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SoMuchMore 05-10-2010 06:05 PM

*hugs mark, sarah, april, nicole, lia, jill and everyone else*

I know i havent been around much.. im sorry anyway.

that's all for now. *hides away*

Doikers 05-10-2010 06:46 PM

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Laura*

I'm so triggered , sorry.

SoMuchMore 05-10-2010 06:50 PM

*hugs mark* here if you need to talk.

Doikers 05-10-2010 06:57 PM

Hey Laura :) I injured cak-handedly , I'm odd today , maybe because I didn't take last nights meds until this morning , thats so unlike me to forget totally to take a dose even if it's later that same day but to totally forget is odd .

How are you Laura?

SoMuchMore 05-10-2010 07:05 PM

*hugs* im sorry that you injured. I bet not taking your meds could be making you feel off today... sometimes people just forget though... don't beat yourself up about forgetting, it was an accident. Hopefully, getting back on schedule with them will make you feel better.

I'm... well.. not good, but okay... i won't do anything too bad. Just very overwhelmed and feeling under appreciated at both of my work places... plus my social anxiety stuff is getting worse, always replying situations that have happened throughout the day that nobody even would normally think anything of, but of course, i work myself up into a very embarrassed state. stupid.

Doikers 05-10-2010 07:13 PM


but of course, i work myself up into a very embarrassed state
That's not stupid Laura , I do the exact same thing , mountain out of a molehill yep all the time . Please try and stay safe , you said "i won't do anything too bad" which sort of implies that you might do SOMETHING so please be careful , I'm a little concerned for you :S

SoMuchMore 05-10-2010 07:20 PM

I hate that i do the mountain out of a molehill thing. It makes things so hard, i'm sorry that you struggle with it too :-/ And don't be concerned. I just dont know if I will SI or not. Ive been having battles with myself about the decision. It won't be anything worse than usual though, and i'm always okay. Sorry, i didnt mean to worry you.

Doikers 05-10-2010 07:26 PM

Don't be sorry Laura , I know Exactly the battle with myself over S.I. , it's tough *Hugs*

SoMuchMore 05-10-2010 07:33 PM

*hugs mark back* while im glad that someone can understand this.. i'm also sorry that you do. Also, i think i kind of hijacked this conversation with stuff about me when you said you were triggered, i didnt mean to... hope you arent upset about that. If you need to vent about anything I am here.

*glomps helen because i spy her*

Doikers 05-10-2010 07:33 PM

Helen!*Spots and hugs* How was your day with your friend ?

Doikers 05-10-2010 07:35 PM

Laura , I'm not upset with you at all , really , don't worry about it , I don't even know what to vent about I just WAS triggered and it built up all through yesterday and today it was just too much .....

MammaMia 05-10-2010 08:07 PM

It wasn't just a day Mark, I'm stopping with my bestie til next Monday remember?

*hugs you and Laura*

I'm good, not very well, AGAIN!!!! >_< Hopefully will be improved enough to get out & about tomorrow.

Scarletdreamer 05-10-2010 08:10 PM

*glomps Laura, Hels, and Mark, 'cause I spy all of you!!* :D


*curls up & hides out of sight, because after all, "out of sight out of mind," right?*

Doikers 05-10-2010 08:11 PM

OOh Of course Helen!! :) I hope you have a great time and feel better soon.

SoMuchMore 05-10-2010 08:11 PM

*cuddles helen* im sorry that you arent feeling well, i hope that despite that you are having a fantastic time with your bestie!

*hugs mark* ok, i just wanted to make sure you werent upset that i started on in about myself heh. And the build up of stuff can be so hard to deal with sometimes, i can definitely understand that. You can beat those urges though, as can i. Its tough but we can both do it right? :-)

*hugs april* i dont want to keep you out of sight or mind. Are you okay?

Doikers 05-10-2010 08:16 PM

*Squishes April* You okay hun?

Doikers 05-10-2010 08:17 PM

Yes , We can both do it Laura:)

MammaMia 05-10-2010 08:24 PM


Originally Posted by Scarletdreamer (Post 2518606)
*glomps Laura, Hels, and Mark, 'cause I spy all of you!!* :D

Out of sight, doesn't always mean out of mind honey :( *cuddles tight* Don't hide. *returns glomp*


Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 2518609)
OOh Of course Helen!! :) I hope you have a great time and feel better soon.

