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SoMuchMore 09-11-2010 08:58 PM

Mark - hope you have a nice relaxing bath. Ive been in and out of the ward all day but it has been quiet for awhile... sorry you are feeling lonely. *hugs*

*hugs ian* how r u?

*hugs nicole* did your therapist offer you any support or anything like that? Im very proud of you for telling someone.

*hugs helen* oh no i'm sorry you couldnt get a hold of the person. Try calling back tomorrow maybe. Hope that you can still start on thursday.

*hugs crimson* i wish it was friday too. My week has been long and its only tuesday heh.

*hugs lia* lol a fun class is a bit of an oxymoron. How r u doing?

PoisonedApple 09-11-2010 08:59 PM

*hugs Mark* Teleports to Mark's place and Sets up a game of Scrabble and another of Backgammon in case Mark doesn't like Scrabble*

Doikers 09-11-2010 09:05 PM

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson* OOOOh Scrabble !! (Has never played backgammon)

misskitty112 09-11-2010 09:10 PM

*hugs Mark*
*hugs Laura*
*Hugs Crimson*

MammaMia 09-11-2010 09:14 PM

*hugs ward*

I've got the world's worst headache. It's making me grumpy too.

Laura - I was planning to phone again tomorrow, hopefully once I've got to college & before lessons start. :)
Ian - you're very welcome.
Mark - enjoy your bath :D

Doikers 09-11-2010 09:17 PM

*Hugs Helen* Hands over paracetemol for your poor bonce

*Hugs Felicia*

nicole94 09-11-2010 09:17 PM

*hugs everyone*
no laura, she was pretty useless tbh, just told me off for not telling her sooner :( how're you tonight?

MammaMia 09-11-2010 09:18 PM

Paracetamol makes me gag, even looking/hearing at the word LOL I'm lame. But thank you Mark :)

misskitty112 09-11-2010 09:27 PM

Ooooh, Mark, you like scrabble? I know that's random, but you should totally play against me one day. It's fun ;)

Sooo... anyone wanna finish my paper on the notions of desperation and revenge in Doctor Faustus and the Witch of Edmonton? I've got 5 pages done... you just need to do the other 5 ;)

risenfromperdition 09-11-2010 09:37 PM

i bet its fun to play scrabble against an english major >.>
:P

Doikers 09-11-2010 09:42 PM

I was so well depressed and freaked out about my impending birthday that I went on what can be described as an eBay bender :P , I'm going to get quite a bit of post over the next week or so .

Doikers 09-11-2010 10:09 PM

*Hugs the ward goodnight*

nicole94 09-11-2010 10:12 PM

*hugs mark goodnight*

FlyingNy 09-11-2010 10:16 PM

*Hugs all*

Sometimes, I wish I wasn't me. I feel so connected with someone who doesn't even exist, but a million miles away from the rest of the world. I wish people would stop mocking my physical contact thing. They don't understand and they just take the piss. Sometimes, I want to scream all my real fears right in their faces. See if they ridicule me then.

nicole94 09-11-2010 10:18 PM

*hugs lia*

FlyingNy 09-11-2010 10:24 PM

*Hugs Nicole* I hope you're feeling alright. I think RYL should have a 'Just...*shrugs*' mood. That's how I am half the time. Just shrugs.

nicole94 09-11-2010 10:26 PM

*hugs lia* that is actually a good idea, thats how i feel a lot of the time too :/ eugh, i've gotta go now though, hope you're ok though *big night-night hugs.*

PoisonedApple 09-11-2010 10:27 PM

lol never played backgammon mark? i always feel its odd when people haven't played it... i was taught by my father to play it when I was a toddler and could play on my own against adults before i hit school age :) i play on msn now so i can play people from all over :) *hugs mark* sleep well. and... YOU MADE IT!!!

*hugs everyone*
Sorry for the brevity... very very busy today.

FlyingNy 09-11-2010 10:40 PM

*Hugs Nicole tight* Nu-night lovely. Don't let the bed bugs bite. xx

Kahlia1981 10-11-2010 12:27 AM

*huggles all*

Just dropping in quickly to say hi and let you all know that I'm still hanging on. It's not elegant, but I'm holding on.

