It's okay darling *cuddles*

Is it? i feel like i shouldn't be feeling bad, that i should be keeping it all hung together. i feel like i've fallen apart but i just cant stop to take the time to undo the sellotape and collapse for a bit, you know?

*Hugs Kahlia* 20 months is HUGE , I'm so pleased for you thats quite an acheivment :). Whats are rambutans ?
*Hugs Helen* Well Done on 2 months , thats awesome :)
*Hugs April* You'll do this , it will all be ok :)
*Hugs Kat*
*Hugs Julie*

*hugs doikers back*

Hi Kat , You can call me Mark :)

Ok, thanks for the hug mark. Wish I could say something more. But i don't know what i'm feeling right now. What about you? *grabs a duvet and snuggles down in a heap on the floor*

I'm just pretty numb Kat , *sigh* I don't know how I feel either. *Returns to his corner*

*cuddles you both*

I see a Laura

*frantically rubs eyes* *picks up duvet and walks over to the corner mark is in* *stands fiddling with duvet* wanna talk?

Sure I could use a friendly person :)

*cuddles helen back* I think i feel overwhelmed by life, restless and fidgety and lost in numbness, but my emotions wont work *flomps into random space on floor*

friendly i can do. lets do random. what have you done today mark?

Today not a lot , I fell asleep on the sofa in front of my whole family lol . On Friday it was my new Brother in laws birthday so we went and looked at Hereford cathedral and lunched out as the car had to be seen in Hereford. I've been staying at my parents since thursday night so as to be here for my bro in law's b'day, apparently they don't really celebrat them where he is from (The Gambia) so it was his first with all the gifts and cake and stuff . How about you ? what have you done recently? :)

*throws some confetti around for kahlia and helen* great job you guys!

*cuddles april* I agree with helen, please try to breathe. You can make it. I really believe that. I'm sry things arent going your way right now and that you are stressed out, but you can do this.

*hugs mark* It does make sense when you say that you don't know how to feel. I get like that sometimes... its not a lot of fun.

*hugs kat* I dont remember if i said welcome or not earlier.. if i didn't, Welcome! *hands over some welcome cookies*

*hugs julie*

*hugs JK* I was wondering where u went! lol. I'm glad that you were having a good time. Hope that you get to stay in a good place for at least awhile.

*hugs oliver* how r u doing now? Hope you are alright.

*hugs everyone else hiding around the ward*

I HAVE to concentrate today. I need to get stuff done. Trying to keep calm. I wish i could just sleep forever. That would be nice.
*finds a corner in the ward to do work in... but still close enough so that i dont feel lonely*

*cuddles everyone*
sorry for lack of individual replies, i'm feeling nervous about school tomorrow.

Why so nervous Nicole ? *HUG*

*hugs mark* i get major panick attacks at school. i hate it, cant wait to leave

Oh I'm sorry Nicole :( are you leaving when you get your GCSE's done over with?

Hi Kat *waves & hugs* I'm April. Didn't read a few pages back when you came in, wasn't up to it at the time... but welcome. :) I understand that feeling of not knowing how you're feeling - frustrating, huh?

*cuddles everyone*

I'm doing a bit better now, but still in a crappy mood and don't know where to go with uni stuff. I really don't want to have to focus and get stuff done... just want to play WoW, read my books, and relax!! but no can do... at least, not really. I can do those things each for a short period of time between doing work, but... not really much other than that. :'(

I just want to sleep... am so exhausted. Had a huge lunch (well, it felt like it was huge!!) and wanted to purge soo badly after that. :'( I hate struggling so much... I just want to feel better, is that too much to ask?

*hides again*

*skips around the ward, waving magic rainbow wand to pass out happiness*
sorry just had a great day, we went to a museum and then ate our picnic in there because it was raining, I think a lot of people hated us, cos someone had a big gay pride flag round there shoulders and a few couples in the group, some people gave us death stares, but it was a fun queer day.
its been 4 pages since this morning and I've got a headache, read most of it, but looking at the screen is making my head worse.
*comes round and hugs everyone and offers a hot drink of their choice*