I will thanks :)


Originally Posted by Fallinstar0317 (Post 2518610)
*cuddles helen* im sorry that you arent feeling well, i hope that despite that you are having a fantastic time with your bestie!

*cuddles Laura* I am having a fantastic time with the bestie. She is rather amazing after all :woot:

shadowedsoul 05-10-2010 08:33 PM

sorry guys feeling crapy again. trying to distract myself, got way too many thoughts running through my head. just want to do something really stuiped. how can i be mad at this person also sad at the same time. sorry heads screwed up again. curls up.

Doikers 05-10-2010 08:43 PM

*Hugs Ya Jill*

RYUU 05-10-2010 08:58 PM

Feeling crappy at the moment the devil keeps telling me to kill myself
trying to drown them out

Doikers 05-10-2010 09:01 PM

*Hugs Ryuu* Thats good that you are trying to drown them out , keep going you don't have to listen to them

*Hugs the ward night night* Stay safe everyone :)

shadowedsoul 05-10-2010 09:04 PM

hugs mark back, goodnight stay safe.

Scarletdreamer 05-10-2010 09:28 PM

G'night Mark, sleep well, pleasant dreams!! *cuddles* <3

I'm... okayish. Dunno, started the day out weird but I'm feeling better now. Heh. But kinda lowish at the same time, I don't know. I just want to lie down again... and yeh... I did lie down today because I was so freaking exhausted, and was also cold - we still don't have heat in the apartment. So I was in a hoodie, sweatpants, and under a sheet and a really warm blanket. Haha. I stayed warm & listened to the radio. :P Didn't really sleep but rested which is almost as good. :)

But the lowish bit... could do without... ugh. :(

*hides again after cuddling everyone some more*

shadowedsoul 05-10-2010 10:04 PM

sorry guys. stuiped question.

SparkleKitten 05-10-2010 10:54 PM

My fiance and I are okay now, was all a misunderstanding. Feeling terrible though, requesting a meds change on Friday, it can't come quickly enough. *cuddles all*

xxjuliexx 05-10-2010 11:06 PM

*curls up shivering* so dam cold
i think i'm unwell i'm not sure i just dont feel good

PoisonedApple 05-10-2010 11:17 PM

*hugs everyone*
How is everyone? (sorry been like 15 pgs since i last got a chance to read...)

MammaMia 05-10-2010 11:21 PM

That made us laugh :D

PoisonedApple 05-10-2010 11:25 PM

lol the comments were the best! people look at you funny when you're in an office and randomly burst into laughter though.... just couldn't contain it!

SparkleKitten 05-10-2010 11:37 PM

*cuddles all* I'm heading to bed, got to be up at 6am to get to my 9am lecture. Yay _

Night xx

risenfromperdition 06-10-2010 03:12 AM

*sits in corner and sighs*

Doikers 06-10-2010 09:27 AM

Morning all.

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs April*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Julie*

*Hugs Jill*

MammaMia 06-10-2010 11:14 AM

Wow, very very quiet night in the ward........

Scarletdreamer 06-10-2010 11:48 AM

And very quiet morning... :-S Hope everyone's okay.

*cuddles all*

Doikers 06-10-2010 11:52 AM

*Spots and hugs April, Helen and Jill*:) How's everyone?

MammaMia 06-10-2010 12:01 PM

*hugs ward*

Has been a very quiet morning in the ward too, hope all are ok.

I'm still ill but having a good time, can't go out today at the moment, totally pissing it down and plus I'm so tired.

Doikers 06-10-2010 12:22 PM

I'm a bit down on myself today but I went for a walk got back made coffee opened my milk and it had gone off , yuk! so went back out to get supplies after drinking my (black) coffee . I just want to sleep now.

Tomorrow I have a "Groups that grow" session 1 of 12 ,they have taken little bits that work from all different theaputic approaches and rehabs and stuff and come up with this course , I'm anxious about being around a group of people , (There will be 12 plus 3 staff) but I hope it can help me get a hold of my S.I..

shadowedsoul 06-10-2010 12:44 PM

Er my afternoon going so well, not nearly got hit by a bus, thats triggered really stuiped thoughts that I'm trying really hard to igoure, so I can sort of fuchion at work can see that happening. Just want to hide. Cuddles all

Doikers 06-10-2010 04:12 PM

*Hugs Jill* I hope you're okay

FlyingNy 06-10-2010 05:03 PM

*Hugs everyone.*

Just gonna hang...(as in hang here, not gonna off myself).

