I hope you manage to identify the issue jen!
Awful not knowing what it is so not being able to fix it!

It is frustrating. I suspect that my brain is trolling me somehow, either FND or mentals. But who knows just trying to go with the flow and not get overly upset about it.

I tried watching Foyles War which is my go to TV show at the moment but the main character was wrongly accused of something and I weirdly couldn't handle the drama.

I guess getting upset about it is not going to help the situation! Probably make it worse.

Hm. Have you put something else on now?

Nah. That would involve making a decision about what to watch and there are too many options and that's kind of overwhelming. I ended up moving from living room to the office / spare room and am just lying on futon sofa bed staring at my phone really

Just do what you need to do!
There are indeed a lot of options these days!

Sorry I can't reply to your thread right now, Beckie but I have read and care.

No wonder you're tired. Do you sleep through the night though and just wake up early or are you awake a lot at night? I wish your body would allow you some good sleep. I'm struggling with mine too. I feel like I have no permission to be tired all the time because only people who do proper adult things are allowed to say they're tired all the time!

Jen, I hope you can find something helpful to do.

No worries lindsay!
Thank you :)

Unfortunately i do not sleep through the night!
You don't need permission to feel tired! Absolutely anyone can feel tired, no matter what they may, or may not have done that day!
I know when i was in hospital i wasn't doing anything and was constantly exhausted!

Has your sleep been better at some point in the past?

I don't really know what I need to do. Currently hanging out with my cuddly mammoth and Ducky and being the queen of indecisiveness. The current indecision is over what to have for dinner.

It was ok pre-hospital.
Used to get up naturally at about 8-8:30. Go to bed around 10. Decent sleep.
Towards the end of my admission and since i got home, i have had broken sleep and been unable to sleep past 7am.

Takeaway?

I have a huge pizza craving atm XD

Not sleeping properly sucks. Ido a bit better than you sleep wise but have not been quite right myself for a while. I reckon summer might not be helping with the bright light. Have you got blackout blinds?

I scrolled the delivery apps for about half an hour and just looked at food without ordering anything.

Yeah it probably doesn't.
I can't remember ever struggling this badly though!
I don't have blackout blinds, just normal blinds. Even if the landlord said i could put some up, i can't afford them XD

Fair. Maybe you'll fancy something later

Ninja Beckie! Eye mask? I guess it could be the combo of meds you are on / the kind of mentals your brain is trolling you eith

Exciting update I have decided to have a cauliflower cheese grill, wedges and beans. Which partner is going toake for me. I am halfway through my pack that I bought after both Beckie and Lindsay recommended them and have been enjoying them. And I think texture wise my brain will be ok with this dinner.

I can't sleep with anything like that on! I can't even do earplugs.
Quite possibly!
My cpn asked if i thought i was getting manic, despite me making the sleep issue very clear to him since i left hospital....:eyeroll:

Fingers crossed you enjoy them jen!
Sounds like a 10/10 dinner to me!

Me neither. I can tolerate a buff over my eyes (thin fabrics scarf tube thing) if I have a migraine as it's the lesser of two evils but I wriggle out of it during the night so it's no help with morning light.

*Shakes fist at cpn* he doesn't seem like he has all his marbles...

I am already enjoying the thought of eating it so fingers crossed it all works out

He doesn't.
He also randomly shaved his head the other week so.....

You'll have to let us know!

Hmm....

I will update you should be ready shortly.

Hope you enjoy it!

Final dinner update of the evening it was delicious and just what I needed. Glad that I eventually worked out something I felt like. And very thankful to the thread for introducing me to cauliflower cheese grills!!!

Yaaay success! So glad you enjoyed them!

Goodness gracious am I awake before Beckie?

I went to bed earlish (10:30pm) but then woke up at some point in night having a non epileptic seizure and just woke up again from a nightmare.

Morning Everyone!

Haha!
No, I was awake, just had a few bits to do!
However, i woke up at 4am to go to the toilet and then WENT BACK TO SLEEP! :O
This does not happen! Then woke up just before 6am. But I'm pretty happy with that tbh!

Sorry you had a rough night jen.
Do you have anything planned today or can you rest?

Morning!

Ah shucks! Amazing you got back to sleep for a couple of hours though.

I can rest as all I have to do today is the online shopping order. But despite night being rough and my body feeling it, my mind is weirdly awake.

Do you have any plans for today?

At least you can have a restful day!
Don't overdo it with the weird awakeness though!

Just need to clean out the boys and clean the house.
Cleaning the house doesn't take long because it's small!
Unless i decided to fixate on one spot like i do sometimes and spent like an hour just cleaning the blinds XD

Currently internetting while in bed so not overdoing it yet. I do need to make breakfast soon though and take my morning meds And I would really like a shower.

