
*gently hugs Mark so not to wake him and whispers good night*
*hugs Laura*

This day has been a general disaster... Dealing with the federal court house and the federal archives is a ridiculous series of bullshit. Then the late court run and dealing with the in court clerks for the state court house... Then I'm trying to get a sister in law or two to go to the apartment to take stuff down to the truck and one says she doesn't want to because her knees hurt (i'm ok with this one because she and I did all the moving yesterday...), one is whining that she's still sick so she shouldn't do anything but sit on her ass, and the last just said no... she has not helped with anything but her own stuff the entire time we've been moving unless D made her which meant she's only been unloading and putting it just in the door (a 5 ft walk) while me and V have been going the 3 flights of stairs each direction and a good 30 or so ft walk from the car to the door to load it after i've packed it all... I'm disabled and my knees haven't stopped hurting since Sunday so I can't do all the up and down trips today and it seems if I don't do it all, all by myself, no one will do anything today. :(
/whinge