Doikers 06-10-2010 05:18 PM

*Spots Lia Hanging and Hangs with her* How are you ? *Hugs*

SoMuchMore 06-10-2010 05:49 PM

*hugs crimson* haha what a funny story! how have you been?

*hugs helen* im sorry that your still sick and tired. Hope that things are going well at your besties though.

*hugs april* How are you today? Sorry to hear that you were so low yesterday. That sucks that you don't have heat. Its still getting up to around 75-80 during the day but then like 30 at night.. so i'm like a/c - heat - window open - closed. Very annoying lol, the weather is weird here.

*hugs mark* that "groups that grow" thing sounds pretty awesome! Hopefully it works for you. I understand being anxious but hopefully everyone there is very understanding of everyone else. Sorry that you are so tired today.

*hugs sarah* hope your lectures went okay today.

*hugs heather* how r u doing hun?

*hugs jill* I hope you are okay. Good job on trying to ignore those thoughts though. You can beat the urges, i know you can.

*hugs lia* you okay?

Long evening. Wound up having to go to work last night even though i normally have tuesday's off since i have class until 9pm, but so many people are sick right now... o well.. i like work most of the time.. just lately been feeling weird about everything. I've got bad thoughts rolling around in my head today on repeat, which i really hate when this happens. I don't know.. some days it just doesn't seem worth it, but i have to go to class in an hour or so for 3 hours.. then back to work.

ok done rambling... sorry.. i know i say a lot of pointless things you guys probably couldn't care less about.

Doikers 06-10-2010 05:55 PM

Oh Laura of course we all care *Hugs* It sounds like you have a Jam Packed scedule , You've probably said but I forgot what is your job? I hate hate hate it when bad thoughts roll around in my head , Can you do anything to distract yourself ? Music can work really well for me .

SoMuchMore 06-10-2010 06:07 PM

*hugs mark* yea my schedule is pretty busy all the time, which is good for distraction purposes but can make me really stressed out at times heh.. I'm trying to just ignore thoughts right now, going to class in a few minutes will probably be enough to distract me for now. And, I work as a page designer at the local newspaper here.

PoisonedApple 06-10-2010 06:16 PM


*hugs crimson* haha what a funny story! how have you been?
busy, frustrated, etc etc.... typed up a long letter to my mom in a r/v manner to get out all my frustrations about my current living sitch issues but then left it in draft form unfiished deciding i didn't wanna burden her. :) may post it in my r/v if i even bother to finish writing it... on the upside my office is coming along nicely and the person i've been doings job alongside mine for the last few months? she resigned. we can replace her now and i can get back to doing just one job in a month or so. still waiting to here if i get an interview or not but at least i know my resume went from hr to the hiring manager so even if i'm not picked i know i came close *really hoping for the job though.. i miss the warm climate in cali and will not miss supporting double my household size*
How're you doing now? (been a half hour now) Any better/ more distracted?

FlyingNy 06-10-2010 06:31 PM

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Laura* Of course we care. Bad thoughts really suck, but you're strong enough to get past them, I know you are :)

*Hugs Mark* Hey, thanks for the company. I'm Ok thanks, sort of. Not as weird as I was before. The 'twisted' mood seems to be wearing off, thank goodness. You alright?

SoMuchMore 06-10-2010 06:46 PM

*hugs crimson* im sure you mom wouldnt mind if you needed to vent about things, but i understand not being sure about sending it. I often type out things and then im like.. "hmm... better not." heh. Anyway, glad to hear that you should be back to only doing one job soon! Hopefully that will help a little with your stress load. And i know i say this every time you update about the job application, but good luck with it! I really hope that you get it since i know you really would like to move.

*hugs lia* I'm glad that you are at least sort of okay and feeling a little more normal.

Thoughts really don't seem to be settling down, leaving in a few minutes though, so maybe when i'm around other people they will a bit. If I don't get a chance to get back on until late tonight, hope everyone stays safe today/this evening.

Doikers 06-10-2010 06:46 PM

*Hugs Crimson* * Crosses fingers for you ta get the job*

Hey Lia:) I'm getting a stuffed up feeling in my nose :( I hope it doesen't develop into a full blown cold . I'm a little triggered , very aprehensive over my group tomorrow . My immediate goal is to not S.I. tonight .

shadowedsoul 06-10-2010 07:08 PM

Hugs lia mark and Laura.
Erm I'm really can't answear that. Argh!!! Can someone please make the next two weeks go away. Don't wanna do them. Curls up and starts shaking.

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