Cazki 10-11-2010 12:35 AM

I'm not bad thanks, Laura, got a bad cold though :( *Hugs Laura back* Hows everyone?

SoMuchMore 10-11-2010 03:09 AM

*hugs kahlia* it does not have to be elegant as long as you make it through. You can do this hun. My PM box is always open.

*hugs ian* i'm sorry about the cold, sounds like not a lot of fun.

*hugs mark* Hope you sleep well. I'm very glad you made it through today.

*hugs lia* I also like the idea of the shrugs mood.. i feel like that most of the time... just kinda "meh" i guess, which is a mood offered lol.

*hugs nicole* i'm sorry that she seemed angry at you for not telling her earlier. Do you think that could be because she really cares though? I mean, she could just be extremely worried. Hang in there hun. Here if you need to talk.

*hugs crimson* I've never played that game either. Sounds like you have a good time with it though.. holding your own before school age is pretty impressive lol. How else are you doing this evening?

I am not doing great right now. I feel like i could cry... random memories keep flooding back.. not flashbacks, just memories.. but still not a lot of fun. I'm not getting any uni work done either, which is pathetic and stupid of me. I know i'll pay for it later this week.

risenfromperdition 10-11-2010 04:35 AM

*squishes laura* you know where i am <3
isnt pathetic tho.
loveyou

*leaves cuddles for lia* sorry people take the piss about you not liking touch =[ thats lame of them =\

would write more but cant focus so eh.
thinking of all of you.

*throws extra special party for mark for making it through the past few days, yesterday esp* =]

Kahlia1981 10-11-2010 04:46 AM

*huggles all* - especially those who have responded to me over the last few days. It has been extremely appreciated.

I emailed my psychiatrist - only about 10 minutes ago at most - to keep him up to date with what has been going on and he has been most understanding. He thanked me for being honest and for being able to discuss what was going on with him. He said that at our next appointment we would put together a crisis plan that is actually relevant and specific to me. I guess that's a step forward. I see him again on Friday afternoon so hopefully things will start heading forwards from there with him on my side. *fingers crossed*

Mark: I'm so proud of you. You have shown such strength, especially with everything that's been going on. I want to throw you some confetti if I can, so please let me know if that's okay. *big hugs* :-)

xxjuliexx 10-11-2010 07:22 AM

-sits in my sleeping bag and looks around-

Doikers 10-11-2010 10:01 AM

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Kahlia* Go nuts with the Confetti :)

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson* My Grandfather taught me to play chess instead :) Also *Dumb moment* What does brevity mean ?

*Hugs Monsoon* Sorry with all thats been going on I haven't absorbed your name :S I'm Mark.

*Hugs Julie*

*Hugs Heather*

Gosh (thats right I said gosh:P) the ward was quiet overnight . I have a headache so I drank a frijj milkshake that I got yesterday reduced as it was the last day of it's shelf life in the hope that the sugar will make it go away,I also drank water and made coffee and took paracetemol.

On a random note early this morning I got a phone book through my door for Aberystwyth which is NOWHERE near me , heh.

EDIT:- Oops not such a quiet night I just missed a page :S heh

Doikers 10-11-2010 11:48 AM

To whoever sent me a PM ( all 4 of you ) , I haven't yet worked up the courage to read them but I will read them and reply to you guys , Just so you know I'm NOT ignoreing you I just don't want to read them and be put into a crying fit just yet :S Thankyou for them :)

nicole94 10-11-2010 04:02 PM

*hugs ward.*

Doikers 10-11-2010 04:25 PM

*Hugs Nicole* How are you today ?

nicole94 10-11-2010 04:30 PM

*hugs mark* i'm...not sure :/ i'm depressed, but silently determined to beat this. Having to work with all the children at college today made me realise how much i want a baby, and how I am never gonna get that if i carry on like this, so i think i'm gonna fight :/
how are you feeling?

risenfromperdition 10-11-2010 04:49 PM

*waves to everyone*

Doikers 10-11-2010 05:54 PM

*Hugs Nicole* I'm................coping is the best word , got tearful in front of my nurse again . fragile but coping , I've a feeling the feelings are in me and the smallest thing is going to set off a huge bout of crying , I NEED the release , I'm very tempted to injure tonight for the first time since last Thursday :S

SoMuchMore 10-11-2010 06:02 PM

*hugs mark* crying is okay. its good actually. much better than injuring. try not to injure, its not worth it. i am very proud of how well you are doing with all of this. I know its been super rough.