I hear you on the fixating while cleaning I find it happens more when the mentals are acting up.

I think I have worked out why I am weirdly awake, I forgot my evening meds last night because I fell asleep...

Well, my mentals are definitely acting up so it'll probably take all day to clean XD

Ah yeah, that would do it!

Also, i tagged you in a duck related post on fb!
I know you don't go on there very often so just letting you know!

*crossed fingers* you can clean speedily.

Ooh ducks. I may have to log on just to see it.

Tbh, it doesn't really matter if i clean slowly. Got nothing else going on!
Definitely need to clean. I just had to disturb one of those spindly spider things who was hanging out behind the taps in my bathroom sink XD
It either wasn't there this morning or i didn't notice!

I mean spiders are always there you just don't always see them especially in weather like this when the windows get opened. I reckon it would probably be nice to have some of your day for yourself though and not spend it alllll cleaning.

I have got up, made blueberry porridge, eaten said purple porridge and taken my morning meds. Am now watching some YouTube and gathering energy for a shower.

Oh and I logged on to the book of faces, that duck related post was awesome!

Yes that is true!

Sounds like a good morning!

I'm glad you enjoyed it!

I was promised thunderstorms and it is sunny....apparently the storm is coming around 1pm. But on my last shifr we were supposed to have one and it never happened. So we shall see.

I am also obsessing over the idea of a roast dinner XD

Yeah we keep being promised thunderstorms Nd not getting them. Have had a bit of rain lately though which has helped the weather. Meant to chuck down here around 6pm.

Roast dinners are amazing so understandable. Could you save up to get one at work in a few weeks time?

It is kinda cloudy so fingers crossed!

I have asked manager about tips.
I probably won't want one in a few weeks time XD
My craving time frames are very short and random!

That's frustrating (that the cravings have such a short time frame,) Could you make a list of things you get cravings for maybe some of them repeat. If so longer life things can be purchased when you do a big shop and then exist in the house for when the craving strikes!

I am about to attempt a nap. My brain has finally caught up with my body and I feel tired and have a bit of a headache

Probably not, it's a whole thing that is rather tricky to navigate! XD

Definitely best to nap then!

Morning guys x

Morning everyone, lots of early chat in here today. I hope you all have a good day.

Morning!

Turns out i have enough in my tips to make up money for a roast. But now I'm not hungry. Lol. Typical. I may still go.

Do they only serve roasts at a certain time? I'd hate for you to miss out and the cravings come back (if they've gone).

Nah. All day. But they usually run out later in the day.
I'm here now. And lovely manager is letting me have a roast for free, after taking pity on me counting out coins and paying part cash part card. Bless him. Nearly cried!
And i asked for a regular pepsi max and he gave me a large!

Such a good manager. You seem to have lots of amazing people at your job. I hope you enjoy/enjoyed your roast.

What a lovely guy!

Agreed, Tamo.

How are you getting on today?

I'm ok, got big sis round. We're sitting in the garden, it's warm but not sunny. How are you?

Do you think you might get some rain at some point? I hope you enjoy your time with your big sister. How often do you see her?

I'm hungry but can't go out for snacks. Will just need to wait till dinner time.

He's the best!

It's warm here, no sun, and VERY humid. So it's just like really sweaty instead of actually warm.
The storm is now predicted at 3pm. It was meant to be 1pm. That's what happened on Monday and the storm never came :plain:

Hope you're having a nice time tamo!

Why can't you go out for snacks lindsay?

Afternoon all. I am boiling and my mh isn't great today. It's Father's Day so I am going out later for a meal.

Just chased a fly upstairs so i could trap it in the bathroom and get it out of the window.
Guinea pigs can get flystrike. Which is very dangerous! So really don't need flies in here!

It's the same here with predicted thunderstorms and then nothing happening. The weather is out of control and is laughing at the weather forecasters.

I kind of just don't feel up to going out. I've just ordered a Subway since I didn't have much for lunch and can get snacks with that. Although it might take an hour to arrive and the reviews weren't great. Will see. Might not be hungry for dinner when the time comes.

I'm sorry you're not feeling too good, Dawn. I hope you can still enjoy your meal.

How did you manage to get the fly to obey you? That sounds like a lot of work having to get rid of all flies. I hope they stay out of your house from now on.

Flystrike? Good luck with your storm!

Idk about rain but it's cooling down. Sorry you don't have snacks :( my sister comes round most weekends.

Enjoy your meal insig.

We all deserve a nice storm.