I’m in bed and not feeling sleepy. I was having cat cuddles too but he’s just disappeared.

I can’t get comfy and my elbow is throbbing. *sulk*

Is there anything that would help you feel less antsy Ducky?

Owh, poor you NP!

I'm in bed but also rather antsy!

Thanks Ducky. 3 weeks on Thursday!

Disappearing cat!


Oh no. :( That's difficult. Can you take anything for it?

Yes like magic!

Could take painkillers I suppose but that involves getting up.

I'm not sure, Hannah! I just... I don't know! Not really. I could do with a conversation with someone about a few things, but my Mum is not great at the moment, so she's not available. And all of my friends are asleep. Rude of them to sleep when I want to talk, I feel. :P


Three weeks! :)

Magic cat! :)

That is very rude indeed! Is there anything that it would help to talk about here?

Might be worth it if it means you'll get some sleep NP!

I'm getting all stressed about packing and stuff. Moving is one of my least favourite things to do!

I’m going to try and sleep now so goodnight everyone.

Sleep well!

Night Person! I hope you sleep well.


I phoned the Samaritans and spoke to a lovely lady. There's just lots of stuff going on and I don't really know what to do with it all. I'm fine. Like, safe and everything. Just... Tired and worried and stressed! And antsy tonight!


Oh moving is so horrible, Hannah. Is there anyone that can help you pack. Have you got much stuff to move?

*squish* Did it help to speak to someone? I hope you manage to get some rest lovely.

I have quite a lot of stuff haha. Nah I couldn't ask anyone to help. My dad is helping me move though.

Yeah, it helped. Though now I'm feeling lonely again. :P Thank you. I'm not working until 2pm tomorrow, so don't need to be up super early. I just feel... Rargh.


Haha! I remember moving from one room in a shared house into my own flat. There was a LOT of stuff to move, even from a not huge room! Moving flats was crazy. SO MUCH STUFF!


It's lovely that your Dad is helping you move. :) Have you got boxes and stuff?

I'm glad it helped, but sorry you're feeling lonely :( Can you watch a good TV show or something until you can sleep?

No, I need to get some from somewhere! See that's the thing, at this age I have accumulated not only a bedroom full of stuff, but also a kitchen full of stuff and a few random bits of furniture. It's very difficult to cram it all into one room!

Banana boxes are the best! Haha, yes, stuff does seem to accumulate! What furniture do you have?!


I may be applying for a job in Salisbury...

Like, right now? Wasn't the plan to apply next year? I think you're more than capable of doing whatever you decide to do, but maybe wait until you've slept on it? <3

I shall try to find some banana boxes! Here, I only have my desk and bedside table so not too bad!

I can't sleep. I'm all buzzy. Argh.

The plan is to apply next year, but the trainee courses are two years long, so this one won't be available then. It is closeish to home and I'd like to test the water a bit with an application. I'm only doing the boring bits at the moment, like employment history etc etc. I'll do the person spec thing tomorrow/later. Hah. May give the employer a ring tomorrow, I think. Perhaps arrange a visit. I'd just like to see a different hospital and how it works.


My Nan got me a load of banana boxes from Sainsbury's. She worked there for a loooooong time and thinks she owns the place even though she retired about 15 years ago, so just strolled out the back and demanded them from the poor assistants. So embarrassing. :P


I'm sorry that you can't sleep and are all buzzy. Sounds horrible. :(


I am awake. I think it may be lack of trazadone for the past two nights though, as I ran out. I pick more up tomorrow, but boo. Doom.

Ah, fair enough. Sounds like a good plan :) Maybe it would be a good idea to run it by your mum / CPN to see what they think? Sorry, I really don't mean to be a buzzkill! It does sound very exciting and I genuinely am sure that you can do it!

Haha, your Nan sounds pretty awesome!

Sorry you're awake. Awake at this time is not fun. I hope you do get some sleep and that getting your trazodone tomorrow helps! Does it help a lot with sleep? It's one of the meds my psych suggested as an option, not that it matters now, but I guess if I ever see someone else it might be relevant!

It is not much fun! I'm tired but I have that electricity running round under my skin. Should have taken a sleeping tablet really but it's too late now! Might try sleeping again in a minute, fingers crossed for success this time!

Mother is currently in the middle of going a bit mad, so I can't really run it past her. She has enough to deal with. Think I will phone CPN on Wednesday though, as I'm off work that day. :)


I find that trazodone helps rather a lot with sleep, yes. I get anxious about sleeping and because it's sedating it helps to calm me a bit and then I usually drift off. I also take it to help with anxiety, which I think is my issue this evening, so not having it for two nights is not the wisest. I also ran out of gabapentin at the same time, so my foot hurts. :wow:


I hope you sleep! I will keep my fingers crossed too!


I have delved into person spec. The cat is having an excellent sleep and I'm a little jealous.