*hugs nicole* I am so so so happy to hear that you want to fight. One reason to hold on is enough hun. Sorry that you are still feeling low, but hang in there.

*hugs heather* how r u this morning? (although I guess its noon... so how r u this early afternoon? lol)

I might become a hermit over the few days. I'm trying not to but its easier to withdraw. *curls up in the corner* Just not doing the best. Don't worry though.

Doikers 10-11-2010 06:11 PM

*Hugs Laura* PM box open always .

frenchhorn 10-11-2010 06:34 PM

*hugs all*

The following content has been hidden - Reason : possibly triggering

I'm sorry i disappeared for a while.
and I'm sorry I can't be more supportive now I'm a mess. I don't know who alse I can tell, you lot are the only ones. I'm scared, I'm so severly depressed, I'm obsessed with death, with my own death, I just want to die, I want to take my medication take it all, but then I don't I want to wait until I can go the way I really want to go. I'm sorry guys

SoMuchMore 10-11-2010 06:44 PM

*hugs mark* thanks for the pm offer. i dont want to bother you while you're struggling so much though.

*hugs oliver* you don't need to be sorry, you can always talk to us. we are here for you. can you tell anyone in real life? your doctor? psych? it sounds like you are really struggling right now and I would hate to see anything happen to you. can you maybe give your medication to someone so you cannot take them all at once? try to hang in there. please try to talk to someone, keep talking to us.

FlyingNy 10-11-2010 06:55 PM

*Hugs everyone, especially Oliver* I'm sorry you're feeling so low. I don't know what I can say really because 'hang in there' isn't all too helpful at times like this, but just so you know we're all always here for you.

*Hugs Nicole* I think that's the best idea you've had in ages. Fighting will win out in the end. If you give up, you'll never know what you might have had. In five years time I could be studying English/creative writing with my first book published and heading home to the woman I am still hopelessly in love with. A dream I know, and probably best not to dwell on that one too much, but it's not impossible. Not physically at least.

*Hugs Mark* I totally understand that mood. That's how I feel half the time now. Grief is a funny thing. You can be fine one minute, and it can **** you up the next. Sometimes, there's that sudden crash of pain that takes your breath away and makes you unable to even move, but other times it's alright.

*Hugs Laura* We will worry, you know we will. You can always come here if you need to talk. I hope you know that. I know you probably do know that, but like me you find it hard to actually act on it.

*Hugs Heather* I don't mind hugs btw, not virtual ones anyway. But thank-you for thinking of that. It does suck, but I guess they don't know what goes through my head and what I am so afraid of, so I can't really be mad at them. I don't even know if there's anything to be afraid of. How are you anyway?

*Waves to Owen* Hello. You alright?

*Hugs Crimson* How are you today?

*Waves to Ian* Hello, I'm Lia. I have a cold too. We should spread the germs, it's always nice to share :)

*Hugs Kahlia* You just keep hanging on in there are you're doing so brilliantly now. Hopefully, Friday will bring something productive for you and in the meantime we are all here.

Cazki 10-11-2010 06:59 PM

Hey, thanks for the cuddles Laura and Mark, and its no problem mark, you have a lot going on so i dont expect you to remember my name. *Takes a sip of tea* *is lonely* I changed one of my pictures to mr Happy lol.

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Julie*

*Hugs Heather*

PoisonedApple 10-11-2010 07:08 PM

*hugs everyone in the ward*

Mark - From the online dictionary:
Quote:

brev·i·ty /ˈbrɛvɪti/ Show Spelled[brev-i-tee]
–noun 1. shortness of time or duration; briefness: the brevity of human life.

