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shadowedsoul 19-09-2010 01:03 AM

.hahahahahahahahahahahahhahhahahhahahahahahahahahh aahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha hahahahahahahhahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha hahahahahahahahah. fu*k i dont care. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

FlyingNy 19-09-2010 01:26 AM

Erm...are you alright Jill?

shadowedsoul 19-09-2010 01:35 AM

erm i really cant do this. hahhahahahahahahahhahahahaha damn it thats so funny. hahahahahahhaha.

Scarletdreamer 19-09-2010 03:13 AM

I. Am. ****ing. Sick. Of. This.

WTB (WoW slang for "Want to Buy"): replacement set of parents.

My parents just aren't being there for me. I need some wisdom from someone who's had a lot of years under his/her belt. And I can't turn to my parents. I just need support from someone like that. I don't know to whom I can turn. I have no one in my life that could act as "replacement parents." I don't have any grandparents left anymore... they all died years ago. I'm scared I'm going to be turning to imaginary people soon for wisdom. Which may be a good thing, in a way, because it means that I have that wisdom that I need within me...

I mean, example of BAD PARENTING (which most of you probably don't need, but whatever): was talking to my dad on the phone. He asked me how my Saturday (today) had been. I told him that it was bad until 4pm (which is when I was to go on a walk with a close friend, one of my few). He didn't even ASK WHY it was bad. He just accepted that it was and moved on. WHY DIDN'T HE ASK?!?!? :'( I realize that this is probably small in terms of what some of you go through every day... and I know that my parents are "good people," as the phrase goes... they... just aren't being what I need. :'(

I don't know. I am hurting in so many ways right now, I can't even begin to describe. I've been a veritable FOUNTAIN of tears this weekend so far... spent so much time crying that my eyes feel dry & swollen. Then Jarrod walked out of the room last night when I kept on saying that my life sucks, because, well, I don't want to get into a religious debate on here (PLZ DO NOT NEED THAT), but because it felt to him like blasphemy. Anywho... dunno if any of that made sense... sorry for blabbering on about myself again. :'(

KUDOS TO YOU if you got through that post... :-S

risenfromperdition 19-09-2010 04:02 AM

*squishes tight* wish i had some amazing wisdom to bestow, but just know i'm ALWAYS here <3

SoMuchMore 19-09-2010 08:38 AM

*cuddles april* I'm sorry that your parents were being like that and that jared is not very supportive. Wish I could do more but I am around if you need to vent.

*hugs lia, jill, and heather*

I don't want to be here anymore. Can I please give up?

shadowedsoul 19-09-2010 10:26 AM

Cuddles all, erm last night was so crazy, may have done somthing stuiped once again. hey what's new there. It all seamed to fall apart last night. Curls up in corner under a blanket hopping now one see her.

Doikers 19-09-2010 12:00 PM

*Hugs April*

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs everyone else on the ward*

I finally crawled out of bed (almost literally) a little while ago. Why is it SO hard to get up? Depression and meds I know :S argg!! Maybe I'm just lazy :(

Kahlia1981 19-09-2010 12:26 PM

I don't know if I even exist anymore .... I think I may not. My birthday is next Sunday and I had to chase my mother to see if we were doing anything (just as a note my sisters birthday is the day after so we usually get together for one celebration for both birthdays and nothing had even been mentioned nor planned until I mentioned it .... and I suggested making it compatible with my sisters schedule as she's the hardest of the two of us to suit and then there's been nothing since!!).

Maybe I'm just invisible .... or maybe I'm a figment of someone's imagination. Or maybe just a crash-test dummy torture device to see how much a human mind can stand being ignored.

I don't know. Is it even worth it. Is any of it worth it. Maybe it's just time to give in

Doikers 19-09-2010 12:34 PM

*Hugs Kahlia* I'm sorry you are being ignored :( You are most definatley not invisible . Please don't give in , that last sentance has worried me quite a bit , you are worth tons and don't deserve to be treated like this *Squishes*

I have to go out to pay my water bill now , *sigh* I don't really want to leave the flat I'm mentally drained despite not being up long .

xxjuliexx 19-09-2010 12:52 PM

*curls up and grumbles frowning*

Doikers 19-09-2010 01:25 PM

Whats up Julie? *Hugs*

Scarletdreamer 19-09-2010 01:49 PM

G'morning all... *cuddles*

Thanks for the support, Heather & Laura. Thing is, Jarrod IS being supportive, but not in the ways that my parents could be if they only OPENED THEIR EYES and saw what's going on with their daughter. Or thought to ask the right questions. I had a good ol' bawlfest last night about it. :( So when I went to bed my eyes felt swollen and dry. Ugh.

Kahlia, hon, you're not invisible here, I promise. *hugs gently* You're gonna be okay... things will get better. Remember, it can't rain all the time. I'm sorry that you feel invisible & ignored though... that has got to bite. :( <3

Jill... what's up, sweetie? what "something stupid"? :( *cuddles*

What's up, Julie, love? *cuddles*

Mark, how are you doing today? <3 *cuddles*

And for everyone whom I didn't mention... *CUDDLES!!!* :P

xxjuliexx 19-09-2010 01:50 PM

:notsure: just stuff *yawns and rubs my lower back*

xxjuliexx 19-09-2010 01:53 PM


Originally Posted by Scarletdreamer (Post 2496006)
I had a good ol' bawlfest last night about it. :( So when I went to bed my eyes felt swollen and dry. Ugh.

thats how my eyes feel

Doikers 19-09-2010 01:55 PM

I'm drained still April *Hugs* I don't know what to do with myself , I've got to figure out what to eat for dinner and even that seems like a chore , probably end having pasta , that takes the least efforst to cook . LAZY!. I just wan't to sleep:S A wheel just came off my chair , now I'm balancing on 4 wheels . Nuts .

What kind of stuff Julie?

shadowedsoul 19-09-2010 03:54 PM

cuddles all. april its noithing to worry about, all is good.

frenchhorn 19-09-2010 04:28 PM

afternoon/morning/evening all

I had a brilliant day yesterday, except the homophobic attack, me and my friend got at about 5.30am while walking to the coach station.
But London was awesome, it was my first ever protest march and can't wait for my next, also especially getting to see and hear Richard Dawkins and Peter Tatchell speak was so amazing.

*cuddles you all*
will do replies when my friend has gone home

one_step_closer 19-09-2010 04:29 PM

Today I have no idea what to say, but I wanted to post and leave hugs. *hugs*

Doikers 19-09-2010 04:42 PM

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Oliver* I'm glad you had such a cool time , shame about the Homophobes though :S

*Hugs Lindsay*

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