*moves over in her corner and invites Monark over*

What's up sweetie?

*hugs everyone and offers around tea and biscuts then returns to her corner and cries*

Good lord...

*pokes Ally in her corner* Do you want to talk hun or do you want to be left alone? x

Whyyyyy?
:(

*hugs everyone*

Are you ok hun? *hugs* xx

Not really :(

I think I might be a danger to myself... cause I don't want to eat...

*hugs helen* wat's up?

Bella...i dunno what to say really...but u need to eat to keep urself healthy and alive... *hugs*

*hugs* Helen what's up hun?

Bella...please try to eat *hugs*

*offers Emma a half smile*

Thanks much Emma dear but there's not much to say... seems I didn't make as compleate a climb out of this last episode of major depression as I thought I had and it's biting me in the butt... making Uni rather difficult atm and causing a bit of worry about whether or not I'm actually going to be able to graduate this spring... *sigh* ah, well...
LOL Looks like maybe I DID want to talk about it :-)

Many thanks

*grabs a cup of good tea and goes to her corner to try and get some sleep*

Falling down now. Still sitting quietly but really not in a good headspace. Just want to get out. Want to end it make it go away.

Hugs to all in pain.

*Hands around teddy bears and blankies to everyone*

Awww Ally...I hate it when I feel bad and then have all that extra stress on top too...it's horrible. Have you spoken to your tutors to see if you can get any allowances made? *hugs* hope you slept well x

*hugs Kahlia and anyone that needs it*

*hugs you two back*

Most of it is sorted out now :hop: But I still feel like **** :(

Do you want to talk about it hun? Glad you got the other stuff sorted though x

*hugs Carole and suggests that maybe all he needs is a slap across the head...*

Thanks Emma. I woke up just about every hour last night... GO ME!!!
No, I haven't talked to my instructors or anyone... I'm worried it will all just sound like excuses... it does to me... 'Oh, gee, my assignment didn't get done because I just haven't been able to function up to par'... :-(

I suck :crying:

*hugs everyone who needs it and curls up in her corner to cry herse;f to sleep*

:) Thanks

*lotsa hugs*

I've been very positive today, well yesterday, then got dead happy. :thumbup: Been bit tearful now though :crying: I feel like a loser for constantly cutting, even on good days or partly good days. I keep going dizzy or ligh headness, can't see to control anything except eating hmmm.

*hides in the corner and rocks with a blanket*

I don't want to do this anymore.. I really don't...

*hugs yoda* Stay strong hun, you can do this x

Hi again all. Thanks for the hugs. Saw my pdoc again today. Upped the dose of one of the cocktail. Still no light. ECT still a possibility if increase doesn't give enough relief. Hopefully it won't get to that.

*Hands round snacks and blankets and makes sure everyone is comfortably seated with pillows*

**hugs Kahlia**

Let's hope ur meds work and no ECT



*hugs Yoda* look after urself mate!



And lastly...Helen...tc there *hugs*

*sends love and hugs to everyone*

*walks in grabs bean bag and duvet hides in corner*

Wat's up handz? U alrite there?

i used to belong here
i used to be here all the time
i need to be here
i'm so lost...so scared cos its not safe for people to know who i am but i want my friends back
*cries* stupid ****ing bitch...

Set's up bed.

* Eek*

-is scared.

I wonder if I should have watched Casualty or not :notsure: Today's been very werid, I feel pretty rough, have cried lots. Now I feel pretty **** emotionally. :crying:

Well this was recently mentioned in Psychology, I know that they don't tend to do it much, just as a last resort. I hope it doesn't come to that hun.

*hugs Helen and anyone that needs it*

Sorry today has been so rough hun, cry all you want to *passes you a kleenex* I didn't see casualty so not sure what happened but remember it is fictional xx

*hugs Emma* :)

I know it's fictional, doesn't make suidice any easier to watch though. Ho hum. Dreading tomorrow, and I should't. I have work (woooohoo) which will take my mind off it, but the thing is like it's two months (tomorrow) since my parents made their split offical (like from tempoary to permant) =[

Cries and cries.
Its not ok and it wont be ok.

:Emoticon(14):

*hugs you lots*

*hugs charcoalchilld*

I know ur probably not in the mood to bother...but try and think positive there ;-) hope ur okies tho

I'm still here. And banging my head against the wall. At least I finally got some sleep. Yeah I know ECT is last resort but we've tried almost all meds on the market and ended up in some pretty bad situations. It's not the end of the world if it has to go that way though. Would reset the brain chemicals.

Just feels like the end of the world.

I cant do positive at the moment. Ross is dying. Like we were told he may not have made the night. Ive not heard anything since last night. he could be gona already. It should be me.

And i told my key worker about all the diet pills and restricting and self harming and wanting to die. then i saw casualty. it may just be a tv programme but i didnt need to see that

Still felling so unsafe - just want to cut it would be so easy.

*hugs everyone in room and then grabs a blankey and starts rocking backwards and forwards*

=[

I feel so rough. No college today, probs take tomorrow off too and go back Wednesday. I need to call my dad back, about work matters actually but can't. Darn it!

Don't even know what's wrong with me, headache, feel sick, stomach hurts, keep going dizzy, really tired, sore throat & that's pretty much it.

i have called sams. i hv called cpn. called priest. not just once. this hurts too much to carryt on

cant get this stupid computer to do what i want. tried to start new thread but wont have it. I'm sorry for takin up peoples time in hewre but its all i can make this piece of **** do. I'm real drunk and I just had a real good night out with my bf and a load of mates and got home and cut the **** outa my leg and i really dunno why and this whole thing f***in sucks.
I'm sorry to rant ut I had to let off steam to someone n i'm kind of alone at the mo.
sorry.

*stumbles in crying*
I can't stop the noises in my ears! My whole body hurts but I have so much stuff to do....
I'm so completely alone in this. I can't properly talk to anyone and no one understands...dammit!
*holds head, waits for whooshing to end*
Oh, and greetings all. Sorry for not being much help to anyone.

*hugs and cries herself*

*hugs everyone* Take care ok? I hope people are feeling a bit better x

*pokes head out from under her blanket*
Still here but feeling slightly better... I think :pinch: I'm rather foggy so I'm not sure of much right now... other than the fact that I am SO damn tired...
*hugs all that need it and hands around tea, hot cocoa, and biscutes*

*takes a hot choco and sits in the corner wraped up*

I'm feeling much better :)

Awwwww hun -hugs-

*Brews some coffee and leaves some on the table for anybody to drink*

Hope u all r well there xxx