2. the quality of expressing much in few words; terseness: Brevity is the soul of wit
Chess is a good game too. I'm not as good at that one but I'm worse at Khet.

Kahlia - I do like to play but sometimes (the downside to online competition) I get bored waiting for other people to move lol As for how I am, I feel pretty good right now. The clothes I ordered in October finally came in :) Now I just have to have the coat hemmed so it's floor-length not dragging-on-the-floor length hehe. I even had my MIL french braid my hair last night after my shower so it'd be curly (evenly) and I put my hair up with a headband today :) Trying to focus on the good stuff. Trying not to put to much into hoping for this house...
I'm glad you're being honest with your psych and that he's listening and going to make a plan specific to you.

*extra special huggles for Oliver* Don't worry about being supportive to us. You have to take care of yourself first, how else could you support people in here if you aren't well yourself? You can PM me if you like.

***oops... Missed you Lia, and you too Ian... I took a long time to post I'm afraid. Mind going fast than my hands. :) How are you guys today? (other than having a cold that is)

Doikers 10-11-2010 07:35 PM

*Hugs Lia* That is precisly how my greif feels .

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Ian* *Remembers your name* :)

Doikers 10-11-2010 07:57 PM

*Hugs Oliver*

frenchhorn 10-11-2010 08:16 PM

I might go to hospital I feel severly unsafe, although even walking there may be an issue, maybe I should just take the pills anyway

Doikers 10-11-2010 08:21 PM

Oh Oliver Please PLEASE don't take those pills , I really think you should go to hospital if you can make yourself go through the doors , The Online support is Open on RYL up in the top left corner of your screen ^<. *Hugs*

frenchhorn 10-11-2010 08:41 PM

i think I'm going to go to the hospital if I can, I really want to take the pills though. I'm scared though that they'll just say I'm time wasting if I go and havn't actually OD'd

Doikers 10-11-2010 08:57 PM

Oliver , They won't think you're time wasting , I really think you should go , and maybe even take the pills with you and hand them over . Please Stay Safe .

PoisonedApple 10-11-2010 09:17 PM

*hugs Oliver* I agree with Mark. Go to the hospital, give them the pills (if you can) and explain why you're there, that you feel unsafe.

FlyingNy 10-11-2010 09:26 PM

That seems like a plan Oliver. Everyone here would be devesated if anything happened to you or any of the others. All of us here are a part of something and I think in a way feel responsible for each other.

And Mark, although I hate that you're going through this too, it's nice to know I am not alone in this.

EDIT:I'm alright thanks Crimson. And really. That's not me being me, getting up in the morning seems like a daunting prospect, but only because it's so flipping cold in the mornings now and the last thing I want to do is leave my warm comfy bed to go and study plays about suicide (although I do love English and 'Hamlet' is certainly better than 'The Spanish Tragedy'.

Doikers 10-11-2010 09:31 PM

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Lia* We are not alone in this , we have the each other as well as the whole ward :)

SparkleKitten 10-11-2010 10:01 PM

*cuddles all*

Did my first injection today for my new meds. Hurt like hell and I feel terrible. Trying not to be ill from it but I'm not sure I'll manage.

Got tests, coursework and exams littered throughout the next 2 weeks. I don't think I can cope with it all really. Feel so weak from these meds, straight in at 20mg of Methotrexate instead of the 15 they usually put you on for 7-13 weeks. Know I'm bad when I see my favourite food on tv and I'm repulsed. Test tomorrow too. It'll be a miracale if I can get up at 6am and go in.

Citalopram went up to 40mg too today. My body will hate me tomorrow. >:(

Just noticed I've been terrible recently, I keep coming in just to moan when you're all struggling too :( Sorry guys *cuddles* x

Doikers 10-11-2010 10:09 PM

*Hugs Sarah* You're NOT being terrible , in a thread like this there are bound to be time when a LOT of people are struggling , it's the nature of the beast , we can all support each other . I find supporting you guys all good as it keeps me busy . I like your new Hello Kitty by the way , Aloha :)


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