Oops Little! Hope you got back to sleep. :)


I am awake and I really shouldn't be. :(

I’m awake and really don’t want to be. =(

Oh dear, person! What time do you start work?

7:30. =( Need to drag myself out of bed for a shower...

Well, that's a horrible time to start! I struggle with my 9am start on a Friday!

You can do it! *Cheerleads*

I made it. Trying to muster up some motivation to actually start doing something.

Well done. :) What do you need to do first?

Go into the glasshouse and start watering... My colleague isn’t in until 8:30 so I only have 50 mins now to dither.

Ah, ok. Can you do bits at a time? Maybe will be ok once you've started and got the momentum going?

I've had another 6.5 hours sleep and am still tired.

Hope you've managed to make a start NP.

Did the zopiclone not work aubergine?

I'm glad you got some more sleep, Lillie. Sorry you're still so tired though.


Not really, no. I did drop off more quickly, by about 12is, but I'm aware that I'm racking up quite a large sleep debt and I don't want it to set me back.

I'm glad you got some more sleep, Lillie. Sorry you're still so tired though.


Not really, no. I did drop off more quickly, by about 12is, but I'm aware that I'm racking up quite a large sleep debt and I don't want it to set me back.

Can you speak to someone on your team about it?

My CC is on holiday for two weeks. Someone else from her team is supposed to be phoning me at some point to check in, so I could maybe speak to her. Probably not a bad idea. I think I'm just worried about a lot and that makes it difficult to sleep!

Oh chuck *cuddles* sounds silly but do you do something to unwind before bed?

Thank you. Yeah, I do. Usually listen to some einaudi and have some horlicks. Perhaps it'll be better tonight when I'm not going to work the next day?

I hope so. If not consider calling your team? Even if its not your own CC I'm sure they can listen and may have something useful to suggest?

Yeah, you might be right. I'll see how I go tonight and if it's the same again I'll call tomorrow.



How're you doing?

Thats a good plan.

I'm a bit flat I think? Very fatigued. I need a kick up the bum to wash my windows and shower and stop being a giant idiot.

You are in no way a giant idiot. Motivation can be hard to find sometimes, especially if you're feeling a bit flat. Don't be so hard on yourself.*hug*

Thank you :)

I have washed up, put laundry on, put the dry stuff away and am about to hang up the stuff I put on so not too shabby.

Just feel so meh. Oh well.

What're you up to today?

That's not shabby at all! Pretty amazing given how you're feeling.

Not much this morning. Got work at 2pm until 4:30pm. Trying to rest before hand so I'm completely useless when I get there

Do you have plans? Did you say that you've got an appointment today?

Resting up sounds good. And you're not useless. You're getting back into the swing of things and that takes mental and physical effort.

Yeah I am meeting with my psych and CPN at half 3. I also need to do some of my course for work and REALLY need to wash my windows. But that involves getting showered and dressed and I am too potato shaped to feel happy in any of my clothes. And my psych writes about my appearance in her report.

It's really knackering, to be honest. Takes so much emotional and mental energy. Especially when I haven't slept.

Oh Lillie. You are not potato shaped! I understand you not feeling comfortable in any of your clothes though. My psych writes about my appearance too. This time he wrote "kemp" which is an improvement!

Everythings harder when you haven't slept!

Lol I usually get 'has obviously taken care over her appearance' or 'wasn't wearing make up, usually a sign she is low'. Of course I'm gunna take care when you judge me on it!! She even managed to write about my appearance when I was in work uniform.

Very true.

Wow, she really does pay attention! How did she managed to do it when you were in your work uniform?

Something along the lines of 'in work clothing but somewhat dishevelled'. Dude It was midweek and mid way through the day, when I'm seeing you on my lunch break and I get up at 6.20am and run around like a blue arsed fly all day.

Haha! Yes, it's difficult to maintain an immaculate appearance in those conditions. I always look like a mess when I leave work at the end of the day!

Lol me too!

My mum just told me to treat myself and she'll put something in my bank. Shes such a sweetie.

Oh that's really lovely! What are you going to treat yourself to?

A starbucks I think. I adore their caramel coffee frappes.

Sounds great! We don't have a Starbucks here, which is a bit sad. About 5 million Costas though!

But only if I get off my derriere and shower and do some of my course. Its sort of raining so I may have to wash the windows later- but they are minging cos of the building work going on all around me.

We have 4 costas bt only 1 starbucks now. And about 8 billion other coffee shops.

Oh cleaning minging windows doesn't sound fun at all. You're so good. I've been here over two years and I haven't cleaned the windows once!


People do love a coffee shop!


Need to have some kind of food...

I don't blame you. Ive considered paying a window cleaner. Its just mine are so huge that I need to do it.

Ugh getting dressed was an ordeal. My body has decided to be super sensitive to everything ever so everything I put on felt like sandpaper.

Did you find any food?

Big windows are nice, but they do have their downsides!


Oh no. :( That sounds horrible. Well done for persevering! I would have probably just turned up in my pyjamas! Wonder what psych would make out of that...


I haven't got much in. Nothing that I fancy, anyway. :/

Hello everyone

My mum has floor to ceiling windows on one whole side of the house. There are 5 of them in the kitchen/dining room alone!
I don't think she thought that through when building the house lol!!

Well done for doing the windows though. Like Aubergine, I have never done it!

That doesn't sound good Lillie.
Hopefully your body will get used to the clothes.

Hey Beckie! How are you?


I'm glad that I'm not the only one who doesn't clean their windows!


Wow, those windows sound pretty epic, Beckie! Bit of a pain though!

Im ok thanks

Haha! Yeah ain't nobody got time for that

Yep! They tend to get Jasmine height finger prints on them a lot. And dog height nose prints :p

Haha! They sound like a faff!


Glad you're ok. :



My goodness, I am so tired.

I’m also in the never-wash-the-windows club.

How did you sleep Aubergine?

Yay np! Lol

Hey Person! Glad you're on mine and Beckie's team! :)

Slept for four hours. nowhere near enough!

Oh dear, 4 hours is not enough at all!!

#teamdirtywindow

I found it really difficult to focus yesterday because I was so tired. Today is going to be worse. Bleurgh. Mind you, get through these 2.5 hours and I've got two days off! Hooray!

Haha! I love the name of our team!

I thought I was the only one who didn't wash my windows! I seem to be the only one among my neighbours anyway, the person across from me has just finished cleaning her windows.

I hope you get on ok today Aubergine.

Update: My neighbour has actually not finished washing her windows.

Just in case you wanted to know.

How's everyone getting on this afternoon?

My washing machine is beeping at me so I better go and get the clothes out and then have some lunch.

Yay Lindsay! You can join #teamdirtywindows :D


Thank you. :)


How're you today? Lunch and laundry is a good plan.

I really must get ready for work now. ugh.

Hope work goes ok Aubergine!
Just think of the 2 days off!

Lunch and laundry sounds good!

I've just been to Aldi.
Its so hard to eat healthily when you have no money.
Pack of own brand jaffa cakes - 31p
A melon - £1 something
And frozen pizza for 85p!!
Its ridiculous!
Payday on Friday though so I'll be able to resume my healthy eating