*hugs Mark*

Least worst outcome I think just means the people who would lead to the best of the not so good outcomes.

How is everyone today?

ok, I get it now.
who could that be? For me it would be my best friend.

I dunno how I am right now, except that I'm tired.

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Laura*

*hugs everyone*

I don't feel like I can contact anyone. I have no friends who would listen so it would have to be a helpline or the crisis team but i'm very anxious about making phone calls.

*checks in *

* leaves Hugs Carebears and Hersey Kisses for everyone*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Purple Smurf if Okay?*

How is everyone doing?

*hugs Mark*
*hugs Lindsay*
*hugs Purple Smurf*

I passed a lunging exam today! I'm suuper proud of myself, cause I won a bet, too :-)
Only bad thing about today is that I have a headache and painkillers aren't working :mad: so I'm just drinking lots of tea and water.

*Hugs Lindsay*

*hugs Laura*

Morning Wardies! *Leaves Hugs and Coffee and Fruit*

hugs everyone

How are we all?

*Hugs Louise* How are you hun .

Mark-Bed-Now :P

Good Morning Wardies * Leaves Hot Drinks and Fruit*

Morning, Mark. How are you?

so-so Lindsay , How has your day been?

Yesterday was just another day, today will be just another day. I wish there was something worthwhile in my life.

It's quiet in here.

*Huggles Lindsay*

It is quiet yes. *Tumble weed blows by*

*eats tumble weed* Tasty.

*hugs Mark and Lindsay*

*goes to bed*

*Squashes Laura*

*CAN'T BREATHE*

*throws bubble wrap in Marks direction*

hugs everyone

*hugs Louise*

*curls up in a corner and sucks thumb*

*hugs Zebedee if ok* sorry, don't know your real name.

Curls up in corner

*hugs back* You can call me Zed

*hugs Syrup*
*hugs Zed*

how are you?

*Hugs Y'all*

*sits with zeddeh*
hey lovely one <3 how you doin?
*offers hug*

*Hugs Heather*

hello,
anyone here

How are you today, Laura?

*hugs Lindsay* how are you?

I'm not well, feel like a walking time bomb. I'm more dissociated than here. Doin skills a lot, but it's only working as long as I'm doing them. Walking is funny when you don't really feel your legs, but I went for a walk for more than an hour. Being outside is helping... as long as I'm outside. It's freezing cold here (we got the air from Siberia... said the weather person). I'm going to my best friend for the night now. She can help most of the time. I think I'm going to walk there (45min) and freeze a bit more, at least then I feel something.

*hugs Laura* I hope it helps to see your friend.

I'm trying to deny my feelings at the moment. Don't want to know how bad everything is.

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Laura*

I'm...not here, IDK how to describe it.

*hugs Lindsay* how are you now?
*hugs Mark* are you dissoziated?

Spending time with my friend helped, as long as I was there. I'm feeling even worse than yesterday now.

I don't know Laura , I hadn't even considered that :/
*Huggles*

*hugs Mark* I can't know cause I'm not there, but it could be a kind of dissoziation. Not all dissoziation is bad you know, my therapist said that it can be useful at times. Does it feel like you can't connect with anything, like you are kind of floating or as if you are under water? I get that sometimes, but I'm not sure if that's dissoziation. Do you like being not here or do you want to come back to 'here'?

I wanted to be "here" but then Didn't I've no clue . *Hugs Laura*

*hugs Mark* are you more 'here' now than not here?

I'm about to go to bed.

I think this is a really good thread. I'm going to commit myself to posting here daily....at least until I'm 'safe.'

I'm not doing too well recently...had a suicide attempt on Friday, kind of have that feeling you get when you're about to trip over your own feet. That right before you fall feeling. I have a friend who's been making me go to her house nightly cause she doesn't trust me to be on my own anymore. I should consider myself lucky. I don't know just not feeling the whole...life thing lately. :(

Anyway thanks for listening.

*Hugs Laura* I hope you slept well.

Hi Abrokenone , I'm Mark , *Hugs if okay*

*hugs ABrokenOne if ok*
*Hugs Mark* I did get to sleep, but then I woke up and felt like ****. Still feel like ****. Why is life so shitty for me? I guess it's my fault isn't it? 3 hours until I get to see my therapist.

how are you?

*Hugs Y'all*

Thanks for all the hugs. I wish I had better news. Still feeling all the alone/sad/hopeless crap. The site is helping though....some people really just do want someone to listen to them. Just for a second even. *Hugs EVERYONE*

*Squishes Laura*

*Hugs ABrokenOne*

*squishes Mark*
*hugs ABrokenOne*

how are you both??

I had therapy yesterday and I really didn't like it.

=[ therapy isnt really a likable thing :-P
*but* here if wanna talk x