things that i have tried to keep hidden for years are coming to the suffice. i have to tell the doctors about them to be able to get completely "well" but i don't want to tell them.
i need to hurt myself. its easier than fighting. i want someone to hold me an tell me I'll be ok and to hold me tighter even when i push away an not coz they want to hurt me but because they care.

*sits in the corner rocking*

its all coming to the front an i cant hide it anymore.
i hate hurting myself but i have too, sometimes i have no choice.

Welcome to the Ward Freelyxfighting , I hope you're okay , I'm Mark :)

*Glomps Lindsay*

freelyXfighting, it's so hard to face difficult things but sometimes it's the best thing to do. If you're honest with people then they might be able to help you.

Mark, how are you?

Thank you for the warm welcome.
I know I need to be honest with them it's just I have kept this to myself for so many years now an I'm scared of what will happen if I tell them. An it's very confusing sometimes. To know who to believe an trust.

What do you think might happen if you tell them?

I'm scared that they will put me in a read psych ward and that I'll get diagnosed with something that i don't agree with. I'm scared that it will mean i really an ill. i know i an ill but its so hard to admit that!

I'm hot Lindsay , How are you hun?

freelyXfighting, professionals tend to do all they can to keep people out of hospital. Perhaps you could also let them know about your worries.

Mark, i'm also pretty hot and the heat is making me tired and have a headache. I like the sun and the heat but it's a bit too hot.

I have a stinking headache :(

How is everyone today?

*Glomps Lindsay*

*Huggles Georgia*

*throws water at Mark and runs away*

Hey gang I have not forgotten about you *calls for one the puppies to cuddle* lots has happened some good some distructive and bad. Missed you all though.

Hi Becca *waves*

heey there

*Waves* Hi Becca :)

*Throw ice I made out of your water back at you to cool ya* *Hugs*

I'm too cool to be hot but at the same time i'm too hot to be cool. I think i'm just a cool hot chick. :hehe:

:D heheh i been needing that im melting

how is everyone today

Not as good as yesterday, but surviving.

How are you, Louise?

Hello *waves*

Hello Zebedee *Waves* How are you? I'm Mark :)

Hi nice to meet you Mark =)
I'm not too bad, but not so good.. How are you doing?
You can call me Zed =)

Hi Zed, i'm Borris.

Hello there, Borris, it's a pleasure to meet you *tips hat*

*offers hugs*

*hugs tight*

zeddehhhhh <3
*leans into*
:)
hows you <3

its 90 degrees... i dislike this weather >.<

That's hot, right? I actually have no idea about temperatures! *sends cooling breeze to Heather*

32.22 c apparently

*Throws ice cubes at everyone*

It's cooler here today. And it was raining a tiny bit for a couple of seconds.

*curls up under duvet*

Is Zed ok?

*shrugs* I don't have any proper words to explain...

Oh Zed *hugs* Can you use random words? One word? Anything healthy to express yourself and let it out?

*sits with zeddeh and puts fred under duvet with you*
what lindsey said

I just can't shake off this misery deep within and all my head keeps shouting is that it would all go away if I just go and get a bottle. *hides and shuts up*

thats not true though love, you'll just feel worse. stay strong, i know you can fight it. just curl up with fred and watch a movie maybe? *cuddle*
and no need to shut up lovely <3

hugs everyone

*wave*

*waves back* how are you?

*hugs tight* you know going to get a bottle would make things so much worse in the long run lovely. I know you can do this. Bazinga!

Zed, I know it's tough but you can win this fight and feel proud of yourself for holding on.

Louise, how are you?

How are you, Heather?

im okish, how bout you <3

Not satisfied with how my life is going right now, but i'm ok. Might try and get some sleep soon.

Hi everyone, things aren't great again so yeah... back for now.

*cuddles under blanket*

hihi <3

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Zed* I Hope you're okay :)

*Hugs Feli*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Somebody I used to know* Hi , I'm Mark :)