Oh dear, your poor mum! Having a chat with your CPN sounds like a good plan :) Also as much as I think applying for a job is fabulous, I feel the need to suggest that 3.30am might not be the best time for doing it? As I imagine it is quite stimulating rather than relaxing!

Good to know, thank you! Oh no :( Anxiety and pain is really not much fun! Is there anything that would help you calm down and relax a bit?

I am also jealous of your cat! I hope you do get some sleep at some point.

I can't. I can't lie down and do nothing. What to do? My gym is open 24 hours so I could go there. But that might be a little *too* much effort :P

Haha you're right. 3:30am is not really the time to be applying for a job. I'm a bit like that though - can't just lie doing nothing. It's not because I'm buzzy like you though - more because I just get anxious about lying down. Have been having such bad dreams recently! Boo. I know better than to run out of medication. :wow:

Yes, effort of the gym is effort. Hmm. I don't know what to suggest that wouldn't sound like the crisis team - hot drink? ;) To be fair, I don't think they have ever suggested that to me.

Haha, you and your cat are both super adorable! He's really growing!!

Oh, anxiety and bad dreams are not fun. Maybe you should try a hot drink yourself? And some mindfulness? :P

I don't think the crisis team have ever suggested that to me either! Whenever I've had any contact with them (in three separate areas) they've actually been very good (not that I necessarily appreciated it at the time!!)

I've opted for some cross stitch :)

Hahaha. Me too. Though in two areas, not three.


What are you stitching?

He's so cute!! I want to steal him (but I won't!) :P

I'm doing a thank you card for my CC. It's got a cat on it. I will post a picture when I've finished! I found some sparkly fabric to stitch it on!

Oh that sounds good! :) Yes, please do post a picture! :) Love a bit of sparkle. :) What colour? Cats rule.


He IS so cute. He's my very best friend. :)

It's a purple cat. All the best cats are purple :P

Aww. That is adorable. I'm going to miss the cats I live with when I move out. They love me a lot more than my parents' cats do!!

I'm sure that your parents cats will start to love you more when you're there!


Purple cat sounds excellent!


I got into bed. I have to be up at 8am to phone the GP. Wah.

Well done for getting into bed :) Ugh that is not fun! Can you go back to sleep after calling the GP?

I couldn't sleep now if I wanted to, my flatmate's alarm is going off rather loudly every 3 minutes!

Why on earth does your flatmate get up at half 4?!?!?!

Alec is so so cute.

I woke myself up coughing and now can't stop to sleep. Booo.

That's a crazy time for an alarm! Who's silly enough to be awake enough at this time?! :P


Hey Lillie. :) I'm sorry that you have been coughing so much.

I'm certainly silly lol :-P I think you lot are though teehee

Do I try to go back to sleep? Or do I give up and read? Or watch TV? Hmmmm. Decisions.

Can you read/watch TV until you maybe sleep for a little bit again? You have an hour!

Don't remind me :-( work is sure to be crazy. Every man and his dog calls on a Monday because they are in 'agony' and have developed a 'swollen face'. And they turn up looking more well than the staff. Grrr.

Mondays in healthcare, eh?


I'm going to be one of them with the GP this morning. :P I'm hoping I don't need to see anyone, because I just need more omeprazole and ranitidine until the gastroscopy on Friday hopefully tells me what the issue is!

But that's different! You have a genuine need. Fingers crossed the procedure tells you what's wrong and it's an as fix.

Thanks. :)


I do know what you mean though. It's like when I get an Rx given to me from A&E and it's got paracetamol and ibuprofen on it. Um...

Lol. It's like, just go to he shop and spend like 60p?!! You have to feel for the poor dr who probably just needed to get rid of them.

It's now too late for a nap :( Gunna be a long ass day

Boo for it being too late for a nap. :( Will be thinking of you as you power through the day!


I'm tired.

Have a nap yourself?

Typically now I have to get up (in 18 min) I'm sleepy.

I think I've overtired myself. I think what I might do, is have a shower, put some clothes on, do my hair etc, then pretend that it's like a daytime nap - I seem better at those than sleeping at night!

Oh dear. :( Always the way!

It really is a daytime nap! It's my day time now anyway.

Right I need to go wash and make myself look vaguely alive.

It IS a daytime nap! You're right!


*hug*

Morning guys

Hey Beckie. How's it going?

I am sleepy!
Getting my hair cut today at the college salon so have to get the bus soon

How are you?

Ooo nice beckie!!

Why you no asleep yet aubergine?!

Oh Lillie, I hope your day goes okay and you aren't too exhausted!

Hey Beckie! Yay for haircut!

Ducky I really hope you get some sleep!!

Ahhh. So I got told an hour before I had to leave that I have to go work at another service that takes me over 2 hours to get to. I'm not happy! I hope you're all having a good day!